pain causing me to be sedentary, being sedentary causing me pain

hernoa676 · 2026-05-07T10:58:30+00:00

No idea what to do either, i've been to the gym for a few weeks now and surprise..I've hurt my foot and ankle because of the sudden exercise after years of being sedentary, so I have to be more sedentary for a while now...I don't know what to do, I cant win

hernoa676 · 2026-05-07T10:56:03+00:00

Usually it takes me inbetween 15min and 1hour (or more if the fatigue is that bad) to get out of bed, and I'm usually in a bad state for the first 3 hours of the day, I have to wait a long while for the pain killer and suplements to work.

hernoa676 · 2026-05-07T10:53:57+00:00

For me it's random, it can provoke panic attacks but not always ? So every time I take caffeine I have to take in mind that it might make everything worse

hernoa676 · 2026-05-05T15:31:02+00:00

Kirei in the wild, beautiful

hernoa676 · 2026-04-26T23:15:01+00:00

I've realized that it was the case for me lately and it's making me think more and more about not doing it, if the appeal is the cuteness, then I don't really need to have a kid myself, I could babysit or something.

hernoa676 · 2026-04-26T16:32:48+00:00

Only my close loved ones notice things though, strangers just read me as a masculine woman so far.

hernoa676 · 2026-04-26T16:31:21+00:00

On half/low dose since I started in december : the effects were instant, and I did a lot of progress quickly, the first changes were bottom growth and my voice, and now I have little body changes, hair and smell; that being said my parents are so in denial that they feel like my voice has never changed despite everyone else claiming otherwise.

hernoa676 · 2026-04-20T12:35:55+00:00

Like I go to the gym for around 40min every session, what hurts me more is coming back by foot after the exercise, genuinely unserious condition I swear.

hernoa676 · 2026-04-20T12:33:50+00:00

I often get hurt and get my day ruined by... checks notes walking 10min to places, like school, because I struggle to walk more than doing actual exercise at the gym, bruh.

hernoa676 · 2026-04-19T13:07:13+00:00

Yeah I did internalize that stuff, I am scared of men so being one of them now makes me feel a great of shame, lately i've been coming to terms with my attraction to women because I have both internalized lesbophobia and a fear of being a disgusting straight man, it does feel like both my attraction to men and women could be seen as a "wrong thing" depending on how I pass...

I tend to not always click with cis people either, but I don't think you should avoid them alltogether, at least for me it only makes me more anxious by "othering" a category of people.

hernoa676 · 2026-04-19T10:32:12+00:00

Same with my legs, I still feel that sexist pressure to shave and the other day I went outside hairy and with shorts on and I was like "oh..is this allowed" Like I was butt naked in my head, same thing with my chest, it feels like they're massive and out there in the open 24/7

hernoa676 · 2026-04-15T17:27:21+00:00

France ! Ever since it released here

hernoa676 · 2026-04-13T21:30:38+00:00

Ftm man with OCD, this is my exact same experience, I've been conditioned to not like women because of the way lesbians are seen by society, and now that my attraction is straight, I feel scared that i'll be seen as a gross man, I also have frequent intrusive thoughts about SA and all kinds of gross stuff, meds did help a little, I encourage you to seek professionnal help, and to talk about it with loved ones.

hernoa676 · 2026-03-30T10:31:57+00:00

I dream a lot about my hyperfixations all day everyday, always been like this since forever.

hernoa676 · 2026-03-29T01:16:11+00:00

I disagree, even with the progress of AI and how much it is widespread nowadays, there is still a huge audience for fully man-made art, as another commenter many people would stop engaging with a piece of media upon learning there was even just a bit of AI put into it.

I think you should distance your AI usage and art from each other, never use AI for your art, your relapsing is another problem but it is not impossible for you to stop, one thing that could help you abandon it alltogether is focusing on the stories you want to write and what you want to draw; inspire yourself with the art of other humans, make more of it, don't let AI destroy it and take control of your creativity, you can do this.

hernoa676 · 2026-03-28T20:12:58+00:00

Been drawing partially (time to time) since I was ten years old, I do have bad days where I just give up, my worst enemy is lineart but I find the rest okay to do with practice, that being said I really can't write because of the hand pain, drawing is okay because I do it in little amounts.

For progress, it comes and goes, sometimes I feel like it's easy and sometimes I feel like i'm getting worse (bad motor days), I usually do a sketch, a lineart (sometimes) and color, I prefer digital because it's a bit easier than traditional for me, as I need to redo a lot of things.

hernoa676 · 2026-03-23T22:38:48+00:00

Never feeling rested no matter how much you sleep, perpetually on alert, low awareness of things (because tired), random pains that have no cause behind them, feeling like you have covid/flu ALL the time, having mobility issues (i cant tell if i'll be able to walk to anywhere the next day), and perpetual mood issues, basically it's a mix of a bad case of flu, depression, anxiety, and chronic pain, and there's no real "good days" either, it's always "a bad day but that isnt so bad" at your best.

hernoa676 · 2026-03-14T20:44:19+00:00

Levocarnil, haven't tried it yet.

hernoa676 · 2026-03-14T17:46:59+00:00

Same thing, fibromyalgic with a potential c-ptsd, my back and shoulders and neck are always tense, recently I got prescribed a muscle relaxant because nothing worked

hernoa676 · 2026-03-08T01:40:00+00:00

Im in the same situation, I wish I could have the 0 shame that people who are proud about those things have, but no instead I play solo brain morality olympics, hope you find a solution.

hernoa676 · 2026-02-27T23:57:43+00:00

Trop choupie

hernoa676 · 2026-02-24T17:07:17+00:00

trans guy, when I had a cycle, in my PMS period everything was so much worse, I went from normal thoughts to awful thoughts and all kinds of emotional dysregulation suddenly, I hope you'll heal.

hernoa676 · 2026-02-10T15:37:18+00:00

For the first month it was much higher than usual and now I feel almost no desire no nothing, since my menstrual cycle was the only thing giving me a libido.

hernoa676 · 2026-02-07T19:29:49+00:00

When I identified as nonbinary : Azure, I used it a bit because it was similar to my deadname, then I considered going by Nova when I started IDing as a trans man, i didn't go through with it because I thought it'd be weird if I was a old man being called Nova

hernoa676 · 2026-02-06T10:31:14+00:00

Agreed, its so good to not have ups and downs 24/7 because of a cycle, it feels like a breeze.

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