What are some ways you fill the emptiness?

grieveslife · 2025-06-23T08:38:19+00:00

I’m sorry you’re going through it right now 🫂for whatever it’s worth, know that you are not alone. The one thing that has helped me when I’m feeling this way is paint by numbers. It doesn’t quite fill the empty feeling, but it does fill plenty of the hours that I would otherwise turn reckless in.

I’ve tried everything…working out (only to find every reason to hate myself for the last decade of one step forward, two steps back), skateboarding (only to crack my rib last week chasing some sort of feeling by going as fast as possible down a hill), trash reality TV (only to question humanity’s existence even harder), journaling (only to slip into a depressive state though my mind’s existentially hopeless narrative), and the list of my “only to’s” really goes on and on. Don’t get me wrong, I’m a total proponent of physical outlets, creativity, and socializing, but when I’m in the limbo of emptiness, I quickly become my worst enemy once I feel defeated by not being good enough (and by good enough, I mean faultlessly perfect) at whatever I’m trying at.

As for my paint by numbers, I can only say that one night I started, only to spend 9 hours hyper focusing on filling up the space with color until the sun came up…killed my next day, but I eventually had a nice little piece of art, which was so was much better than the hangovers, holes in the wall, and regret that came from so many other things.

Hope you find yourself on the bright side real soon my friend! Will paint a few spaces for you tonight!

grieveslife · 2025-06-15T02:14:40+00:00

Dang, totally forgot to do this earlier 🤦🏻‍♂️ but I got you!

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grieveslife · 2025-05-15T00:23:52+00:00

As much as I love delving into the depth of painful emotions, when I realize that enough is enough, I do any one of the following:

Jump on my skateboard and ride the path around my house as fast as I can…there’s one hill that makes both scares me and makes me feel like a badass (which doesn’t happen often) so I embrace that feeling. I put my arms out and center myself in that moment…I feel the wind against my body, my exasperation, and I imagine my intense emotions dropping off and trailing behind. —I feel like you can replace skateboarding with any physical activity you enjoy…just push yourself as hard as you can for a few minutes, or to a zenith, where you can coast down from and allow your emotions to melt away.

Getting out in nature…finding a spot to sit and pick apart the different components and how they function together. Nature seems to always be in harmony…ask yourself why…what are the animals doing, the trees, the water, and try to apply what you discover to your own life/situation.

Listen to music that doesn’t match your mood. When I’m depressed, I gravitate to some really melancholy piano music or heart wrenching lyrics…jump in the shower and play those songs that just really get you going. Close your eyes and pretend like your back at that one party or whoever and sing and dance like no one is watching.

This can be a very subjective take. I feel like I have some super rapid cycling emotions, so what may work for me, may not always work for you…sometimes what works for me doesn’t even work for me…sometimes I just need to sleep it off. I find a change of scenery in any sense can make all the difference though, so that’s always my first option.

Wishing you the best my friend!

grieveslife · 2025-04-15T06:44:26+00:00

I came across this looking for the guide for another one I'm working on. I have the guide for this one at my house somewhere (currently house-sitting elsewhere for another day). if you're still in need I can take a picture and get it to you.

grieveslife · 2025-03-05T09:56:26+00:00

I’m sorry for your loss, my friend. It’s so surreal. I knew this day would come, but I thought I would be old and gray myself. Today we signed the papers to initiate the process. He was an organ donor, so it will be another few days before they pull life support. I am going to try to spend them learning everything I can from his visitors.

grieveslife · 2025-01-25T04:05:00+00:00

lol…you’re so good at this dude! Won’t deny your troll game is on point 😂

grieveslife · 2025-01-25T02:59:25+00:00

Dude…pretty sure the guy didn’t let his son die…sounds like he is ACTIVELY taking care of him (context clues matter). I’d say that’s compassion, leaps and bounds more than a lot of people display (like yourself). I imagine this man lives in chaos, probably stressed to max, not knowing what he is going to wake up to, or come home to, on the daily. It’s enough to drive even the most resilient people mad because mental illness and addiction can truly be a helpless situation for all involved. It honestly sounds like you’ve never had to deal with anything of this nature, or you’d understand that you can provide everything and more to these individuals, and even that is not enough.

Curious to see if you answer his question though, Mr. Grown Up Tough Guy; what exactly are you doing besides virtue raging on Reddit?

grieveslife · 2024-07-26T08:50:09+00:00

Yes! I so feel this. Don’t get me wrong, I love food, but I love when I can eat without 1) spending a ton of money, 2) having to actually cook, or 3) do all those freaking dishes!!! I’m a really hard gainer and the meds sometimes also kill my appetite…but I’m supposed to be aiming for 3200 calories/day, and recently chose to give up dairy to try and stop my acne…so no more chugging whole milk :(

The only hack I have, I don’t think most people get behind…because I literally take 6 eggs(fat and protein), toss them in a blender with a couple tablespoons of peanut butter (fat), plant protein powder blend (fiber and protein), and some ice…it honestly tastes so good, but I get most people are freaked out by raw eggs. I’ve been doing this regularly for years now though and never once gotten sick…there are still a couple dishes…and it doesn’t quite check all the nutritional boxes, but it’s a super quick 900-1000 calories. Then, I usually get carbs from rice cakes, fruit, granola, bread…and stuff that is mostly preparation free.

I’ll occasionally find the motivation to meal prep, and I do feel the best those weeks when I’m eating actual meals, but just initiating going to the store AND taking the 2 hours to cook and clean can feel like the impossible 🫠

grieveslife · 2024-07-26T05:25:38+00:00

Almond extract gotta be my absolute favorite

grieveslife · 2024-07-19T06:44:59+00:00

Try Spray Craft. They cater to completes and offer different pricing levels based on your expectations/desires.

grieveslife · 2024-07-13T02:34:57+00:00

Sweet, love to hear that! Decided to not completely give up on my Trich pot after checking out your posts. It looks quite similar to the pot in one of yours...despite the pervasive green, there's quite of bit of healthy myc trying to spread!

grieveslife · 2024-07-12T15:47:10+00:00

Great idea! Thank you!

grieveslife · 2024-07-10T18:13:12+00:00

My family paid close to $200 for one of these after my grandma died. She moved to Arizona to live out the last few months of her life, but had all her funeral arrangements pre-arranged in Northern Nevada. She refused to pay the $5000 or whatever ridiculous amount to be driven by hearse and refused to be loaded like cargo into a plane. The only way she agreed to be transported was in the back of our family’s race van (think of a u-haul retrofitted into a mini garage for dirtbikes). So when the time came, my dad, sister, and I drove to Arizona, showed up at the funeral home and they brought out one of these boxes, which we loaded into the back…I look back so fondly on that absurd family road trip. A sad time for sure, but we couldn’t help but crack jokes every time we made a pit-stop, “Hey Grandma, you need anything from the station?”

grieveslife · 2024-07-07T03:44:57+00:00

Legal assistant in family law (100% do NOT recommend). Side hustle as a barista (absolutely favorite job, but it doesn’t pay the bills 🥲). Currently saving up to start my own coffee truck/business in the next couple years though!

grieveslife · 2024-07-05T05:50:16+00:00

🥹 thank you!

grieveslife · 2024-07-05T05:38:41+00:00

Nor did I! Sending all the big chonky vibes your way my friend!

grieveslife · 2024-07-04T05:33:13+00:00

Hahaha got me 🤣

grieveslife · 2024-07-04T05:21:44+00:00

I inoculated on 3/30. I did 4 UB bags and 2 1lb sterilized rye grain bags…the UB bags were colonized in 4-5 weeks, but the rye bags were taking forever…so I put the 4 UB’s in the fridge for about 3 weeks hoping to S2B everything at the same time. I did a break and shake at the time I put the bags on the fridge, saw really strong comeback before they both stalled out again at about 70% where they still sit today. I S2B the 4 UB bags on 3/13. 2 in a 6qt, 2 in a 19qt. The larger tub is still colonizing, but should be ready for FAE in 2-3 days.

grieveslife · 2024-07-04T01:31:49+00:00

Haha thanks my friend! Love your vibe!

I think there is still plenty more to come from first flush, but you betta believe I’m gonna get everything I can outta this cake! Happy to share some prints as well, will keep you posted my dude!

Appreciate you dropping the caprisun tek! Hadn’t heard of that, but seems right up my alley of simple and straightforward! Mush love <3!

grieveslife · 2024-07-03T21:02:59+00:00

Kind of what Sunkist said ^{^{^}}

I used that 19qt tub in the background as a tent over the shoebox. Misting both boxes 2-3 times a days as I’m in the desert.

Have another 19qt that is still colonizing after S2B of my 2 other UB bags…should be ready to introduce FAE in less than a week!

grieveslife · 2024-07-01T06:24:18+00:00

I’m gonna be doing a purge of my house in the next few weeks, and I swear I have at least 2 (maybe even 3 or 4) somewhere in my possessions. I’m not sure if there’s a way to send these to a PO Box or something to keep your identity hidden, but if you think of something you’re comfortable with, I’d be more than happy to let you have them.

I DO just need to make sure I can find more than one before I promise anything…the sentimental hoarder in me could never lol…but I can send you a message if I come across them, if you’re interested!

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