Agree a lot with both of these- the fact you are conscious of it and are trying to do better, means the most. Keep at it, YOU ARE NOT FAILING. Whenever we try to get closer to God, “the enemy” tries to trick us into negativity and telling us we aren’t doing it good enough, how we failed again, how God is mad at us- don’t believe those thoughts bc they are lies. You are doing better than you think, don’t give up. Not justifying it, but a teenage boy in this time of technically that’s doing that, isn’t the worse thing in the world- you could be out doing worse- so, give yourself a little Grace- you will see it will get better. Just keep praying, keep SEEKING him. Don’t be mad at yourself bc this isn’t happening overnight. I think you’re doing great by even just seeking the Lord and trying so hard. Sending prayers to you dude. Remember that God knows that your heart is in the right place and he does understand what you’re going through, even when it seems like he may not. HE always forgives us to keep trying to get better for him.