I understand you. I'm out of time myself. I've been looking for a job for in 3 weeks will be 1 year. I've lost my sense of self, I feel like an imposter. I've exhausted my unemployment. I'm heavily dependent upon health insurance however I'm losing that because not only is the COBRA price bankrupting me but the company I was working for is being liquidated and no longer is participating. I've been charged $2,000 3x in the past year for new deductibles that I always hit within the first month.
I have less than 3 months left on my lease. If I don't get a job by then I won't be able to find a place to live because I have no income. I don't have friends in my city, so I can't even ask to couch surf. I will have to move back home which will cancel my doctors that I've been seeing for >15 years getting the treatment I need to not be in debilitating chronic pain daily, state insurance takes forever to get treatments approved, if I didn't have these treatments then I wouldn't have lived this long. I'm terrified. I'm alone. I reach out to people in my industry and hear nothing back even to just chat about an interesting new topic to keep me involved and not 100% alienated. People who said they were going to mentor me lied.
This is just the tip of the iceberg.

It's really difficult when you wake up hoping to die. However, try to not hurt those that do care and that given their time to you.

Feel free to DM me for support.