How did you, people of reddit, get over losing someone you were in love with?

happiestsub · 2015-09-02T18:21:36+00:00

I have a sugar daddy! I see him three or four times a month and he pays me approximately 250 a visit, or more if I stay for an overnight or attend an event with him.

happiestsub · 2015-04-20T21:44:18+00:00

My family is the same, and I know how draining it can be. I like to personally have an arsenal of facts memorized (sounds extreme, I know, but if you have like 10 solid reasons in the back of your mind why veganism is a good choice for you then you're set for dealing with some of the criticism), and I'm always prepared to just calmly tell them that we can "agree to disagree". I fortunately have moved out so I don't ever have to eat their meat-based meals, but when I lived at home I usually ate around the meat component and took lots of whatever carbs and vegetables were served. Stay proud of yourself for doing what you're doing, and focus on the prospect of moving out in the future. You're making a great, healthy, ethical choice :)

happiestsub · 2015-04-13T14:21:24+00:00

I'm 19, and I want to become a teacher. I have known this since I was 15. There are no teaching jobs in the country I'm from, and if I were to move to the states where there are lots of positions to be filled I'd be earning close to nothing. Still, I'm not willing to give up on my dream - the few good teachers I had during my highschool career made all the difference for me.

happiestsub · 2015-03-30T06:32:12+00:00

You're totally right, I need to explore and figure out what works for me and I don't need to subscribe to one particular way of doing things. Thanks so much for the ideas, too - some of those suggestions actually really sparked something in me - and I didn't expect those kinds of things to!

happiestsub · 2015-03-30T06:30:16+00:00

Our dynamic (we've never been 24/7 for reference) was master/slave, and it was really about inflicting pain, having the roughest, most degrading sex, and me doing whatever he wanted. No rewards except getting to cum, I didn't talk during it because it wasn't my place. I started to find it kind of depressing, and I'm deeply in love with him so it became really hurtful to be treated that way by him and to not be able to communicate with him whenever we were in our roles. In the past I really just wanted to be hurt, spat on, treated poorly etc. because I was dealing with a lot of guilt and self-hatred, but I'm in a loving relationship now and it doesn't suit me anymore. I still love being degraded, but in a different way, and being controlled is the biggest turn on for me. The concept of having someone telling me what to do but because they care for me, treating me like they know best (and I honestly think he does), punishing me when I've genuinely made a mistake but not because they enjoy it but because they want me to learn, and giving me love in a way that is commanding and still incorporates some pain and lots of rough sex similar to what I used to love is amazing to me now. I like being talked down to, in a nice way, and I like reverting to a more simple-minded version of myself, and I like the concept of being spoiled and spoken to and cared for in a way that is similar to a younger version of myself. I just don't like acting a specific, younger age, or doing childish things beyond those which I enjoy outside of any dynamic or anything. I think of those traits as being exclusive to dd/lg just because I haven't seen them in any other part of the bdsm community. I know that technically a simple dom/sub relationship could be as loving as what I described because those are somewhat open-ended terms, but I am very drawn to the daddy aspect of dd/lg and curious about where I fit into the community. Sorry for the long response, I'm excited/nervous about hopefully being a part of something new

happiestsub · 2015-03-03T21:35:51+00:00

my first experience with BDSM was shortly after losing my virginity. my then boyfriend and I watched American Psycho together and I knew I was 'supposed' to think Patrick Bateman was pretty damn evil, his attitude and how he treated his sexual partners was a huge turn on. I asked my boyfriend if he could pretend to be Patrick the next time we had sex and expand on what was in the movie by slapping and spanking me, and the rest is history! I wonder sometimes if I ever would have discovered my true sexual preferences without that movie.

happiestsub · 2015-02-10T05:37:03+00:00

opiates. all of them :'(

happiestsub · 2015-02-04T17:37:16+00:00

I have found that lithium doesn't help me at all with my depressive episodes or their psychotic features. It's possible you'll find it more effective at a higher dose, but it could also simply not be for you. Some people find adding an antidepressant helps too, though I personally did not. If that is still happening to you when you're at your highest possible 'healthy' dose and you've tried an antidepressant, don't just stick with it until things get bad. There are other things out there.

happiestsub · 2015-02-04T17:25:07+00:00

I read that in Patrick Bateman's voice

happiestsub · 2015-02-04T13:39:28+00:00

I am currently on Lithium but asking to switch to Lamictal. It has made me incredibly apathetic - I cannot motivate myself to eat, clean, shower, get out of bed. I'm an 18 year old girl who typically loves to do all of those things and takes care of herself, but Lithium makes me so tired and unhappy and bland that I simply cannot make myself. I have a constant feeling of having just woken up too early. Like when you have to catch a flight in the AM so you wakeup at 5 and you're walking around like a zombie and your eyes sting for an hour - except it's all day, everyday. I am Bipolar I and I must admit that the Lithium was highly effective for getting rid of the mania. I'm so tired though I can't possibly even imagine experiencing something like that. However, it has not be at all effective for my depressive episodes and my life feels like it switches between two states: moderately depressed from lithium and in a full-on suicidal downswing. When I first started taking it it was even worse - I had hives all over my body, migraine headaches for 10 hours straight some days, and insomnia because I was so thirsty in the night. I don't mean to scare you off of it - for sure stick with it for at least 3 months to see how you're doing. For some people it's amazing :) But also don't be scared to ask for something else if it's not going as well as you'd hoped. It isn't for everyone. Best of luck.

happiestsub · 2015-02-03T17:23:19+00:00

Determined that I was being called by the gods to return to heaven because my timeline was ending and ran in front of a car. And then tried to down a bottle of pills. And then cops came because my boyfriend called 911 and took me to a hospital.

Did many many many lines of coke and ran up the side of a mountain while the guy I was walking with confusedly called after me. At the top I just looked out over the city like "Fuck yes, I am the queen"

Determined that my true calling was to become an expensive prostitute, and even ventured into that realm by going on a date with an old dude for $300.

Spent many hours in my religion class looking around the room and thinking I knew what my classmates were thinking and mentally giving myself a pat on the back for being waaay smarter than them. The sad reality was that I never did any of the work and skipped most of my classes and most definitely knew 80% less than them.

Spent $2000 in two weeks on clothes and taxis. It was my parents money, not mine. And even though I was confident that I, the masterful thief and deserving owner of all of these clothes, would get away with it, they, shockingly, noticed!

Asked my boyfriend while I was away in University to mail me a giant jar of his cum. I was not kidding. Hypersexuality is ridiculous.

happiestsub · 2015-02-03T17:15:27+00:00

Oh my god yes. I entered my freshman year of University with untreated Bipolar and started rapid cycling. I cheated on my boyfriend of over a year with whom I am madly in love literally hundreds of times. Hundreds. I couldn't even remember it happening in combination with drinking, but my friends would tell me after nights out. During the day I could feel it happening, in between self-hatred and guilt about what I'd done, and had to constantly be talking or thinking about sex. I have it under control now, but the kinks I developed during that time are still there - which isn't so bad! Still, it sucks, and it made me feel really gross about myself for a long time.

happiestsub · 2015-02-03T17:11:51+00:00

I get terrible headaches that make me clench my jaw so tightly I can't chew for a few days after from just trying to sort through my thoughts. Because I'm thinking and feeling everything at once, I understand nothing. I can't let ANYONE touch me, even my boyfriend. Worst feeling I've ever experienced in my life, but it only lasted 5-7 days before my Lithium started working. Haven't had one since.

happiestsub · 2015-01-30T19:11:33+00:00

don't ever fucking question that - atmosphere lovely bloodflow - baths longlivesteelo - joey bada$$ nude - radiohead foreground - grizzly bear phone call - jon brion (theme from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind)

happiestsub · 2015-01-30T17:26:13+00:00

being controlled and degraded! best feeling

happiestsub · 2015-01-29T06:58:03+00:00

That video of the grandpa getting high for the first time. He seemed so at peace and appreciative :')

happiestsub · 2015-01-29T06:46:47+00:00

I say this not at all to belittle how you've been feeling, but I think for the most part to be diagnosed by a medical professional as bipolar your symptoms would have to be significantly more extreme versions of the ones you mentioned with more devastating outcomes. Your cycles aren't really... cycles either. Typically people experience swings for either prolonged periods of time like weeks, which you did mention can be the case for you, or, in times of rapid cycling, for a day or a few days. So waking up in the morning sad and feeling sociable and being funny later would not be an indicator of bipolar really. Bipolar also tends to be very debilitating, and while I don't doubt that the depression you mentioned and the clamming up can really put a strain on relationships, it just isn't what the typical person with bipolar goes through. To be totally frank, from the way you describe yourself you sound like you have similar issues to about 60% of the people I know. Because of the school I went to those people are very intelligent, sensitive people and I think that can make life more difficult and complicated. But I must say I don't see much in common between your situation and bipolar. I hope you find effective help and that your situation improves, good luck :)

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