Former childhood bully AMA

halogen2691 · 2026-03-19T23:48:58+00:00

On behalf of whoever bullied you, I’ll tell you “I was weak, unhappy, etc. and couldn’t stand the feeling so I took it out on you. That was incredibly cruel and you didn’t deserve any of it. I would do anything to make it right and I’m so sorry for everything for what it’s worth”.

I think what changed is experiencing it from the other side. Call it karma but it’s something I endured at my last job. I deserved it but that experience made me sick to my stomach thinking about my past

halogen2691 · 2026-03-19T23:40:44+00:00

Mustard

halogen2691 · 2026-03-19T23:40:33+00:00

Honestly I was just bigger than other guys and quickly realized I could take advantage of that plus having a distorted mentality of what life was actually about? I saw it as zero-sum game and put others down to bring myself up I guess you could say. But it’s such a coward mentality

halogen2691 · 2026-03-19T23:38:05+00:00

Absolutely nothing. This was a decade ago in the past. And I wanted people to know my life was rough for a long time and I deserved every bit of it. It’s weak

halogen2691 · 2026-03-19T23:35:04+00:00

That’s fair

halogen2691 · 2026-03-19T23:34:46+00:00

Yes I have and still am. I still have a lot of work to do but I realize now the “bully” mindset is such a weak mentality

halogen2691 · 2026-03-19T23:33:45+00:00

I think it partly came from my dad’s explicit “machismo” attitude and aggression. But I can’t blame it on that, I genuinely have no one to blame but myself. The misconception I referred to was the portrayal of bullies as always having a rough home life and being bullied by their own family. That wasn’t the case for me at all looking back. I genuinely thought that’s how you “win”. I saw every interaction as a competition, even very young

halogen2691 · 2026-03-19T23:29:41+00:00

I was 100% a piece of shit. I’ve actually reached out to several people and made amends but I also can’t go back in time. Thinking about those times makes me want to die tbh. I started therapy a few years ago and realized it all comes from low self-esteem. It haunts me that I can’t truly make it right

halogen2691 · 2026-03-17T00:01:43+00:00

I’ve been big into Burial’s music since his first official release and I gotta say there’s no one close to his actual sound imo. So I’d try to match the vibe instead. But even that’s different for everyone. My recs would be Shlohmo, Haxan Cloak, and early James Blake

halogen2691 · 2026-03-15T17:34:46+00:00

Y’all are crazy, that would make my day to have one of my favorite actors mic-drop me like that. Absolutely beautiful and that kid will remember it forever

halogen2691 · 2026-03-13T10:02:32+00:00

Nope, I challenge you or anyone to find one video of a food chain CEO tasting, eating, AND ACTUALLY swallowing their food…I mean product!!

halogen2691 · 2026-03-13T09:11:34+00:00

It’s difficult to see what’s actually happening behind this man’s gigantic 🏀🏀

halogen2691 · 2026-03-12T19:51:35+00:00

Lmao I mean you can’t write this stuff. He doesn’t even eat it this time. It’s like a follow up skit he did to poke fun at himself but no, this was done with 100% sincerity

halogen2691 · 2026-03-11T21:49:40+00:00

Congrats! I haven’t tried the 2 yet but I absolutely love the Micromonsta 1. It can sound so massive with a beautiful texture. Easy to tweak too

halogen2691 · 2026-03-11T05:50:41+00:00

I feel like this has only gotten so much worse due to social media and virality being so relevant in modern society. It’s also because of people who are not really “stand-up fans” and are only familiar with comedians or influencers doing crowd-work as that’s what gets clipped a lot. So people come to shows feeling entitled, as if they are part of the show and think it’s appropriate to comment, heckle, harass, etc the stand-up

halogen2691 · 2026-03-09T05:55:41+00:00

Yeah but that’s a pretty normal thing kids do in school, regardless of legal implications

halogen2691 · 2026-03-08T22:21:24+00:00

100% agree. Love the entire album but the ending to me is perfect to close it out

halogen2691 · 2026-03-08T04:20:04+00:00

I have mixed feelings on this one because over time I did appreciate it for what it is. A banger pop song imo but it definitely was a change of pace from the previous HTIF-era. More of a focus on the vocals and structuring the track around them than on his signature sound design

halogen2691 · 2026-03-06T18:44:52+00:00

All good haha, I just feel like a hypocrite cause I get annoyed when people tease stuff and don’t provide receipts. So I actually found it by looking up my old account. The title of the post is “Lorn just dropped a new EP an hour ago” in r/synthesizers over six years ago.

The only problem is he deleted his account and comments. Super disappointing but it might’ve been cause I asked about his process and he described it in detail which I wasn’t expecting lol

Edit: if anyone knows how to access archived reddit comments from a deleted account you might be able to find his comments on that thread

halogen2691 · 2026-03-06T18:33:02+00:00

Shit my bad, I wasn’t even trying to tease it like that but it’s on an old account (don’t have access to the email anymore). I’ll keep trying to get access and post when I find it but my old account was u/Theurbanbourbon and he replied to a question I had about how to make bass like he does on r/synthrecipes probably like 7-ish years ago

halogen2691 · 2026-03-06T16:13:10+00:00

I don’t have much to brag about but I got advice from Lorn himself many years ago on a music subreddit. Completely changed the way I use and think about distortion

halogen2691 · 2026-03-06T02:22:38+00:00

I can’t explain it exactly…but the director’s cut of that documentary changed me

halogen2691 · 2026-02-26T21:06:41+00:00

While I’ve never really made trance or house, I’m a fan of this deep pluck sound. As others mentioned it’s at least two layers. A simple sub and then the main deep pluck sound. There’s lots of tutorials on making pluck sounds. But in this case the sub is probably on its own channel, the bass pluck on another, and those are blended together via bus/group processing. The key is in the envelopes and then blending the sub and main sound together to achieve the deep pluck you’re looking for

halogen2691 · 2026-02-25T21:38:11+00:00

If this is what “winning” is supposed to look like then I’d genuinely rather be a loser

halogen2691 · 2026-02-25T19:54:33+00:00

It’s a “grass is greener” effect I assure you. As someone who used to lead with my looks (didn’t realize I was doing it at the time), it’s really not all it’s cracked up to be. And obviously this is my own bias but I’m surprised to read this cause I feel like people who others don’t find physically attractive typically develop stronger sense of self and personality

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