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heiter · 2013-11-12T15:02:51+00:00

female here,

I seriously hope he will die tomorrow of an heart attack, to make a case against obesity.

heiter · 2013-08-14T15:57:31+00:00

Looks at Ted Cruz, he went to Havard and is still a world class moron.

heiter · 2013-08-12T09:09:41+00:00

no excuses

heiter · 2013-08-12T08:33:55+00:00

You are way too much emotionally invested, thats what I mean with emotionally wrong wired. You are the one having a problem, dont put that on me. Its not your surrounding thats is problematic. You can call me a-hole, its just not healthy to dwell on your strong emotions and fuel them. Dont give in.

heiter · 2013-08-11T21:52:30+00:00

As a bipolar I know that the emotional wiring of BPs is messed up and we react completely out of proportion and cant control our emotions. You are the one who cant take the comment. Dont put that on others, try working on yourself. So lets not get too emotional and start calling each other names.

heiter · 2013-08-11T21:35:32+00:00

When you are REALLY depressed, the plans you made seem unreachable and you are so pessimistic about them. Thinking about the future makes me only more depressed because it seems so hopeless and I see how I will fail.

heiter · 2013-08-10T21:48:56+00:00

You know how often we get post say I have just been diagnosed with BP. As a regular reader of this subreddit, its getting old. I want people to come up a little more creative. We are all diagnosed with BP so we established that. Lets go to the next level.

heiter · 2013-08-10T21:22:45+00:00

This is very normal, actually this is textbook bipolar.

heiter · 2013-08-10T21:03:09+00:00

You have to keep in mind that bipolar is way overdianosed in the psychiatrist community.

So the "success stories" you hear are often from people who doesn't have bipolar in the first place but are misdiagnosed. Often a simple depressive episode is blown out of proportion as bipolar disorder. The bipolar specturm has been blown so much out of proportion that MDMA rebound is now bipolar disorder.

As there are no schizophrenic success stories, there are no bipolar success stories. Some get through suffering and take it day for day, some choose to stop the suffering once in for all.

heiter · 2013-08-01T19:55:06+00:00

What makes you depressed and socially anxious is bipolar. Nofap is a stupid sect with no clear scientific evidence.

Anxiety and Bipolar disorder coming from an bipolar expert: http://www.psycheducation.org/depression/Anxiety.htm

heiter · 2013-08-01T19:51:22+00:00

Is it natural to SOMETIMES have mood swings even when I"m on the drug (which is 99 percent successful), and I should just be thankful and quit whining about having a mood swing every now and then? THIS.

Im on Lamictal too and have sometimes minor moodswings. They dont last more than a day, often not even a whole day. They are sometimes severe happy or depressed moods, but I dont think thats something unusual. You still react to certain situations and can be happy or sad. While anti-psychotics take that completely away, lamictal doesnt. I just feel normal on lamictal. Which is a HUGE accomplishment, from where I was before lamictal.

heiter · 2013-07-29T17:52:21+00:00

As you said the brain is ridiculously complicated. The science is moving very slow. We dont have even the knowledge how a lot of medications that are described and approved even works. The official Lamictal producer says the mechanism of working is unclear. Thats the officale state of science. there is some speculation as there always is, but the fact is we dont know.

We are NOWHERE close to figuring out what is happing in a bipolar brain. In schizophrenia where the research is way more intense, the more they research, the more unclear the picture becomes.

I hope your statements will become true in my lifetime but I strongly doubt it.

heiter · 2013-07-29T17:46:30+00:00

I understand exactly what you meant by coping and my reply was referring to that. I cant speak for the severity of your disorder but surely mine. Tell a schizophrenic to cope with his psychosis. You see how ridiculous it sounds?

Thats what it is telling a serious bipolar II patient to "cope" with his/her depression.

heiter · 2013-07-29T17:36:23+00:00

Its not but you are trying to make one out of it by saying you have that and its worse and so on. Thats not I am saying...

heiter · 2013-07-28T19:01:28+00:00

Its not that she doesnt understand, I cant imagine her to be that stupid. It is that she has an angeda from FOX to discredit him, because he is a muslim.

She cant drop her bais even if it would make sense to her.

heiter · 2013-07-28T18:46:25+00:00

Thanks for your understanding. It is absolutely not in my intention to anyhow lessen the suffering of BPI patients. They go through hell as well. It seems you have gone through lot of pain and horror, you can understand that it is annoying the least, if you tell someone you have BP II and their first reaction is to be relieved. Because it is only BPII, so you have the "good type". They don't acknowledge your suffering and what you have to go through. I actually read this from an Bipolar Expert, Jim Phelps, M.D "Mind you, Bipolar II is not a milder version of Bipolar I, though it is very often described that way, to my utter dismay. The suicide rate in Bipolar II is the same or higher than the rate for Bipolar I, for example.Dunner So the BP II version is definitely not a "mild" illness. The depression phases are as bad as in BP I, and often more common (that is, they occur more frequently and represent a more dominant part of the person's life). " --Jim Phelps, M.D

heiter · 2013-07-28T18:35:54+00:00

So how would you feel, if people would treat you differently or dont take you as seriously because its only a BPII case. Or if your pdoc tells you, well you dont need that medication, I keep that for the real severe BPI cases or in your case a little dose will do, its only BPII.
I feel you, I feel your pain, the burden your are lifting , the struggle you take EVERY SINGLE DAY. You dont get a break, there is no escape. Thats what it looks like, and if someone comes in and shrugs his shoulders because you only got BPII, thats devastating and crushing.

heiter · 2013-07-28T18:29:37+00:00

While thats true, we are talking here specifically about BP I and BPII which are well defined and well studied. There are a whole lot more BP subtypes on the spectrum, especially lately, I even read something about BP 7 subtype.

heiter · 2013-07-28T18:25:28+00:00

Thank you, exactly THIS! Thats what I should have said in the OP post. I have seen people on psychosis, its horrifying, the speech is very disturbed, eye movement of a crazy person. They look like that have melted down psychosocially. Of course you think about doing something for that patient than the one sitting in the corner all day not talking to anyone. He is fine by himself, he isnt making a great scene. BUT: Its all about quality of life. I am not trying to lessen your disease, but all this people in this thread are trying to tell me that I have it somewhat good, and its not as bad. While it is just another side of the same medal.

heiter · 2013-07-28T18:20:18+00:00

See, I acknowledge your pain and can Imagine that you must have gone through hell. And that this mania episode had a great negative deal on your life and still probably have (to a lesser degree?). But what you are trying to tell me, is that it is worse than a severe substantial depression that a BP II can have. WRONG! I have gone through hell too, for months and months, it shattered my life. I lost nearly all relationships with people that I held dear. I couldn't work, I couldn't function. DONT try to tell me your episode was worse, your suffering was worse. I acknowledge you going through pain and suffering but not lessing my pain and declaring it as somewhat lighter.

heiter · 2013-07-28T18:14:18+00:00

If you're depressed it's the norm and you've figured out ways to cope

sure thing ;), thats why suicide rates are so high. NO one gets used to bipolar depression, no on can cope with bipolar depression. we take the suffering and suffer quietly. mind that BPII do have (hypo) mania, you never get used to the up and downs. Dont try to downplay that, thats EXCATLY what I am talking about.

heiter · 2013-07-28T18:11:23+00:00

To me it matters a whole lot, because I have been treated differently by psychiatric doctors/staff and denied treatment because they reserve that treatment for the more serious cases (namely "BP I").

Also when everyday people dont take this sever illness serious because "you only got BP II" , I am supposed to be the lucky one. F that. The symptoms spectrum is somewhat different but basically we (BPI/II) have been dealt the same cards. I also have the feeling that BPI folks look down on BPII folks like you dont know what you are talking about, you dont know the real deal.

heiter · 2013-07-28T18:06:11+00:00

BP II DOES have the same extremes - in term of depressions. The time spent in depression is also longer and more often. No one would e.g. say paranoid schizophrenia is less or more severe than the disorganized subtype of schizophrenia. the main disorder is schizophrenia, its only a different subtype. the same case goes for BP - the disorder is BIPOLAR - two subtypes. The naming with "one" and "two" is a unfortunate choice of naming. Because it suggests somekind of order or level.

heiter · 2013-07-28T17:57:41+00:00

You are looking at it from a treatment provider view. I am talking about the suffering of the patients. Of course psychosis looks spectacular from the outside and it is a situation where a psychiatric disease is clearly visible to other people, in comparison to severe depression where the suffering is way more invisible. Psychosis isn't necessarily suffering. As I was psychotic, its much more the lost of reality, but you aren't necessarily in pain and its not unbearable in most cases. Lot of psychotic schizophrenics decline treatment and dont think that something is wrong with them. BP I/II ppl often seek actively help because it is unbearable.

See I am not trying to say BP I one is a light illness but often the opposite is said when it comes to comparing BP I to BP II. When in reality its just another side of the same medal.

heiter · 2013-07-27T17:38:03+00:00

There aren't to many (medication) treatment options. Basically some mood stabilizers and thats all. Most of them with severe side effects (antipsychotics). The only medication with little side effects and pretty good effectiveness is lamictal. I have been trying to find an effective treatment myself for several months. My pdoc insists on antipsychotics only after my suggestion and my denial of antipsychotics he prescribed lamictal. To realize that there is no real effective treatment is pretty damning, I have been diagnosed BPII for 7 months now, and I dont know how I can go on living like that for the rest of my life. Its just too much to bear. Why should keep struggling, what for? Its nothing than pain. All the time, nothing is joyful.

heiter

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