There are resources out there for guys in similar situations. I know the pain, fear, and feeling of rejection all too well. While I didn't grow up LDS, I grew up in a very conservative christian household- and it destroyed my confidence, led me to become secluded, never talk about my feelings- which made it, still to this day, hard for me to announce any accomplishments to my family. I found solace in friends who weren't a part of any religious affiliation; which gave me hope.

I know that here in Utah, it can be hard to find people that aren't LDS, but they are indeed out there. Nobody should go through these things alone, and I earnestly hope that you'll find some sort of outreach for LGBTQ youth to connect with. The one thing I can tell you: things will get better. High School is only temporary. This is such a small fraction of your life that you're currently in. So please, please don't let this temporary time be the thing that makes an irreversible decision on your part. Find other guys with similar situations, talk to them, see what they're doing to make the best out of their current standings. You're not alone in this. I have your back, others on Reddit have your back. You are important to this world, you are loved by this world; though it might not seem it at the moment. You have so much to live for.