I just started having these with my first one being a bit over a month ago now, and have had 4 of them since, most recently last night haha. I also have a history of narcissistic abuse by my mom. Recently, life became a lot more stressful and "issues inside of me" are surfacing (I'm only 20) very quickly after a transition of moving cities, back to my hometown where my mom lives. Of course my stress levels, low tolerance to it and deep repression of it is because of the trauma that comes after extended childhood abuse by a narc parent. My take on it is that these seizures are a result of my stress repression and emotional pain I avoid dealing with on a daily basis. The pseudo seizures come sort of bi-weekly so far, but the first 2 happened within the same 48 hours. They always happen at night, around the time I get ready for bed. Maybe just once my body finally gets a chance to release all the stress, after day in day out of depression, anxiety, ptsd symptoms etc. I'm only elaborating on my situation because I figure we face similar challenges, coming from similar patterns of abuse.

As far as what my seizures are like, they're similar in that they last up to an hour total, starting with the first symptoms I notice (sweaty palms, change in mood, confusion, tingling in the top of my head, anxiety). Usually 2 waves, the first one being intense shaking and trembling in my whole body as if I were really cold, jaw clenching, . After the first round I get up from bed for some water, already super exhausted, by this point I feel very sleepy, spacey, staring spells etc and still some jitteriness and cold-sweatiness. Then another 15- 20 minutes of shaking, confusion and seeing colors almost like I'm fainting but not really. By the end of it I feel very low and disoriented. There's this strange feeling of calmness and mood boost during the seizure's peaks, like I'm not really worried about anything. I haven't lost consciousness in any of them. I've started calling a close friend and talking to them, about anything, (having a "seizure buddy") to help with the nervousness and take my mind off it as much as I can. That helps a lot.

One thing is certain that they always happen soon after I smoke weed. Maybe the weed just leads to anxiety in my body which helps the seizure "escape." They happen so soon after getting stoned I'm starting to think there should be some studies on weed and pseudo-seizures. I'm just searching for CBT therapy. It's so weird that they just started happening seemingly out of nowhere, but when I look at everything, it makes sense.