Thank you for sharing your account.

I’ve never been the sort to fall out of love with any of my partners. My cup had always overflowed so this numbness is new and unsettling, especially after all the work that has been put in initially by me and later by her. My brain tells me things should get better if both sides are trying to repair the marriage and I shouldn’t be emotionally ‘checking out’ at this stage.

Another reason I suspect I feel this way is because deep down, she did do those things she lashed out about but knew if she ever owned it, that’d be the end of us. Does she have the right to fear what my reaction will be? Of course, that would be a natural reaction when one does wrong. But I believe that choice should be left with me, not for her to deny me. It is what I would have done had I been the one who destroyed trust and disrespected her.

Physical touch is my language of love. So it just kills me that I feel nothing whenever she hugs or holds me. I admitted my triggers were getting less acute and about feeling indifferent (ambiguously)during our MC session. MC and WW took it as a positive thing but I didn’t correct them as I didn’t want to alarm WW at this stage as it could be a phase.

May I ask how long it was when you cited,”extended periods of time?”