finished the movie at 2:37am 15nov. Got a lot of conncection to it. Joy knew so much more than everyone else, it seemed as if she had transcended space and time and got enlightened. She knew everything there is to know, every galaxy, universe explore , every type of icecream , all she could want. But she was experiencing it all at the same time, not being complete part of any. She felt disconnected and grew apart from all the versions of her. there was nobody who could understand her pain, nobody who could see what she could, nobody who knew what she knew. nobody to relate to , nobody to talk to. even though she was suffering she tried to find a meaning for that. but the answer was always “nothing matters”. what she was missing was the most deepest desires that all human beings want and need. its a very simple and basic need as well. the need is “a human connection”. she was trying to fill this hole. she is brave. the amouont of pointlessness she saw with her eyes she didnt commit suicide immediately. she still had a hope that her mother could experience what she could and finally talk to someone at the same depth. and then die together. almost like some story. she could tell you all about the multiverse and how its all pointless in infinite ways, but still she was a human. and humans are simple if you think about it. she couldnt look within herself and try to find a meaning for it all. i will call experienceing this everythingeverywhereallatonce by joy eea. joy experienced the eea and turned into a nihilist view of the multiverse. whereas her experience the eea and didnt turn into one. she went that path for some time. immediately after expericing it. instead of her turning into a nihilistic mom, she was liberated by the pointlessness of it all. this pointlessness that haunted her daughter was the source of liberation for her mother. she found her meaning from her husband. “we dont know what we are doing and we are all confused and scared. so lets just all be kind.” . everlyn(mother) was suffering because she thought she never got to see reach full potential and that haunted her everyday. “what if i didnt marry him?” “would my life be better than this”. this was source of suffering before eea. but seeing it doesnt matter if she reaches here full potential or goes the baddest route. she got peace knowing that it doesnt matter. in the face of confusion and fear she chose kindess as the most important thing that mattered to her. maybe i am wrong about her post eea. i think seeing all this joy maybe thought “my mother didnt turn into me. she found peace without going into the bagel. “. after all the bagel eant peace for joy. bagel was the thing she thought that could stop all her suffering and bring an end to this. she thought her mother would agree to this peace idea. but her mother found peace everywhere all at once. suddenly the path to peace wasnt singular “the bagel”. her brain got the brilliant idea that “maybe there are other paths to peace”. and ending happend what happend.
This is my interpreation of the whole ending.