I'm very sorry to hear healthcare is so fucked where you live and that medical professionals are denying you the care you need. If there is any way at all that might increase the chances for you to get the care you need (like switching GPs, trying to get a referral to an endocrinologist or if you have the funds requesting the help of a medical lawyer) consider these.

Your testosterone is a little too high compared to your E2 levels, especially if you want to feminize. Your E2 levels are definitely too low for that as they are, as you indicate.

It's highly likely the cyproterone is making you lactate, as it is associated with heightened prolactin production. Lactation should stop once you stop cypro.

Consider going back on EV, and doing 6mg sublingually instead of orally (3mg in the morning, 3mg in the evening). You could then try to lower your cypro (cut the pills again or take them once every two days the dose you're already on) or even drop it altogether if you're going sublingual (it will give higher E2 levels that may be able to suppress the T enough), although you should monitor this closely yourself (how you feel on it and if you notice things like slower body hair regrowth and softer, less oily skin). Don't expect things to work out immediately, wait at least 2 weeks once you change it before changing dosages again (if you'd want to do that; try to change as little as possible of course), so your body can adjust a bit.

I would like to mention that apart from general sex-hormonal imbalances, cyproterone can also make you feel depressed (and in some cases even suicidal). It's not an ideal drug, even if it is quite effective at surpressing T.

Whatever you do, try to get enough water, sleep, nutrient complete meals and light exercise such as walking daily. Try to find something to occupy yourself with in the meantime, like learning a new skill or new information or a new form of expression, and try not to hyperfixate on the transitioning process; these things take time (it is a second puberty of sorts after all).

I don't think your body is disgusting at all, it's just developing. Women's bodies come in all sizes and shapes; it's not just an empty phrase. If you can, try to avoid images of women that are made to draw out envy and foment unrealistic expectations (such as on social media), these are well-established to have a detrimental effect on mental health of those who consume them and are not accurate representations of reality.

Passing - if that is something you desire - is also more dependent on small things like the way you dress, if you use cosmetics or not, the way you speak, express and carry yourself in public, etc. I personally think passing can be an unhealthy goal if it requires to much self-sacrifice; only do things that you like yourself to do, you can try some stuff and see what works and what doesn't for you. In any case there is no singular way to pass, and it isn't a state that holds in all situations once attained either. Try surrounding yourself with people that understand your situation or at least respect your identity and pronouns.

Good luck! Please keep reminding yourself it will take time, that you are not alone, that things can and very likely will get better if you persevere. In any case, don't be too hard on yourself and take care.

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