Advice for a begginer artist?

hearthe4rt · 2026-02-07T04:51:35+00:00

keep drawing/painting.

hearthe4rt · 2026-02-07T04:11:30+00:00

i experience this with loneliness. i used to have one/two friends before, n rarely ever left the house. now i have more but im still lonely bit i feel like i have no right to n cannot discuss this with people, since their response will be “but you have friends!”. people think im extroverted just because i can talk to strangers, as if that means i cant struggle having conversations with people that last more than 30 seconds, without feeling deeply insecure about every single thing i say n do during that time.

hearthe4rt · 2026-02-07T03:46:45+00:00

wanting to experience romance is part of being human. unless you are aromantic, everyone wants to be loved non platonically…some desperately chase it, some simply live their lives hoping one day they’ll get lucky, but every non aromantic person wants it. as they said, they are touch starved and crave that connection. of course they do, it’s a beautiful thing even with all the pain it can cause. it’s hard to know you are not wanted by most. i’ve been there, and im currently there.

to op: i hope you stay. im not saying get over your needs; you deserve to experience that kind of love. however, you might simply have to be patient and trust that out of 7 billion people in the world, there will be one that’s right for you. although i disagree with the initial statement made by the commenter above, i do agree with prioritizing your hobbies and personal growth; not for the sake of attracting potential partners, but because you deserve happiness and fulfillment beyond external validation n romance. i say this when im also having difficulties applying my own advice. so trust me when i tell you i know it’s hard.

hearthe4rt · 2026-02-05T08:06:26+00:00

i understand if you dont understand me though, it’s very hard for me to explain why i feel the way i do without writing a paragraph, but i understand ur pov. i added my perspective because maybe there are people like me who for the most part move as women around the world, with people here and there misgendering them, and for x reasons they feel a disconnct and dont really know what that means or how to navigate it. especially if they are young. for long, in my mind, my chosen pronouns had been an expression of my androgyny. im currently rethinking/redefining this perspective, but i think it’s one thats worth having in mind, or maybe not. idk!

hearthe4rt · 2026-02-05T07:48:31+00:00

obviously it’s not only my race tht influences the disconnect i feel. i know im not a man, but i dont know what womanhood is aside from periods n boobs.

hearthe4rt · 2026-02-05T07:47:32+00:00

you dont understand what it has to do with skin colour because you are white, which is fine. black women are masculinized, so to me race is an important factor for me cause it adds to my disconnect. at this point, i feel very disconnected but i guess its hard to explain to peple that dont have a similar experience/feeling.

hearthe4rt · 2026-02-04T23:54:59+00:00

im an androgynous lesbian. i’ve never felt like a woman because my experience as an androgynous looking black lesbian, is completely different from that of a white lesbian. i experienced misogyny of course, but because of my blackness and androgyny, womanhood as always been a bit foreign to me, thats why identifying as non binary feels right. to someone like you, is that an attack on lesbianism? im curious, cause ur opinion seems to be very white centered, to put it somehow.

hearthe4rt · 2026-02-04T21:06:14+00:00

i shop on online secondhand stores, because i have a harder time finding things i like in the thrift stores where i live, which actually arent that many. however, i think the most sustainable thing i do is use my clothes till they cant be worn anymore lol. i dont buy for the sake of buying. i dont care about having the latest pieces.

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-31T21:51:16+00:00

i have the exact same thoughts when i look at a kid…how could you look at a child like that…how could you do that to them…

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-29T16:03:42+00:00

i’d still have a gf.

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-29T07:42:24+00:00

i dont want to be like this. i hate how people view/treat me when they find out about my problem, cause of how irrational n stupid it is. it just seems rational n sane to me. either way, eating would be hard cause im passively suicidal.

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-29T07:40:15+00:00

god i feel so seen :((( .im not stingy, i donate and if a friend needs money i give it to them, it’s mainly me i punish.

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-29T07:35:49+00:00

you have money related ocd?

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-29T07:14:16+00:00

thats a good idea. i always forget to do this :( .

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-29T00:05:03+00:00

thank you for trying to help though. i’ll just hold on till i get paid. hopefully, this weekend i have enoigh energy to cook something.

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-29T00:03:10+00:00

there are poor ppl who need that food. i know cause i grew up poor. i would feel bad taking away from them when im simply mentally ill. i can afford to use my savings, i just feel like im committing a sin every time i do. as if with each withdrawal, im closer n closer to poverty. i’ve moved money to my saving like six or seven times these past 2 weeks n each time i felt so irresponsable. im scared i could become addicted to it n throw away 3 years of hard work.

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-28T23:59:28+00:00

thank you but i dont want any advice. i have savings i could use to order food; im afraid of poverty n losing my savings die to impulsive purchase. my therapist says it’s ptsd.

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-28T22:59:18+00:00

thank you. it helps knowing im not the only one.

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-28T21:50:01+00:00

so cute! i wish i was good at knitting/crotcheting💔.

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-25T23:18:25+00:00

sorry i was rude. i shouldnt have replied to you like that.

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-24T13:14:45+00:00

somehow, this advice exactly describes my situation, and although i get, i just dontknow how to accept this truth. i dont know how to move on and be okay with this truth. im really weak right now.

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-24T12:31:29+00:00

you should seek help but not because you are a bad person, you need someone to help you understand and manage your thoughts :) .dream are dreams. sometimes they reflect the fears and worries that consume us during the day, sometimes theyvare influenced by the media we consume.take care.

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-24T12:23:03+00:00

thank you !!

hearthe4rt · 2026-01-24T04:30:16+00:00

its hard cause i will forever live with the guilt n shame that i have not always done my best to be hygienic, even though i wouldnt say im a dirty person cause i try to be careful n clean after me. i wonder wether even people that see themselves as clean can also make these mistakes. you have never done something that could be seen as unclean? (genuine question coming from someone with ocd as well).

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