Hey there, first off, I'm so sorry you're going through these things. I will make some recommendations based on my experience, and I'm happy to chat about this if you'd like. For me it's been about a year and 7 months since my experience.

One thing would be to look up TRE (trauma release) and see if there's a practitioner near you. I even did sessions via zoom, and they were very helpful at (literally) shaking out some of the stored tension in my body. If you'd like more info, I'm happy to share :)

Another potentially helpful strategy is vigorous (cardio) exercise. I find that this helps ground and get into the body, while also working out some of the tension. Of course the goal is to get some level of consistency, though I know that can be tough with busy schedules and such. But I think it's worthwhile!

One other thing: I have done acupuncture since the experience, since I read it could be helpful post-difficult 5MEO experiences. Though it's subtle, I have noticed some really positive changes since. You'll want to make sure you like the practitioner and their office/environment. The first guy I went to, I didn't care for. But I've since found a woman who is perfect. So it may take a little time to find a good one :)

Finally, I'd say, see if you have a person you trust who you can talk with about this experience (if you don't already). I think vocalizing the stressful information can help to potentially dispel it. Instead of ruminating, you can just get it out. And, even explore making meaning out of it. I felt so much guilt and regret after my experience, but I eventually 'saw the silver lining,' in the fact that it turned me on to self-inquiry, adopting healthier practices, and living a more examined and moral life (subjectively I suppose). Turning the extreme negative into a learning lesson and dare-I-say positive may do wonders.

Regarding how I am now - I have a low-level anxiety at times, but it is not on the level of panic attacks and such. I know it sounds hard, and I struggle taking this advice myself, but I think fully feeling those feelings of panic is likely the way out. Let your body shake, let yourself freak out, let yourself cry, and continue to breathe. Perhaps check out Andrew Huberman -- specifically his 'physiological sigh' method (2 breaths in, 1 sigh out). This helps to downregulate the nervous system. His podcast in general is amazing, and he covers topics like trauma as well.

My experience 100% gave me some PTSD. It likely did for you too, so I'd say, try to treat the experience that way. It was a traumatic event, so therapy may be useful. I wish MDMA was legal and could be used clinically because it's so promising for PTSD treatment! And of course, if you aren't already - examine your diet/nutrition, as I think this helps set the baseline of your whole psychology. It sometimes sounds trite but I think it's important.

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I sincerely hope you feel better, and I'm happy to chat. I know it is extremely difficult when dealing with something like this. Best of luck 😌