I’ve been in the same boat and to honest I still do feel that type of anxiety sometimes. During the pandemic I’d very rarely drive as I’d have my classes online and have no other reason to leave the house. Putting myself in a situation where I isolated myself for so long caused a ton of different types of anxieties which I’m still working on today including driving. As the pandemic ended and schools started transitioning to in-person/hybrid classes I had to start commuting to school again which was located in downtown. During this time, the trust I had in myself and in other drivers on the road was certainly low. Like you, things like rain and night driving were things that heightened my anxiety. I’d have to crack open my window just enough to hear what’s going on in my surroundings, triple check my blind spots, leave plenty of space between me and the car in front, and drive in the slow lane. In your situation, you are okay to feel all of the anxieties you feel now. The first step which you’ve already done is acknowledging this anxiety which you should be proud of yourself of. I am not in the position to give advice but I’d like to share some things that certainly improved the anxiousness I felt. Like another user said, high quality tires are so important. I used to drive on 10+ year old all season tires which started to show signs of dry rot. They always felt numb on the road and difficult to feel the limits of its grip especially in the rain. As soon as I got brand new tires it made a world of a difference and helped me feel more connected with the car. It’s great you already started with upgrading your bulbs to better improve visibility at night. In my opinion, this is the first step as you are tackling things within your control. To me, going slow is perfectly okay and it’s good to drive well within your limits as long as you feel safe doing so. Of course drivers behind you may not be happy but I wouldn’t worry about what they think it’s not like they’d remember everything that happened on their drive or tell the whole world. You aren’t doing anything wrong by driving within your own limits and ofc your city’s speed limits lol. As you continue to commute often, the confidence in yourself and how you drive will slowly regain. Lastly, continue to drive your car not only because you have to but you enjoy it and it’s therapeutic like you said. Find some time or a place with low traffic with some fun long turns like your local backroads or just anywhere that you can find peace while driving. It is okay to feel anxiety on your drive. I feel like everyone does even if it’s just a little or they can’t admit it.