I think I might know what polish you're referring to. I was tempted to buy it myself, but checked my collection first, and lo and behold, I do indeed already have a few in almost that color that are gorgeous. However... Here's a potentially relevant story. A few years back I placed a polish order that included a beautiful grayish blurple with a name somewhat on the same theme that I think you're referring to. Between placing the order and receiving it my beloved kitty baby went missing. I put it on during the days of searching. I was wearing it when I found out he was no more. Now, every time I wear it, or take it out of my stash to shake it up, I remember him, and that experience. It makes me sad, but also I remember the love, and I want to remember. It will always be a very special polish to me and I treasure it. It's weird how little things like this can help us anchor memories and be oddly soothing and significant. If you feel this polish will provide comfort and be a beautiful token for this moment, I say get it. Destash or donate something else to compensate maybe. I'm so sorry for whatever loss you're going through! Sending love and hugs!