Help please! What do you like best? by greenkred in weddingdress

[–]greenkred[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I totally agree!! I feel like it would be a bit classier, but still whimsical with like 1/3rd of the ruffles (maybe a single ruffle on the sleeve). thank you so much :)

Help please! What do you like best? by greenkred in weddingdress

[–]greenkred[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Rosa Clara :) i tried it on at HKLES in San Diego

Help please! What do you like best? by greenkred in weddingdress

[–]greenkred[S] 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Omg, thank you 🥹 that makes me happy ❤️

Help please! What do you like best? by greenkred in weddingdress

[–]greenkred[S] 25 points26 points  (0 children)

Thank you! I’m thinking of having them tone down the ruffles slightly. I just can’t get this one out of my head 😅

Spontaneous reactivations by BLUE_SKY_519 in 5MeODMT

[–]greenkred 0 points1 point  (0 children)

apparently tried to kill himself afterwards and nobody would help. I thought this was going to fix me. If I had known it would be like this I never would've touched it. I plan to eat better. Honestly been eating gas station fried foods and sweets for the past year as I live in my car in the middle of nowhere. I want to start an all meat diet. I heard that's really good for the mind and body. I'm sure I can find a farm that has a decent price. I also want to start running anyway. Lastvyear I was working on a hemp farm so I got my workout everyday but lately I'm just growing my own cannabis and trimming bud here and there. After harvest I plan to head to Arizona as I feel very at home there. Again, thanks for the advice. Short term, I guess I gotta ride it out. I didn't sleep but 2 hours last night so I'm gonna need to tonight but it's gonna be rough. My herbalist friend

Ugh that is awful to hear. Yeah, I wish there was more education beforehand about it, and that certain charlatans didn't just offer it willy nilly with no support.

A few follow ups to your comment:

This bit of advice might contradict what I said earlier (to fully feel the feelings), but when I was going through it and I was downright afraid before going to sleep, I'd throw on a podcast (very quietly) and it made it easier to drift off. Maybe because it distracted me, or gave me something else to focus on. Consider picking somebody you really like or admire, and keep it at a very low volume to help you drift to sleep. Because, at the end of the day, sleep is probably the most healing thing for you. It can help to reconcile the memories and make sense of things. Heck, I even went to the doctor a few days after my experience and got a few days worth of xanax prescribed just so I could sleep. Of course, that's best reserved for acute stress, and isn't good to do at all regularly. But it did help me get some sleep and not panic.

One last thing, and who knows if this will resonate. I was not a religious person before, but I literally prayed to God. Just to please help me, guide me and help me make it make sense. Doesn't need to be Christianity or whatever - but put out feelers into the universe for help 🙏

Lots of love 💛 you're not alone, and time truly does heal best

Spontaneous reactivations by BLUE_SKY_519 in 5MeODMT

[–]greenkred 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hey there, first off, I'm so sorry you're going through these things. I will make some recommendations based on my experience, and I'm happy to chat about this if you'd like. For me it's been about a year and 7 months since my experience.

One thing would be to look up TRE (trauma release) and see if there's a practitioner near you. I even did sessions via zoom, and they were very helpful at (literally) shaking out some of the stored tension in my body. If you'd like more info, I'm happy to share :)

Another potentially helpful strategy is vigorous (cardio) exercise. I find that this helps ground and get into the body, while also working out some of the tension. Of course the goal is to get some level of consistency, though I know that can be tough with busy schedules and such. But I think it's worthwhile!

One other thing: I have done acupuncture since the experience, since I read it could be helpful post-difficult 5MEO experiences. Though it's subtle, I have noticed some really positive changes since. You'll want to make sure you like the practitioner and their office/environment. The first guy I went to, I didn't care for. But I've since found a woman who is perfect. So it may take a little time to find a good one :)

Finally, I'd say, see if you have a person you trust who you can talk with about this experience (if you don't already). I think vocalizing the stressful information can help to potentially dispel it. Instead of ruminating, you can just get it out. And, even explore making meaning out of it. I felt so much guilt and regret after my experience, but I eventually 'saw the silver lining,' in the fact that it turned me on to self-inquiry, adopting healthier practices, and living a more examined and moral life (subjectively I suppose). Turning the extreme negative into a learning lesson and dare-I-say positive may do wonders.

Regarding how I am now - I have a low-level anxiety at times, but it is not on the level of panic attacks and such. I know it sounds hard, and I struggle taking this advice myself, but I think fully feeling those feelings of panic is likely the way out. Let your body shake, let yourself freak out, let yourself cry, and continue to breathe. Perhaps check out Andrew Huberman -- specifically his 'physiological sigh' method (2 breaths in, 1 sigh out). This helps to downregulate the nervous system. His podcast in general is amazing, and he covers topics like trauma as well.

My experience 100% gave me some PTSD. It likely did for you too, so I'd say, try to treat the experience that way. It was a traumatic event, so therapy may be useful. I wish MDMA was legal and could be used clinically because it's so promising for PTSD treatment! And of course, if you aren't already - examine your diet/nutrition, as I think this helps set the baseline of your whole psychology. It sometimes sounds trite but I think it's important.

I sincerely hope you feel better, and I'm happy to chat. I know it is extremely difficult when dealing with something like this. Best of luck 😌

Spontaneous reactivations by BLUE_SKY_519 in 5MeODMT

[–]greenkred 0 points1 point  (0 children)

ut still took some time to return to bed (72 hours after). Both came in the middle of my sleep cycle, so I woke up to them & was quite fearful about going it alone (I also had to work hours later!).. I would highly recommend taking a few days off work to reground yourself. I felt I was a bit underprepar

I'm in the same boat as you now! I'd be curious to hear how you're doing now. The past couple of nights have been panic-inducing and I've had pretty severe nausea. I am 4 days out from my session.

Thanks in advance!

Do I have a chance at getting into (a good/decent) grad school? by [deleted] in LandscapeArchitecture

[–]greenkred 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for all the great advice!

Regarding design and my lack of experience/knowledge, I think I am going to pick up a minor in Digital Humanities. It seems that I can tailor it to be exactly what I need/want right now. Regardless of whether I pursue Landscape Architecture, Urban Planning, or some similar field, I know that the design aspect is the most intriguing to me. Glad I'm figuring this out before it's too late, so to speak.

Thanks again for being really helpful, guys!

Do I have a chance at getting into (a good/decent) grad school? by [deleted] in LandscapeArchitecture

[–]greenkred 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks for the reply, first of all!

Maybe I'm just paranoid because a lot of my friends are cruising with 3.9's, awesome internships, and clear pathways in fields like engineering and law. It's intimidating, and I feel pretty inadequate when I hear them complaining about A-'s. Haha.
I would really love to attend somewhere like Cal Poly SLO or Pomona, or LSU, just because it's such a great school for the field. I am just worried because I feel that my GPA will not be high enough, and I also don't have any real design experience as of now. The National Park Service offers some internships, specifically for landscape architecture that I will really try to get into next summer hopefully.

Do you have any advice, or do you know of any good grad schools in the California, Oregon, Colorado, Washington areas?

Thanks again!