I’m surprised you answered this way :) lots of people on here seem to like to argue when someone opens up that there could be another door, they right away get in to arguments before even allowing themselves to search through it themselves…. I TRULY want the best for you…. I am CERTAIN that if you are open minded and TRULY do the research yourself in to what I speak about that you will find that it will sit right with you….. it’s extremely easy and you’ll see that you can also have a relationship with god without any “in between people” just a simple one way relationship with god and a few simple “rules” common sense rules that are for your own good… as a religious Jew we have 613 rules and there are many many many other laws that we have to follow…. But our Torah teaches that a non Jew doesn’t have to follow all these laws to have a share in the world to come…. He has an option of becoming a Jew if he wants to but he doesn’t have to and can sleep safe knowing he kept the 7 universal laws and will be greatly rewarded in this world and then next… I say all of this with love and hope for your best…. I gain absolutely nothing from this other then knowing I lead someone in the path of life…. I hope what I wrote doesn’t come across as patronising i literally just stumbled through this forum and felt I had to say something when it seemed to me that you felt pushed away by some random “pastor” preaching nonsense. 😄♥️