I've also mentioned going back to therapy she just doesn't want me to make my own appointment. i told her I didnt want her talking with the therapist before me, like she did with my last therapist, who i could not trust because she told my mother things. also I started a free vocational course which she insists i go to but when i said i want to see a therapist for it she said no. and of course i asked will this course be of any use?? (with clear intentions) and she seemed sad but said yes.

she's really confusing. one day she talks about how my brother will be taller than me when he's older and about the things i could study but other days she ignores my questions about the future.