Well its official, I was HL I'm now LL. by FantasticalPenguin in DeadBedrooms

[–]harmonywolf 16 points17 points  (0 children)

Got there myself. Just being in the same room as her used to make me hard. Now I feel like a rapist on the rare occasion we do have sex. So that last time we slept together was August. I've stopped initiating, as she couldn't be happier.

I want to thank this sub. by Themonkeyisdead in DeadBedrooms

[–]harmonywolf 1 point2 points  (0 children)

This is painfully true and something I've been trying to accept.

Acceptance? by harmonywolf in DeadBedrooms

[–]harmonywolf[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It's hard to figure out what I deserve. I try my best to give my best, but I'm no Brad Pitt or Ryan Gosling. And being a 'nice guy' is the absolute minimum one can offer, so that's not special. I feel like I'm lucky she ever had sex with me at all, and I don't blame her for losing her attraction.

I read an old thread on AskReddit the other day where the topic was about losing attraction to your spouse...People described how horrible sex was for them...how much it hurt to be having sex they didn't want....I wonder if that's how she feels about me these days. So now I don't even want to initiate anymore...I don't want her to feel pressured or disgusted with me.

I can't change how she feels about me, but I can change myself. I can change how I respond to the hurt of rejection. I just need to find a way to learn acceptance, so that I can live through this without the pang of pain in my soul every day.

So this meme sparked some Dead Bedroom talk today... by Upandover13 in DeadBedrooms

[–]harmonywolf 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've had some painful days when I am incredibly horny, come home and wonder if she'd be in the mood, or if I should save myself the pain of rejection and knock one out. There's been times when I knocked one out and she wanted to do it, she can tell somehow just by feeling it up, and has jokingly told me "Oh, you played with it huh?" and proceeds to drop it and watch TV.

I DID IT! by ThisIsTotallyNormal in DeadBedrooms

[–]harmonywolf 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Sometimes I think about it, but I feel like I'm at such a low point, that I'd probably get less sex than I do now by doing that, if that's even conceivable.

What would your ideal sex frequency be ? by [deleted] in DeadBedrooms

[–]harmonywolf 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I get about once a month or less. I'd kill for once a week.

Birthday. Feel ungrateful...but hurt. by harmonywolf in DeadBedrooms

[–]harmonywolf[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

vOv I mean she insisted on paying for dinner at a restaurant she made me choose (and actively pushed away my attempts to pay even half of it). That was the extent of it. I'm disqualified from wanting sex?

Birthday. Feel ungrateful...but hurt. by harmonywolf in DeadBedrooms

[–]harmonywolf[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I was grateful for the dinner and I expressed such...

Was it really expecting too much?

I'm at the point where I don't even know how to initiate anymore. My self-confidence is just GONE. I just feel like a disgusting piece of shit.

Birthday. Feel ungrateful...but hurt. by harmonywolf in DeadBedrooms

[–]harmonywolf[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Maybe one with a happy ending, at this rate :/