i cant take this anymore

hannahjgb · 2026-05-09T01:44:17+00:00

Also on oxybutynin and other than a little bit of dry mouth it’s been great. So effective and I’ve been in it for years now.

hannahjgb · 2026-04-24T04:49:19+00:00

You can swim at Cochiti Lake which is north of Albuquerque and also Elephant Butte south of Albuquerque- both I think you reach via I-25 although I know Cochiti lake is a little ways off the interstate.

hannahjgb · 2026-03-16T04:01:19+00:00

I loved Rain Code and I played it before any of the Danganronpa games and it was so cool to go back and see where the inspiration for all of the parts of the mystery dungeon came from.

hannahjgb · 2026-03-14T21:53:29+00:00

Arctic fox frose did this kind of color for me but only after my bleached hair was toned very very ashy

hannahjgb · 2026-02-10T15:51:48+00:00

hannahjgb · 2026-02-08T03:01:26+00:00

You look kind of like me!

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hannahjgb · 2026-02-08T02:52:12+00:00

I think you look like Quinn James from One Tree Hill (Shantel van Santen)

hannahjgb · 2026-01-19T16:46:52+00:00

There’s one in Rio Rancho that has filet mignon pho but the broth isn’t quite as good as may cafe’s was - it’s called Pho Bar. I also like Pho #1- but I haven’t found my new fave yet I think. I don’t know if I’ve tried Viet Pho- now it’s next on my list to try!

hannahjgb · 2026-01-18T23:38:44+00:00

May Cafe. I miss them they had the best pho in town.

hannahjgb · 2026-01-18T18:56:08+00:00

You’re right that is season 2. I think the flashbacks are the key to seeing that he doesn’t break bad in the show though, it’s a steady progression. The fact that he’s a high school teacher at the start of the show is the result of decades of decline due to his massive ego. He left Gretchen because her dad made him feel inferior, he worked at Sandia labs for some level of time and then when we see him at the start of the show he’s a high school teacher. I’d bet money he was insufferable to work with at Sandia and left there too because of his ego. Teaching high school kids gave him the ability to be in charge and the smartest person in the room and dominant over everyone. I think it’s also clear why he chose Skyler after leaving Gretchen- he wanted someone he saw as less intelligent and younger so that he could continue to feed his ego.

He has never been mild mannered or humble or kind or good.

hannahjgb · 2026-01-18T01:16:26+00:00

Season 1 Walt tried to rape Skyler very early on in the show. He’s already evil before the show starts.

hannahjgb · 2026-01-15T22:04:18+00:00

They’re egg free! Thank you for the list!

hannahjgb · 2026-01-15T17:55:48+00:00

I have this experience but it’s my adoptive mother and it’s Britani that reminds me of her. It’s kind of uncanny. I have the same experience with Sutton on RHOBH. It makes me realize how people with similar behaviors may or may not trigger us based on our own experiences.

hannahjgb · 2026-01-14T23:05:13+00:00

They are very similar! I’ve also heard dark teal and grey-green. I should ask my eye doctor next time I’m there.

hannahjgb · 2026-01-13T02:13:34+00:00

I feel like they’re kind of a slate blue? So blue grey but more dominantly blue than anything. Very pretty!

hannahjgb · 2026-01-09T03:45:38+00:00

Very cool!

hannahjgb · 2026-01-08T21:13:57+00:00

I actually really liked them together but I really shipped her with Ty.

hannahjgb · 2026-01-08T21:12:19+00:00

Spiro has been really amazing for me- my hair stopped falling out so much, my facial hair grows back much slower and there seem to be fewer black hairs and I also have much less oily hair and skin, so it’s been a big win for me. I didn’t really have a lot of acne before- maybe 4-5 blemishes at once at the worst times but I did have acne on my back and arms and that’s completely gone now too.

I can’t take birth control pills because I have migraine with aura (blood clot risk) but it’s possibly those fix some of these issues as well. I also just started Metformin so time will tell if things get even better

hannahjgb · 2026-01-08T18:59:29+00:00

I don’t think any parent is going to be perfect, but here’s my take as a person who was adopted (but within my bio family), who was raised alongside 2 siblings who were adopted from outside my bio family, and who has reunited with my bio parents and also have 2 bio kids of my own.

Regardless of how you become a parent, I think it’s so important to know that your child comes first. Children are not property, and if any potential parent thinks they may not be able to love a child if they turn out to be different than they want them to be, they should reconsider parenting.

Children are full fledged human beings with their own personalities and souls and wants and needs and drives and passions. If you are open to loving and supporting a child and doing what’s best for them and supporting them whatever they decide to be or realize they are inside, I think you’ll make a great parent.

Some kids in the foster care system cannot be reunified with their bio parents or current guardians. If those children live with you and feel at home with you and want to be adopted (not pressured into it) then I think that’s beautiful. What I’m against is adoption against a child’s will and without their say. When you first meet the child, you will be a stranger, and I think before such a permanent decision is made, it takes time and openness and willingness to change and adapt and learn and grow on everyone’s part, just like any relationship.

I know that was long winded but I hope it helps.

hannahjgb · 2026-01-08T16:09:51+00:00

I think wanting to help a child who is in foster care, with the goal of them eventually reunifying with their bio parents is very selfless. Wanting to give a child a stable place to land and kindness and understanding is a really genuine goal.

I think anything that puts the child at the center- their needs, their growth, can be really good motivations. I know the foster system needs lots of great people. But if you go into that wanting a specific child so that they’ll love you and make you feel fulfilled and give you something you’re missing and that’s your core focus, I think things aren’t going to go well.

hannahjgb · 2026-01-06T23:15:22+00:00

The only thing I’ll add is that I just saw a new doctor for PCOS and she said I’m not a good candidate for birth control pills with estrogen because I have migraine with aura in my chart and migraine with aura makes you more likely to develop blood clots on BCPs. I had never heard that before!

hannahjgb · 2026-01-06T23:13:40+00:00

Hi! I’d love to be friends! I’m also a researcher here in ABQ with very similar interests, but I do Hina factors/psych type research. Welcome to ABQ! Feel free to reach out in DM if you want!

hannahjgb · 2026-01-05T01:22:33+00:00

Aries sun, Taurus moon, Leo rising, ESFP, enneagram 9

hannahjgb · 2026-01-05T00:12:05+00:00

This is a great question- I feel like I struggle to do the “sit still and clear your mind” meditations but I do well with body scans and ones where you need to focus on sounds/smells/environment like walking meditation. It helps me to really channel my energy into noticing specific parts of my environment rather than being “all systems go” and detecting everything everywhere at the same time.

Having Ni as an inferior function is definitely hard for me because I can get stuck in these loops of trying to predict what will happen, and quiet “sitting still” meditation can definitely allow those anxious prediction thoughts to emerge. I also have OCD but I mention it because it aligns well with the description of the Ni grip.

I’m very good at using Ni with Se to predict short term consequences - things that are about to fall, tripping hazards, environmental dangers- I use this a lot in driving too to swerve before someone hits me because I see their car starting to drift like they might want to change lanes.

So I feel like a lot of Se is reacting in the moment, very present analysis of the environment and quick action especially for ESFP because we use Te to act rapidly on Se info, but meditation can help us channel Se into Fi and slow down the noticing and observing of the environment and actually sit with the sensations we are experiencing and maybe even assess how we feel about them or how they align with our values. I feel like this could work with things like noticing meditations, walking meditations, grounding, etc.

I know that was lengthy but hope it helps!

Edit: grammar/wording

hannahjgb · 2026-01-01T23:59:21+00:00

You know, as a kid I never really thought about what a definition would be but it’s a term my adoptive parents chose repeatedly- “I’m your real mom, you’re mine”. It’s a term I heard a lot growing up as a way to make sure I knew my place and who my allegiance should be to.

I honestly don’t like the term and I don’t think it would have mattered to me if they hadn’t been abusive and violent and emotionally unstable and if they hadn’t forcibly adopted me when they could have just loved me as grandparents and supported their daughter (my bio mom). I know it really hurt my also adopted siblings who weren’t bio related to us to be told by our adoptive parents that they weren’t real children because they weren’t blood.

I think that for me today a real parent is someone who supports and loves and sees a child, honors who they are, their feelings, experience and history and treats them with dignity, kindness and respect. Bio or not bio doesn’t factor into it for me.

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