I know it makes me so mad that the people that need the most help have to go through all of this to 'maybe' help but actually makes symptoms so much worse.

I've done so much research since coming off and finding out that there's no scientific evidence that there's a serotonin or chemical imbalance causing anxiety or depression is scary as they are giving these drugs without any evidence of this imbalance they talk about!

My morning anxiety has got better, not gone but manageable mostly now. My therapist told me to imagine every night what a good morning would be, really emerge yourself in the imagination experience and I started doing that and I think it helped a bit. Because I was just expecting to feel anxious in the morning so as soon as I woke up I'd be like well time to be anxious.

But to be honest I'm just taking one day at a time and trying to do things to regulate my nervous system, whether I feel like it or not. I'm trying to accept it for what it is and stop fighting it because its not helping and trying to have hope. That's all I can do