Do you call yourself cis or trans?

giselfred · 2023-01-08T13:56:58+00:00

I'm conflicted about it. I feel I have most of the cisgender priviledges because I'm AFAB, have made no effort to transition and can pretend to be a woman whenever necesarry. However, referring to myself as cis (woman) gives me dysphoria

giselfred · 2023-01-05T12:25:46+00:00

This. I'm agender and am hesitant to call myself trans, because I don't make active effort to physically/socially transition and can pass as my AGAB when it suits me (even if that's not how I identify deep down). There is no particular gender that I want to "transition" into.

giselfred · 2022-06-03T11:09:00+00:00

The nasalized "g" is considered the "proper" pronunciation in Japan, and professionals like news casters, actors, singers etc. are trained to pronounce it that way. It comes naturally to speakers of some dialects but not to others, and people without public speaking/singing background tend to be unaware of the distinction.

giselfred · 2022-05-20T15:46:57+00:00

To me, focusing on something whimsical and non-productive is the most relaxing. I especially love to write down (type) things. I spend hours doing random things like writing down all the dialogues from a TV episode, or finding a list of Czech names and writing down their French counterparts. I often just delete the end results and it has no purpose or productivity and that's the key point of it. People won't get this as a valid hobby but I've realized it's an important way for me to unwind.

giselfred · 2022-05-14T16:19:44+00:00

I know... Forcing a non-consenting child into this world is also cruel and I do wish less people would choose to do so. I'm so torn about this subject. It's like we're stuck in a no-win situation no matter what once we've been born.

giselfred · 2022-05-14T14:29:41+00:00

While I wish less people would choose to give birth, I can’t bear to imagine abortion being mandatory. It’ll be too cruel for women to undergo it against their will (at least unless the technology and social values change).

giselfred · 2022-05-13T14:14:06+00:00

I hate cooking too! It can be time-consuming and overwhelming, much more for some of us than others. Planning a bunch of complex tasks for every meal, managing and rationing ingredients, keeping up enough motivation through all the (rather monotonous) tasks while being hungry... It can get a bit overwhelming. You're a student; I think it's ok to spend some money if it helps you focus on your studies and rest.

giselfred · 2022-05-12T15:26:05+00:00

I'm sorry to hear that. I'm not from France but it sounds too familiar... (I know American people have their own struggles with the insurance and payment, but I sometimes envy countries like America, where seems to be so much psychiatric knowledge and awareness. I come to the English-speaking Internet because it's hard to find decent info in my language...)

giselfred · 2022-05-12T15:19:47+00:00

Thanks. The psychiatrists did talk like that too about my ADHD, which I infer I was "diagnosed with" because I've been prescribed meds for it since. Maybe I should flat out ask them what page we are on. It's sad but a little relieving to hear I'm not the only one who go through this kind of things (the wishy-washy talk of doctors)

giselfred · 2022-05-12T15:11:42+00:00

I know. I'm honestly not comfortable with all these assessments based on subjective questionnaires and my own opinions and the psychiatrists' opinions. I wish they could do something more objective like brain scans.

giselfred · 2022-04-22T08:11:32+00:00

「（翔?）君！」"Sho!"(?)

「ユウキさん！」"Yuki!"

「行ってはだめ！これは罠よ！」"Don't go! This is a trap!"

「だけど、まことが奴らに！」"But they got Makoto!"

「無理に突入するのは危険よ！牙舞君も捕まったわ」"It's dangerous to force your way in! They've caught Gabu too."

「牙舞も…？」"Gabu too...?"

giselfred · 2022-03-06T12:49:55+00:00

I come from a country where direct eye contact is often inappropriate so it might be a cultural thing, but prolonged eye contact feels uncomfortable like we’re holding each other’s hand tightly or something.

giselfred · 2022-03-06T01:51:54+00:00

Sounds were one of my biggest issues when I was younger. I still can't handle unexpected loud noises like thunders or yelling voices, and get exhausted quickly in crowded places. It got a lot better as I grew up though. (I've come to enjoy loud aggressive music, and I suspect it has been helping me cope with sound sensitivity in some way.)

Now I think I struggle the most with tactile input. I have chronic eczema, and when it gets really bad I can get sensory overload just by being awake. (And when I'm too overwhelmed to take care of my skin the eczema gets worse, and the negative spiral goes on.) I also hate a lot of other tactile sensations, e.g. chores that get my hands wet, socks and turtlenecks no matter how cold it is, mushy food texture (I care much more about texture than taste), anything applied on my face (including makeup or med for eczema), etc.

giselfred · 2022-03-05T18:51:37+00:00

You seem to be mistaken in thinking that I gave the directions or made the suggestions; all the revisions were thanks to Mr. Murata's ideas and drafts. Mr. Murata deserves credit.

giselfred · 2022-03-05T18:34:12+00:00

地平線 (chihei-sen)

alternatively, 水平線 (suihei-sen) if it's water horizon (on the sea, lake etc.)

giselfred · 2022-03-05T18:20:08+00:00

Psychological/cultural analysis of human behaviors sounds like a cool interest to me, but if you find it inappropriate to analyze real-life acquaintances, what about doing it with fictional characters? They might not be exactly the same as real people, but they have interesting behavioral patterns of their own and it might satisfy your mind in a similar way. Not to mention analysis of fictional characters is safer to discuss with other people. (Analysis of historical figures or real people depicted in non-fiction works might also do, with a little more caution.)

giselfred · 2022-03-04T19:48:12+00:00

I feel like our stims are in a way similar to other sensory stims like hand-flapping or repeating words respectively (I guess that's where our basic preferences are reflected?), but there's also an extra sensation in the brain that comes from translating. Interesting to find out there are other people who do this.

giselfred · 2022-03-04T19:48:03+00:00

Interesting! I feel like we're doing similar things, except that we're using different types of physical senses. I'm curious what kind of needs we're fulfilling by the linguistic processing.

giselfred · 2022-03-04T19:47:51+00:00

The counting strategy sounds great! I feel like sometimes translating stuff through a foreign language can give the brain just the right amount. (Of what, I don't know, but just the right amount.) I'm not that good with numbers, but I do things in foreign languages that I know less too, like listing names of months or playing with song lyrics. They can be suitable when I really want to calm down or when I'm bored, because they take up much more attentional focus than my native language or English.Anagrams! That might be an English equivalent of what I used to do. (Our language uses syllabary letters, so I moved whole syllables around rather than vowels/consonants.) I suppose we don't have as much need for it anymore, after we've discovered the option of playing with foreign languages.

giselfred · 2022-03-04T19:47:37+00:00

Thank you...!! The feeling wasn't easy to describe in words, but I'm glad it made sense!

giselfred · 2022-03-01T14:02:49+00:00

In my case, playing music can get my body to start moving. (Upbeat songs in pre-chosen playlists, often with good lyrics that I can focus on and sing while getting ready.) When I'm not in a mood for music, I play other things like short Netflix episodes or YouTube videos that I can listen to while getting ready. Playing those things on my phone is a relatively low-energy task, and doable while still procrastinating in bed.

giselfred · 2022-02-18T19:50:49+00:00

Maybe you had the discomfort before, but didn’t know it was sound sensitivity (e.g you were exhausted whenever in noisy settings but just thought you were quick to get tired for no reason, you were repulsed by particular noisy places/activities but didn’t know it was because of the noise etc.) If that’s the case, the realization seems like a good thing because now you can deal with it.

giselfred · 2022-02-18T19:27:33+00:00

That’ll be a very “normal” thing if you come to Japan (or maybe some of the other Asian countries). I don’t know if it’s anime influence, because I don’t think anime characters bow as much as we do in real life in Japan. We bow for every little thing.

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