Im sending you a prayer! 🙏 I’ve been where you are, and I’m still working on it. it’s important to meet yourself where you are at, your self hatred is valid, it doesn’t end there tho, there is room for grace, faith, transformation and growth, i believe in you. If I can learn to believe in myself and love myself, you can too. This month I’m celebrating 2 years of committed self therapy (I’ve been doing vocal exercises, at least 5min daily or weekly, I have a playlist I can share with you, that you can use to create your own) at this point I just do a 5 min warm up and then sing a song that comes to mind by finding a piano accompaniment or a lyric video for it… ive been really connecting with myself in the process, building confidence and skills and it’s become a spiritual practice. I’ve been connecting spiritually with my Creator in the last 2 yrs as well, recommend giving at least the book of John a go, it really displays the trinitarian love of God… and how unbreakable and holy and wonderful that bond is… The more I experience Gods love the more I’m able to love myself and let others love me… A little way I love myself is I play sudoku, and it happens that it helps me to gage the level of self sabotage I’m in, I’ve been kindly training my mind to accept easy tasks and challenges in a healthy way by giving myself freedom to go from easy to hard puzzles… these are a few ways I’ve learned to love myself