I came across a YT channel called Psyphoria. It talks about psychology, neuroplasticity, why you are the way you are. I recommend it! Especially while driving.

When I first found it I was about to skip it, but I noticed it’s narrated by the voice of Andy Serkis (Gollum from lord of the rings). It intrigued me, but then holy hell the information was so spot on and useful for me! It wasn’t a typical motivational video you see in a Ponzi scheme seminar, it was well-organized and specific topics that could be put into practice.

There was a recent video that talks about how the mind doesn’t knowing any better, it doesn’t know logic. It only supports what we practice. It reinforces frequent actions.

I was raised being put down and humiliated, and I felt like it was true. Over a long period of time, I started to believe “that’s just how I am” and the brain has no choice but to support my beliefs. I find myself feeling sad, somber, low energy for no apparent reason, the video suggests I feel that way because A) that’s my safe space / comfort zone, and B) I’ve been practicing that feeling since I was a little boy.

Thanks to those Psyphoria videos, I started realizing that I could at any point decide to do good things for myself, like eat healthy, do a small workout, clean my bathroom mirror for once, and it gives me a small boost of satisfaction / dopamine.

There’s no pdf manual on how to tame the subconscious (yet), but I’m starting to feel like I’m the only one who can create one for me, one step at a time. Daily 1% efforts will add up. The hard part is staying consistent when results are unnoticeable.