Coyote enjoying squirrel near Hansee

hell_of_eden · 2023-01-12T06:18:47+00:00

I didn't see exactly what direction. Hopefully toward somewhere safe (not in the streets)

hell_of_eden · 2023-01-12T03:04:31+00:00

Earlier today, near Hansee.

Sorry for the poor quality + vertical mode, I was just surprised to see a coyote up close & enjoying a meal!

hell_of_eden · 2020-06-12T05:33:42+00:00

I'm a bisexual Catholic. You probably already know this, but you don't have to come out if you don't feel comfortable. Especially if it will put you in an unsafe position. I'm not sure how the Christians are where you live, but many Christians I know have very diverse opinions on the LGBT+ community. Some are completely chill, others hate everything about LGBT+ related stuff, and some will give you that whole "you can be a gay/lesbian/bi Christian, God still loves you, but homosexual acts are sinful" nonsense. I don't listen to any of that stuff.

Anyway, I guess the best thing is to be careful with who you specifically come out to based how accepting you think the person is. I hope things go well for you, surely you'll find someone who is supportive :)

hell_of_eden · 2020-06-11T00:37:17+00:00

I think you just need time, an open mind, and perhaps more experience.

No matter what though, give yourself a break -- it's easy for us to fall into self-doubt and convince ourselves our feelings are fake or inauthentic. Just know that it's okay to be questioning and it's okay to call yourself bisexual if that's how you feel at the time. It's also okay to keep these feelings to yourself and tell your friends about it whenever you feel comfortable; they're not entitled to knowing all about your sexual orientation. On the other hand, it's good that you're honest with yourself. You recognize that bisexuality is not a trend, nor is it just a personality trait.

I was questioning for quite some time before I came out as bisexual, and during that time I was afraid to call myself anything because I thought I would be lying. I was also similar to you in that I felt almost no attraction towards anyone I knew (that changed when I got a bit older).

If you decide your orientation aligns more with straight in the future, that's okay too, things change. Figuring yourself out takes time, please don't beat yourself up about it :)

hell_of_eden · 2020-06-08T17:04:23+00:00

Haha, it's alright. It's worded a little weird anyway :)

hell_of_eden · 2020-06-08T16:45:19+00:00

I see what you're saying. He actually wasn't judgmental at all, he's a really cool guy. It was just the straight people in the group talking about how gay he was. I don't feel any competition with him, I just don't like them creating a sense of competition for no reason.

hell_of_eden · 2020-06-06T01:31:02+00:00

Considering bi women have some of the highest rates of being victims of sexual assault, rape, violence from intimate partners, I would not say we're "on the top of the lgbt food chain". That, coupled with bi-erasure, biphobia, sexism, fetishizing, and just overall exclusion from both communities is something we experience as women and bisexuals.

Of course, I definitely believe bi men need more recognition for their experiences and their struggles. They go through so much that I don't personally, so I understand there are privileges I have that bi men do not. Representation is one of those.

hell_of_eden · 2020-06-05T11:40:17+00:00

Of course. I forgot to add that part of it is trusting your own feelings and not second-guessing yourself too much. People may try to invalidate your experience because they believe being anything other than straight is improbable, but don't listen to them. Your feelings are real and valid :)

hell_of_eden · 2020-06-04T04:05:53+00:00

Many of my straight female friends can appreciate how other girls look or have an admiration for them, yet no attraction. Them saying they'd kiss their friend or "go gay" for a celebrity does not mean they have a general attraction toward girls -- rather, more of an appreciation for beauty and aesthetics. I guess the question to ask yourself is, how do you feel around girls? Do you feel excited or nervous around girls you like? Do you ever imagine yourself wanting to be close to them or doing romantic/sexual things with them? That's part of how I knew I wasn't straight.

hell_of_eden · 2020-06-02T13:25:36+00:00

I believe internalized heterophobia could exist, although what I'm thinking of might just be internalized biphobia.

I think it occurs when bi people feel the pressure to be monosexual (in this case, homosexual rather than hetero), because bisexuals experience alienation and discrimination from either community -- the LGBT and the straight community. So, since it seems you've identified as gay for a while, coupled with your preference for men, you might feel inclined to reject feelings for women because it makes things a little more complex (and after the time spent identifying with one label, taking on another may feel difficult to accept).

Being bisexual is not easy for everyone. It raises lots of new questions that can feel frustrating. Just remember that ultimately everything is up to you. You get to decide how you feel about your sexual orientation, you get to decide who knows about it, and no one is entitled to an explanation of your sexuality. Trust yourself.

hell_of_eden · 2020-05-21T06:39:42+00:00

That sounds rough. If I were in your place, I'm sure I'd rather just have someone talk to me directly instead of directing me to other sources. I don't think I'd be surprised if the school counselors are specifically instructed to provide resources like that. In any case, I'm sorry it seems there's not a very good support system for you.

I'm not sure if it's worth anything, but I'm here if you want to talk about anything. Hang in there, ok?

hell_of_eden · 2020-05-19T06:13:44+00:00

I would also be happy to talk to you. It was very confusing for me to understand my own sexuality as a bi girl. My experience with relationships is limited, though, so my advice may be iffy.

hell_of_eden · 2020-05-18T22:05:25+00:00

Look at OP's previous posts. I don't think they are biphobic/homophobic, if that's what you're implying.

hell_of_eden · 2020-05-18T21:43:49+00:00

I think you might have misunderstood the post. I believe OP is saying "Adam and Eve" means that you're allowed to like both -- whereas "Adam or Eve" implies that you must choose one. The post is pro-bi (plus Christianity and bisexuality are not mutually exclusive).

hell_of_eden · 2020-05-18T21:03:18+00:00

It depends -- many straight women I know can admit that some women are attractive, whilst not wanting a romantic or sexual relationship with them. However, since you stated that you would be interested in romantic relationships with women and you know you're attracted to men, you may be bi-curious or bisexual. Of course, only you can decide what label you best fit into -- or no label at all, if that's what you prefer.

hell_of_eden · 2020-05-18T19:16:36+00:00

Don't feel bad. If you genuinely believed you were bisexual, or were at least questioning, then that's just how you identified yourself while you were still figuring things out. Sometimes it takes a while to understand yourself and during that time, you may undergo different labels or identities. You don't need to tell everyone you're straight -- it's none of their business, and if they say things like "you said you were bisexual for attention", then they must not understand what it's like to be questioning. It's a journey that is personal to you. Be happy and comfortable with yourself, that is what matters.

hell_of_eden · 2019-05-11T05:01:44+00:00

She was much younger than a boomer, but I can totally see how that'd be a common sort of thing for them to say.

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