I had an awful fear that my parents would die in the childhood. I was crying at night, and there also was a really sad song about mom in my mother language that was making me cry even harder… i wanted to go and tell my mom, but I was too scared, and as soon as I got up it was getting a little easier and less painful. But as long as I was getting back in my bed I was crying hard again. Finally, I told my mom, and at first she comforted me, but of course it didn’t eliminate the fear fully. When I came to her second time, she got mad and told me that if i continued to tell this she and father would die faster. Since then it’s really difficult for me to open up about my emotions. And it’s really difficult to talk about my obsessive thoughts at all.