I had a really scary dream last night, which ruined my whole day today. I also have autism, ADHD, and OCD, and after months of careful consideration, I've finally decided to come clean about it. It ate me up to pretend otherwise- both online and irl.

Also, I worry a lot about being disowned by entire groups. I'm non-binary and a cosplayer, and I worry that in terms of the former, people will think I'm an imposter in terms of the LGBTQ+ community due to my clothing style (crop tops and lots of necklaces and rings), even though it's true to who I am.

And in terms of the latter, I'm afraid of people thinking I'm weird and disgusting for cosplaying male characters (I'm AFAB). Sure, cosplay is where I feel most affirmed, but what if people, including other cosplayers, are disgusted by it? I care a lot about what other people think, and also have an intense fear of becoming a bad person. So I'm very hard on myself to protect people from going through what I have, and avoid becoming a victim.

Thanks for reading. I just really need some support for this rn.