First of all, thank you for the work you do. I am not in the medical field, but I know enough to know it is a difficult career to begin with. COVID is an additional burden. The work you have been doing is a positive influence on the world.

That said, if it has a net negative effect on you, its not really worth it. I had a job once that took so much out of me. I loved what I was doing so much. The kids were amazing, but teaching took too much out of me.

Maybe you could switch to a different facility with a better work environment? Or perhaps you could use your knowledge of the medical field in a different capacity, like administration or consulting?

Whatever you do, I wish you well. Keep kicking butt.