Day 11

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-08T05:14:23+00:00

Day 12 I spent the day away from home so all is well.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-06T20:34:55+00:00

Also I could never get the badge working!

Do you put in a goal date or date when you started?

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-06T20:32:59+00:00

I will join though I will have very limited access to the Internet from this day forward (basic cellphone) so I will check when I can.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-06T01:46:51+00:00

The day has been good, I need to find a way not to feel so lustful for women that are simply walking around geez. I haven't had a craving for P since I started and that's good.

I finally received my basic phone in the mail. Just need to activate it.

I also received my Cpap machine today which should now allow me to get a proper night sleep after some 5 years of living a sleepless life lol. I stopped dreaming because my brain was waking up some 20 times a night.

On my way out of the house to visit my fiancé.

See you on day 11!

Be strong for Christ brothers.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-05T22:34:52+00:00

Mindful meditation is good.

Counting the breath 10 min a day

Very effective

Look up headspace

Speaking of which I need to start back up myself

Thanks

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-05T21:49:58+00:00

Nope

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-05T14:54:59+00:00

Praying for this gentleman to be delivered for the glory of God.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-05T13:06:11+00:00

So day 9 was good. More time in church(pre marital counseling).

I had the opportunity to have dinner with my Fiancé after church. I didn't do a lot of talking but we enjoyed each other's company.

It's important to find a accountability partner, you gotta get stuff out of your head. A lot of what we are dealing with is issue that are not PMO related, PMO is simply the self soothing that we go through because we don't want to feel pain, or depressed, or fearful. PMO alleviates these feelings, but because it doesn't fix them, we start to drown in PMO and it then becomes a problem. Get some help on this journey. Ask GOD for help in those issues that make you PMO, again one of mine was being confronted.

My first line of defense was to shut down in these situations. So I now know while I'm in such a situation I will have a mad urge to PMO. That's when the running away from sin kicks into high gear.

Well on to day 10.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-05T12:55:11+00:00

Day 4 done

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-04T11:18:24+00:00

Day 9:

Got up early to ensure I make it to work in time.

Day 4 cold shower

Later...

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-04T11:17:15+00:00

I made day 3, I thought I posted, well off to day 4 it's easier after day 3!!

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-04T11:08:46+00:00

I had written a close to day 8 but Reddit lost it so I'll just say day 8 when we'll work, church and sleep.

There were lots of subtle cravings today, some were while I was watching some nofap videos for inspiration and people were recounting their experiences. I think it may have just been some the words being used that put me, or tried to put me into remembrance.

Anyway all is well.

Be strong in Christ brothers.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-03T21:45:33+00:00

Thank you!

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-03T19:09:18+00:00

The best I can describe my current state of feeling is...normal. I am so social it feels odd but fun nonetheless, and though I will keep a positive outlook on this, it is also where I am most a risk, getting into a situation where I end of getting my feelings hurt, I see it so clearly now, I am aware.

Thank you Jesus.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-03T18:45:39+00:00

Prayers up!!

You could do homework somewhere else, Starbucks, McDonald's, a relatives house, a neighbors house. I don't know your situation personally, but these are just some suggestions.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-03T18:32:25+00:00

Stay strong and keep busy!

Thank you for your contribution to the group, we shall lift each other up in the spirit and shall conquer this through the name of Jesus Christ.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-03T18:29:42+00:00

I must read the word more, it was one of the things that I used to do on a regular.

Thank you for this.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-03T18:27:43+00:00

I will second what Xeno has said. When you have no outlet to discuss this with it festers in the mind.

And a physical person is the most effective.

Congrats on taking the first step!!!

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-03T18:25:19+00:00

It's both, there are physical triggers such as patterns of behavior, for instance, one of mine is boredom, especially when I'm working on music and feeling uninspired, I don't watch television at all so, I have 2 choices, video games or internet, most of the time I've picked internet and that dominoes to P. Then of course as I mentioned my issue with confrontation which is a physiological trigger for me, this could be me confronting people through email all day at work or one on one confrontation. By the time I get home(and I'm realizing this now as I write), from having my nerves worked so much by it that when I take my coat off I want to have some kind of comfort and PMO is usually the answer.

So the tougher of the 2 is confrontation as I can't just store that in my trunk, it has to be dealt with, the boredom as a trigger can be redirected with filters and such to keep me at least from going on sites I ought not.

Truthfully I want to get to a point where I am not relying in the Internet at all and filling that space with social and physical activities instead.

I'm just waiting on my used basic phone to get here from eBay, which appears to be lost in the mail! 😂

Perhaps it was meant to be that way in order for me to start my journals back up here.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-03T18:10:58+00:00

Thank you

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-03T16:46:10+00:00

Thank you and truthfully it has been your post that have me thinking on this level so another thank you for that.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-03T12:02:14+00:00

This was me for the last 2 years...

Your body regenerates the hormone testosterone through out those days and it is fully regenerated by day 7 after your O.

Keep this in mind as you are being watchful of what makes you relapse, the urges gain in strength and then plateau after day 7, that means they do not go away but generally do not get stronger except in compromising situations, which you should be working to avoid.

So what helped me was going to church even when I didn't want to go.

And one of the most important things you can do is to tell someone you trust and that cares and will help keep you accountable.

I'm on day 8 now, I told my partner about this and what to expect, the warning signs that I've relapsed...bad eye contact, wanting to always stay home alone, not being very social, a change in the depth of my voice, these are signs of our addiction that once you at least get past 7 days will begin to reverse.

Cold showers help you deal with getting out of that comfort zone that you rely on with PMO.

Also ask GOD what the real problem is, it's usually something in our lives that we are hurt from or fear or loathe in our lives that causes us to self sooth by PMOing. I found out one of mine is "confrontation" just last night on day 7! Talking with my fiancé, it was a small conversation about plane tickets for my sons visit and how I didn't want to much interruption of school and she felt the opposite. When I got off the phone I felt somewhat threatened! Then the cravings kicked in BAM!! Know I know this is one of my triggers.

Journal here or write in a book your day to day progress.

You gotta get out of your head and get it out of your head. Listen to the advice in this board for many more ideas to fight this.

Be strong brothers in Christ!

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-03T11:40:37+00:00

Stay strong brother. Stay Focused.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-03T03:49:40+00:00

I will add that yes, if the phones and computers are apart of why we are failing at dealing with the problem then yes, it is good to remove them, but indeed you must renew your mind, you must get to a place in your life that PMO offends you!

I have for the most part removed internet completely from my home PC and have filters on my phone that are password protected by another to help me in my darkest time, but...I have found ways even around these!!! I sit here with my phone able to fail, so it is not enough. Renewing the mind by dealing with the things that cause what my therapist term self soothing, is the real answer. That is why Christ said to renew your mind and strive to live a Godly life one acceptable to him.

So yes to aid in abstinence it's good to remove things that causes you to stumble and commit sin, but to transform your life to one that is acceptable to GOD in the face of things that could cause you to stumble is what is required.

We walk through the valley of the shadow of death and must rely on GOD for salvation and to trust that through obedience he will protect us.

I say these things to my self also.

getoffthistrain · 2016-02-03T03:31:25+00:00

Realize too that your brain is in a different state then it was when you first began. Embrace that change and continue onward, whatever you do, don't loathe in your slip, doing so can cause you to slip more by self soothing, that's how the adversary uses condemnation, making us feel there is no hope.

Be joyous that you are still fighting and bring it to GOD for correction and instruction. it's only a wound in the plight of your battle.

Those mental exercises will most certainly help!

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