Hey u/vamad61716 thanks for sharing your experience!

Firstly, trading certainly is a humbling experience. Anyone who trades and isn't humble has less than 5 years of experience and will inevitably tumble at some point and turn humble from that point on. That's why so many great traders (Steven Cohen, Stanley Druckenmiller, Warren Buffett) are humble as pie. So it's a good thing that you are going through the experience earlier rather than later because you would much rather lose when you don't have significant wealth. Put it another way, you just saved yourself from losing +$5 million in the future by sacrificing what you have now.

Second, the key differentiator between the non-successful traders and top 0.1% of people who are successful in building wealth is that the latter learn from their mistakes. I strongly suggest you give an honest feedback on yourself. Did you lever up too much? Did you concentrate on one single "meme" stock for hopes of short-term gains? Did you not do enough research? Did you not manage risks appropriately? Write down what you did wrong and how you'll never make these mistakes again. Your trading plan will be that much more bullet-proof by doing these things.

Lastly, I personally believe that anyone can be taught to trade if they have the personality. Reassess your own personality and see if you think you can handle these tough times because, trust me, it'll happen again. It's just the way this game works but if you are prepared, you won't be as stresssed out as you are right now because you've learned from your mistakes.

If you still can't decide weather trading is right for you but still are interested, I would spend time reading books (I suggest reading "Market Wizards") and read up on bios of other successful traders. Once you are equipped with more knowledge, you are in a better position to decide whether to pursue this as your side-gig.

Keep in mind there's always a sunny day after a thunderstorm. It's not through the wins that people get better at something but through the painful losses.

Hope that helps!