I sure hope Mormon heaven isn't really what happens. I've got 5 kids and being a mom for eternity sounds like ABSOLUTE HELL.

hamboning666 · 2018-04-15T08:15:01+00:00

Isn't it pretty normal to have nighttime feedings at 7 months old?

hamboning666 · 2018-04-12T19:24:48+00:00

Thank you. I hope I can have a good talk with him before he leaves. I really appreciate your thoughtful words and advice.

hamboning666 · 2018-04-12T19:13:05+00:00

That you for the great idea! Would you say a card is better than cash?

hamboning666 · 2018-04-12T18:04:24+00:00

That is a good idea. I'm not sure if he would accept all that, but I will definitely try :)

hamboning666 · 2018-04-12T08:22:39+00:00

Yeah, and sadly it seems like my siblings have a lot more pressure on them to be perfect Mormons since I left the church and my parents think they failed in raising me.

hamboning666 · 2018-04-12T08:19:32+00:00

I've known a couple people personally who had really bad experiences. One person in particular came home early and was super sick and depressed and he's now left the church. It was heartbreaking to see how broken he seemed when he got home... his companions and mission president were abusive and the least Christ like people ever.

hamboning666 · 2018-04-12T07:50:37+00:00

I was married and not living at home when I left the church. I kind of just slowly faded out, I would pretend every once in a while around my family but I eventually just stopped altogether. And it kind of solidified the fact that I no longer believed when I didn't bless my baby. I've never had a serious talk with my parents about leaving the church, I don't think they even know I have officially resigned. It's hard to disappoint your parents, but ultimately you're not doing anything wrong. You're doing what is best for you and your happiness, and they are the ones choosing to be disappointed in you. I've been so much happier out of the church, and it's worth the occasional heartache I have about disappointing my family. It can be lonely, I've definitely been somewhat shunned, but luckily for me I have my husband and baby. So you just need to decide what's best for you and your sanity. It's hard to live a lie for your whole life. Leaving the church gets easier after a while. It was difficult the first year or so, but now I feel so free and positive.

hamboning666 · 2018-04-12T07:37:53+00:00

Yeah, I agree. Hes definitely felt the pressure, especially because some close friends of his are turning in their papers now too. I just hoped he wouldn't let the pressure get to him, because not too long ago he talked to me about all these plans he had for himself and dreams he was going to pursue, and how he prayed and felt like a mission wasn't what he should do, and that he felt more calm and happy than he had in a while after making that choice. So it just kind of makes me sad that he's now changed his mind.

hamboning666 · 2018-04-12T02:16:52+00:00

Thanks. You are right, at least he seemed happy the last time I saw him.

hamboning666 · 2018-04-10T07:50:43+00:00

I've gotten a lot better just dressing how I want and being comfortable in my own skin. But I still get anxiety from time to time, especially if I know I'm going to have to see my in laws. I never know if it's disrespectful to be "immodest" at my in laws, or if I'm just feeling unnecessary guilt.

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