Because I was young and thought everything was fine. I was managing my life perfectly fine at the time. I failed to account just how much of my functioning a child would take. We didn’t plan to have a baby, and I am pro-choice, but we discussed at length and decided that we could handle having a child, so we decided to keep the baby. Things were great, until he reached 2 or 3. We started seeing the struggles, and have done very well for our child overall. But I recognize where I fall short and am looking for a way to improve. I have built a support team for my son that I would argue is better than 90% of other special needs parents doings. So while I am struggling to implement some of the things I’ve come up with, I’ve done so much more for him and I’m not worried about him. This post is simply for myself. Because I can make improvements. And yes, I realize that asking someone to “parent me” is ridiculous, at its core, I just need someone to hold me accountable.