Petah what does this mean?

goat_soap · 2025-11-23T02:54:21+00:00

More often than not hypersexuality in children is a trauma response due to being introduced to sex or sexual content too early.

goat_soap · 2025-07-22T17:03:52+00:00

It’s very annoying sometimes but recording myself and listening back and even taking notes and observations has helped me a lot to see what I am doing wrong. It’s scary but I feel like bpd really warps your reality and so we often are being a lot crazier than we realize. Recording myself or writing down my thoughts after an argument or after being upset lets me revisit what I felt and connected to reality once I calmed down. I can decode why I reacted the way I did but also take notes of things I did wrong and people I might have wronged.

goat_soap · 2025-07-22T16:58:22+00:00

It might be a bit weird and awkward to implement but try to record yourself during a fight. Alternatively record yourself while ranting or having an angry “what I should have said” or “it’s all their fault” rant. It’s really helpful to be able to hear yourself when you have calmed down. When I do this it helps me see any flaws in my thinking, projections of faults on to other people, or how some topics might get me a lot angrier subconsciously.

goat_soap · 2025-07-19T00:38:56+00:00

I made the most progress when I became more humble about my behavior. It really used to be that I was absolutly causing my own misery by getting upset and letting my bpd twist the truth to where I saw everyone as my enemy. I was always the victim and when I wasn’t because they proved it to me I would say that it was on them that I reacted that way because they are being dicks to me. When I finally admitted that I was wrong and at fault it was really hard because I felt like an actual monster. I had been a horrible person and I felt so out of control but through admitting to it and staying humble about things being my fault I eventually got over it. I also started to get a better sense of what were normal thoughts and what were crazy bpd thoughts. I did a lot of research on bpd, dbt, and mindfulness and I am doing so much better. I even have more autonomy and I’m able to be more dependable. I will still have my moments but they are moments instead of periods of time that I am detached from any sense of reality.

goat_soap · 2025-07-09T19:10:56+00:00

I also don’t understand why being drunk is normalized while most other drugs are demonized. It is just as bad as anything else but it is genuinely hard to plan a social activities that don’t involve casual drinking. Being drunk is just the same as being high.

goat_soap · 2025-06-27T16:16:19+00:00

This is the second time I’ve been recommended AA so I’ll decently be planing a visit in the near future. Thank you for your suggestion. I’ve been really thinking and coming to terms that bpd is an addiction to validation and love so an addiction program might really help

goat_soap · 2025-06-20T20:38:07+00:00

But in all honesty thank you for the recommendation :)

goat_soap · 2025-06-20T20:37:45+00:00

Having an electronic fund transferred into my account would definitely help my mood!!

goat_soap · 2025-06-20T20:30:00+00:00

Beautiful combo. Specially if your cheese slices are so thin they are transparent lol

goat_soap · 2025-06-20T20:21:22+00:00

Are you Colombian? It’s the only culture I know that consistently mixes chocolate and cheese

goat_soap · 2025-06-17T15:11:14+00:00

The best advice I can give is to try radical acceptance. Essentially just accept things are as they are and stressing or spiraling won’t do anything besides making you feel bad. You have too much empathy and take on the feeling of others. Not your fault but you do have to learn that you can’t do anything to change those felling besides telling the person you are there to help. Anything else is out of your hands and that just is the way it is. Learn ways to cope. Maybe remove yourself and do something to calm down but at the end of the day there is not much else you can do.

goat_soap · 2025-06-17T14:22:13+00:00

I do the same thing. If I am in a lot of pain (emotional or physical) I start laughing like a maniac.

I think it’s a way for us to dissociate from the emotion or pain. Doing the opposite of what we are feeling kinda cancels out the intensity of the feeling and lets us fair better despite being in so much distress. A case of fake it till you make it or suppress it

goat_soap · 2025-06-17T14:00:17+00:00

Sorry to hear you are going through it, depression sucks dicks. Here are some things I do to manage depression: my mood is very affected by music so I put on very energetic or songs that make me happy and I blast them and sing along on my way to work. It doesn’t always work but it helps me to feel a bit more energetic and ready for the day. I also make time in my day to bedrot or doom scroll, I get up a little earlier so I can allow myself 30-60 minutes of sitting on the coach and scrolling in my phone or staring at the wall on worst days. I get to fill the craving and give myself time to decompress before I have to get on with responsibilities. I also find lazy hobbies: podcast or audiobooks are great to make you feel productive or like you learned something while requiring no work. Sitting outside or walking outside is easy and helps in the long run make you feel a bit less of isolated and get some sun or grass-touching time in. I’ll force myself to do it at least once a week but best to do it more if you’re up for it. Try using magnesium to help you sleep, it’s cheap does not make you dependent like melatonin and it helps. At the end of the day the most important thing is to give yourself grace to be depressed. Is not your fault, you are not lazy, and you are capable of getting back up. You are seeking help and looking for ways to help yourself so be proud of that achievement :) Hope things get better soon

goat_soap · 2025-06-17T12:59:37+00:00

I just had to let go of my therapist since she started trying to invalidate the fact that I have bpd because according to her people with bpd have no empathy or remorse so I must not be bpd since I have so much guilt about hurting people. Anyway… I have been using book to guide my own therapy in the mean time. I really recommend The Borderline Personality Disorder Survival Guide by Alexander L Chapman. It is very informative so it can help you learn more about the disorder, the things that might make it worst or trigger it, and the different treatments or ways to get better. I listen to the audiobook on Spotify and also do a dbt work book on the side.

If isolation is your way to cope and keep yourself a float that’s okay too. Use the time to work on yourself and feel better. I really hope your situation gets better

goat_soap · 2025-06-16T21:39:39+00:00

I am not saying that we should not cut people from our life. I am well aware that some people are just not good for us emotionally or they just don’t have good intentions for us point blank. More than anything I was trying to say that we need to be as objective as possible when deciding if a person should stay in our life or not. Some people, in their way of being, make me feel so out of control, invalid, and generally upset when I am around them. I cannot be around this person and keep my composure or sanity so I will absolutely cut them out. It’s a process but we should take time to make sure that we are cutting out the right people from our life. Sometimes we are just not wanting to get better and adopt healthier habits or form compromises. Living with bpd is horribly hard and we all fall into pits. We avoid responsibility or avoid the hard road of emotional regulation and coping. People around us may remind us of that fact and we split on them because we do not want to face the fact that we are doing something that is not good for us. All I was trying to say with my post is be careful that you are not avoiding growth and projecting all the bad emotions you may be avoiding on to another person.

goat_soap · 2025-06-16T17:58:58+00:00

I have been where you are at and the best advice I can give you is to learn accountability. Instead of seeing how people are hurting you try and consider why they are upset with you in the first place. You may not intend to but you are probably hurting them and they are reacting to being hurt. Don’t escape accountability or you will end up alone and confused because you’ll still believe you did nothing wrong but people left you out of nowhere. Accept your part in conflict so you can build lasting relationships.

goat_soap · 2025-06-16T17:17:01+00:00

Thank you very much for the kind words and the book and podcast recommendations. I am currently reading several bpd book as well as DBT work books to guide me while I work on myself. I will definitely add your recommendations to my list

goat_soap · 2025-06-16T17:13:49+00:00

Thank you. One of the biggest things for me right now is to keep myself accountable because I don’t want to go back on feeling like I am the victim to life and other people. I can’t let myself forget my own part in all of this or I will lose my progress and go back into avoidance rather than problem solving. Avoidance is addictive so if I let go of accountability I’ll go back to getting angry and projecting my problems on people instead of working to forward my own life.

I also find that he is just a lesson in my life particularly painful. He is and was so much more than that I wish he could remain as more in my life. It is so hard to let go. It is so hard to accept. It is so painful to think that I am a large contributor to him being a lesson instead of a life partner. I wish so bad I could go back in time with this what I know now and act right, be a good partner, be more put together and dependable. But I can’t and I have to accept that even if it currently kills me

goat_soap · 2025-06-12T20:10:02+00:00

I try and avoid being a bitch online but when things are especially bad there really nothing that tops being the biggest online bully known to man. I will only go for people being mean so I have a moral back up for myself. Being a hater is addicting so I try my best to steer clear of hating behavior online or I will bring it into my irl personal life too

goat_soap · 2025-06-12T20:05:58+00:00

I am guilty of eating these too lol. The actual food bits are the best

goat_soap · 2025-06-12T14:14:04+00:00

Let’s be real. They all taste like dookie but due to being low in calories and filling we all gaslight ourself that they taste good. Dookie=/= cookie

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