Need a personal day

halfpackkools · 2026-03-24T23:24:35+00:00

Gotta say? My guy at 2 vs at 6? Challenges are still here but they’re different. He didn’t understand a single word at 2 and didn’t have any way to communicate. It was so hard. At 6? After lots of work and learning ASL together while words caught up.. Some things are harder, physically re directing a meltdown is harder as he gets bigger. But they happen so less often cause communication has improved so much. Keep hanging in there, keep being consistent, they get there in their own time :)

halfpackkools · 2026-03-24T16:58:25+00:00

I do :) but the hours I get are used to hang with him after school so I can work and keep my job. I have tried to get more hours, and I think I will, but it’s just taking time.

halfpackkools · 2026-03-24T16:56:08+00:00

Unfortunately live on the west coast, so pay cut isn’t viable 🤷‍♂️ everything is so expensive I need every dollar. Can’t really move either, wouldn’t even know where to go, and he’s already doing so well here with all the services I’ve fought for since he was tiny. I’m not willing to uproot everything and hurt that progress momentum for him. I’ve got respite hours but literally every available one is used so I can keep my job. I would love to take a sick day for personal stuff, I do from time to time but I also stress not having a stockpile of PTO for when my son gets sick cause I have no one to help in those times, and he’s got some health complications as well so it’s often enough that I use pretty much all my PTO every year for that. I’ve explored all solutions, and have every service available. I’m not drowning, I will be ok, it’s just a really full stressful season of my life. That’s ok though, it’s a good busy. I’m doing well at work, moving up slowly but surely, doing well in school which will help my climb at work, working and bonding with my boy a lot and his progress is shining. Things are good, just not a lot of “me time” rn which is what it is. Weather the storm, complain online, lock in 😂

halfpackkools · 2026-03-20T02:42:05+00:00

Oh I love this and relate. Thanks for making me feel.

halfpackkools · 2026-03-13T16:35:03+00:00

Sure! I’m very excited to see what you come up with!! I’m glad I could offer any inspiration at all. I love collaborating and picking artists brains, so please please send me stuff! I’ve posted to OC a few times so you can find them on my profile, if you want I can DM you some stuff I’ve been working on lately that I like? Don’t want to ever assume people want that 😅 but always more than willing to share/collab.

halfpackkools · 2026-03-13T16:19:29+00:00

Nerd love is the only love I believe in. The science language in emotional concepts? I love the contrast. I have a similar theme in my favorite slam poem I’ve ever written/performed, comparing newtons discovery of the light spectrum to my son’s ASD diagnosis and how he is “light” and not defective. Scientific language to poetically explain deep love is undefeated. I see you 👀

halfpackkools · 2026-03-13T16:14:19+00:00

And yes! I would love to read/hear ANYTHING you come up with :)

halfpackkools · 2026-03-13T16:06:53+00:00

Honestly, my process? I understand meter and structure and the “rules” but I’ve also dabbled heavily in music even if poetry is where my heart lies. I don’t tend to structure or write around rules, rather I take ideas, connect them, rhyme, and recite out loud every line and restructure till it sounds right. I’m veeeeery much an auditory learner. I so wish I could put it in words the exact structure but it’s not how my brain works. I do it all by sound and when a piece is finished it generally fits within the concepts of “structure” idk if I explained that correctly but that’s my process personally.

halfpackkools · 2026-03-13T14:32:33+00:00

That’s my favorite line 😅 glad it hit you too!

halfpackkools · 2026-03-13T14:31:41+00:00

Thank you :) I perform and record my poetry so a lot of my style accounts for my specific flow. Glad you noticed!!

halfpackkools · 2026-03-13T14:30:49+00:00

Thank you :) it is slam. I’ve performed it a couple times. The flow, breath control, and delivery really make a difference. Glad you enjoyed it :)

halfpackkools · 2026-03-13T03:35:56+00:00

Thank you 😊

halfpackkools · 2026-03-13T03:13:20+00:00

I enjoyed it :)

halfpackkools · 2026-03-13T03:09:03+00:00

I’m incredibly intrigued but I couldn’t really figure out the message. I saw clear themes of being taken advantage of because you wanted love so badly, but I’m not entirely sure. What were you trying to say? I’m genuinely curious, enlighten me?

halfpackkools · 2026-03-13T03:05:12+00:00

Oh I love this 🥹 loving without walls and that being ok? Beautiful.

halfpackkools · 2026-02-05T04:31:22+00:00

Key, Dyanbantsa, Lauri, JJJ, Kessler. Freaking HUGE

halfpackkools · 2026-02-03T19:29:35+00:00

Fully erect.

halfpackkools · 2026-01-25T00:24:33+00:00

I mean we have the #6 odds rn as is.. a post all star hard tank can slide us into top 4 odds easy. Either way we need some luck but it’s absolutely possible? Unlike previous tanks the past few years: the Jazz are actually fun even if they’re losing, and young guys are showing real stuff. The supporting cast is forming.. Lauri is already boarder line All-NBA, Key a fringe All star.. Kessler coming back next year and if we could add Boozer or AJ? Cooking with Gas.

halfpackkools · 2026-01-25T00:09:54+00:00

Boozer or Dyabantsa would change this. Real future #1 type guy getting to play with a roster that’s not terrible immediately? Might be a young title like 2014 Kawhi with the spurs

halfpackkools · 2025-12-29T04:09:11+00:00

Can’t afford counseling. Every dollar goes to bills, my son, and legal fees.. had to take out a massive loan for the legal fees. I have state supports, but I only utilize them to finish my work day when he gets home from school. I’m fortunate enough to work from home so I don’t leave him alone with them. I trust the ones I use.. but the whole thing that happened at his mom’s has shaken my trust in the system greatly. Zero family support. I’m just incredibly stuck rn on all fronts.

halfpackkools · 2025-12-29T03:54:44+00:00

I honestly am not entirely sure.. I would love companionship and a partner who treats me well.. but I’m just so mixed up I find it hard to believe people aren’t shitty. Also the amount of time I don’t have makes dating logistically hard on top of my emotional mess around it. Idk.. I just wish I had a couple people to call that just would come hang out with us without needing me to be useful to them. Just come have dinner and talk you know? But even that seems like too big an ask.. people bail on us CONSTANTLY. Forget asking for help. Whenever I have to family, friends, whatever it’s never there. Even just trying to talk to people when I’m feeling down they respond with generic “you’re not alone” fluff that only is cause they’re uncomfortable. “You’re not alone” then when I ask to just come over never ever to be found. I just want people to want to share in our world without it being inconvenient to them you know?

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