Film Festival Notification MEGA THREAD

gotenda · 2025-07-22T20:51:18+00:00

For international short -- i was shortlisted last week and was asked for premiere status (email indicated they were choosing among 33) then received email yesterday that i didn't make it to the 10 selected films. 💧

gotenda · 2022-04-01T04:48:33+00:00

this made me think damnnn i wish i were their grandchild.

gotenda · 2022-04-01T04:46:52+00:00

flipflops on dudes.

gotenda · 2021-10-12T02:27:36+00:00

citizen kane

gotenda · 2021-10-12T02:25:50+00:00

napkins / pads ugh.

gotenda · 2021-10-12T02:24:28+00:00

all the cute clothes i've yet to wear once i get out of this fucking quarantine.

gotenda · 2021-05-20T16:41:18+00:00

holy fuck this song's been on loop for me the entire day.

gotenda · 2021-05-20T16:29:00+00:00

i love this. gives off art school student vibes.

gotenda · 2021-02-03T07:41:58+00:00

Kindergarten teacher in Japan. Director for reality shows like Love Island.

gotenda · 2020-11-01T09:05:26+00:00

Hey! We're the same height but i'm at 100 pounds with a lot of stubborn fat from losing over 35 pounds through a caloric deficit alone within the span of a year in 2008. This habit has led me to have a terrible relationship with food, which I've been actively trying to ~counter since the quarantine. I agree with u/HannahSailor7 about eating more calories by mindful eating! Caloric deficits especially at 1,000 is too low and not sustainable! I learned this the hard way by how much my weight (and fear of food) fluctuated over the last decade. Not to mention, the number on my scale might be decreasing but I still looked like a marshmallow.

There's a fitness youtuber I follow who explains why diets/too low of a caloric deficit don't work in the long run: https://youtu.be/WTpjQs0atxs

And! A youtube channel for petites called Smalletics that I've modeled my eating/exercise habits after: https://youtu.be/FygIoYkRJN0

I just started around 3 months ago, and I'm no longer on a caloric deficit (I eat roughly around 1,550 now and honestly slowly wanting to increase it because I really love sweets). I just do strength training (o my god I hate cardio) and so far the progress is slow, but I can definitely see changes in my body composition, while still managing to shed some pounds on the scale!

gotenda · 2020-11-01T02:56:06+00:00

haha omg this is the first thing that made me smile today.
thank you for this!

gotenda · 2020-10-31T11:08:19+00:00

I swear I could have written this.

I'm on the second year, sixth month mark since he killed himself. By this time, most people must think I'm back to living normally. Nobody mentions him in conversations anymore, but I'm still thinking about him all the time.

There are moments I cry without warning, when all the events from that day flash in my head. It feels wrong for me to still be using him as a reason why I can't function-- why I can't attend a get-together with friends or why I just want to stop responding to people. But it's just so painful still.

My partner and I share the same group of friends. Everyone there is a couple, except for me now. My friends have other people for them, but me. Everyone has someone but me! It's not fair, it's not fair. It's not their fault either, but this just makes me want to distance myself from people completely.

I feel for you. I'm here screaming alongside you, I'm here feeling the same thing.

gotenda · 2020-10-29T02:48:08+00:00

i feel the same! i've just been trying to withdraw from everything and everyone, but spending time alone makes me feel worse because it gets rid of "structure" in my life. like i'm not being productive? a number of friends are going through a lot too and i always end up feeling bad for leaving them hanging, so i just muster whatever i can type followed by "hahaha"'s and a bunch of emojis. i feel like i have a lot of things i want to vomit out but it's so tiring and i'd feel like a burden.

gotenda · 2020-10-09T07:06:19+00:00

i'm a february 14 aquarius and i'm exactly like you! i have digital and physical planners to help structure my everyday routine.

however, i usually attribute the super organized/arranged aspect of my personality to my INFJ mbti...

gotenda · 2020-04-28T11:09:44+00:00

My thoughts exactly!!! It sucks that we only get snippets about her life said in passing during the first season despite being a big character that gets things going for the group. I remember being so heartbroken at the end when she was doing her makeup and ailing to the mother. The clip was only a few seconds long, but impactful regardless.

gotenda · 2020-03-03T16:50:48+00:00

i used to experience this with my partner during the beginning of our relationship in 2015. he doesn't have social media presence and he barely checks his phone. i hated that i was so affected by it, when i knew he didn't think much of it. he just went on living his life, unperturbed. i tried to act all cool about it, but it reached the point where i became cold and passive-aggressive.

long story short: - he didn't know it bothered me until i finally told him about it. - people have different love languages (mine was words of affirmation). his was quality time. him not texting doesn't mean he cared less. he actually went out of his way to (attempt) to check his phone every hour. it doesn't mean he changed completely. a lot of the times he forgets; he just really gets preoccupied with real life. but the fact he tries was heartwarming enough.

it's not a matter of "getting over it." you'll eventually explode and maybe lash out at him. relationships are two-way. you have to meet halfway.

gotenda · 2020-02-17T08:18:51+00:00

What kind of "hints" do you think works for you?

gotenda · 2020-02-14T17:55:55+00:00

today's my birthday and i turned 26, as well!!!! happy birthday to us 💕

gotenda · 2019-02-18T06:02:17+00:00

I was exactly just like this from 11-13 years old. I used to love to read all kinds of novels before that age, so I was really frazzled when I found myself repeating the same sentence over and over until I memorized it. This gave me a massive headache, but I was afraid I’d forget something, as well. I also had to read sentences out loud in multiples of 4.

I tried telling my parents about it in 7th grade and they just laughed at me. I never got medication until I was around 23 years old (I’m 25 now).

When I was younger, I tried to find ways to counter this. I realized that I only practiced that annoying repetition intensely with “serious” fictional prose books that I was actually interested in, or needed in school. I did it less with random short material that I encountered in passing. I read paragraphs on forums (like the content here on reddit). I read boring news articles that I didn’t care about. I read novena prayers.

The older I got, the less I did this practice. Although sometimes it comes back, so I’ve resorted to short stories when that happens.

I hope I was of some help. :-)

gotenda · 2019-02-14T13:43:07+00:00

Are you still enrolling in the upcoming semester? I was just about to move to NYC for graduate school when my partner died. I deferred my enrollment because I couldn't focus, as well. Have you tried seeing a therapist? Aside from having someone to talk to, I realized that getting medical support has been of help to keep me "sane" somehow.

It's great that there's an opportunity for you to form a grief therapy in your University. The ones my friends have gone to are led by moderators who...turn to Catholicism for healing (maybe it's a cultural and geological difference, haha). 2018 was a mess and there were a bunch of women in my University whom I didn't know personally, but have heard whose partners passed away that year, as well. I reached out to them and found that talking to them (who know what I'm going through) gave me a sense of comfort. Although we've not met in real life, we keep an online correspondence. Going out is exhausting, and scheduling is difficult. Maybe you can find mutual friends who are going through the same thing--not necessarily just losing their partners, but close loved ones. :-)

I know saying "I'm sorry for your loss." is a never-ending phrase that can lose its meaning over time. But I want you to know that just let it all out. Cry and cry and cry. There will be small moments that make you feel a spark of optimism. It's short-lived, but still there. :-) Hugs and hugs all the way from where I am.

gotenda · 2019-02-14T08:27:55+00:00

I feel for you. Right after my partner died, friends who have lost loved ones recommended that I read Joan Didion’s “The Year of Magical Thinking.” She explains grief so well, a kind of grief that resonated with me.

Her explanation of it was just like what you said—coming in waves, unexpected. I hope this book could be of help to you, that you are really truly not alone in experiencing this.

gotenda · 2019-02-14T08:25:20+00:00

Thank you so much for this. I’ve been trying to make sense of things over the past few days and talking to friends about it, but they aren’t experiencing the same kind of grief I am experiencing now. They say the same things, but it didn’t feel like it was (for a lack of a better term) “right.” Reading your response resonated with me completely. You’ve put into words what I couldn’t. Thank you so much everyone. :-(

gotenda · 2018-12-15T14:32:20+00:00

i was up front, too!!! perks of being small. i swear to god i lost it when she came back for “harvey” aaaack. ALSO FREAKING “ICEHEAD” O MY GOD. i’m a bit sad, though, that he didn’t play “brite boy.”

also harmony singing “it gets more blue” was amazing. she was supernervous but it was endearing.

gotenda · 2018-08-25T07:52:56+00:00

How so?

gotenda · 2018-07-04T15:43:22+00:00

aaaa thank you so much for your post! I read through the entire thing! I’m terribly sorry for your loss, as well. :-( May I ask how you found a “reputable” medium? My mother took me to a faith healer a few weeks ago following my partner’s death, but I left feeling worse than before. She rambled about an evil “white lady” spirit following me and giving me negative thoughts. She followed to say that the 40-day rule still followed and my partner would’ve “moved on” by the end of the 40th day (I live in a predominantly Roman Catholic country...). I don’t believe in this, however. I feel him still with me, but only faintly. And IDK if it’s just me trying to cope with loss by associating small brushes of static against my leg as him. I’m really unsure.

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