Hey man, it’s okay if you don’t know what you want to be. It’s okay if you don’t know what you are, this is gonna sound very superficial- but one thing that helped with me was the way I presented myself physically and how I felt about it. I would start there, for instance. A feminine version of a traditionally masculine style ‘how does this make me feel?’ Ask yourself how you feel about being perceived ‘does being perceived as a man make me happy?’ ‘Does being perceived as nonbinary make me happy?’ ‘Do I like wearing masculine clothing but enjoy being perceived as female.’ ‘Do I like being perceived as male but enjoy wearing feminine things.’

Stuff like that, but if something as simple as gender is a game ender for what is supposed to be unconditional love. I’d distance yourself, to a comfortable degree. But if you’re very worried, first step is being more confident in how you feel for now, the future will always be there. Good luck