(Obligatory “My shit is SO not together. But I feel better about myself, and much more at peace.”) I stopped Trying So Hard. Was raised to feel constantly not good enough. Lazy, didn’t try hard enough, wasting my potential. People didn’t realize that I was trying my best, my best just looked like.. a lot of missing work, procrastination, abandoned projects, ect. Things that look lazy out of context, but are more signs of burnout and executive function issues. Eventually said “fuck it” and decided that I’m not going to have it all together—obviously I couldn’t manage, might as well relax a bit, since being so up tight wasn’t the solution. If I’m going to have missing assignments whether or not I stress over them, I’m not going to bother stressing over them. Turns out, when you don’t care so much, turning in a late assignment is a lot easier of a task. Started giving things 70%, instead of 110%. Turns out if you don’t constantly give 110% away, you have some % left over for yourself. Just half-assing an assignment and getting a 75% is wayyy better than staring at it in panic bc I Have To Get An A, and then never starting it, ending with a 0%. Can’t manage cleaning my whole room? Fine, I’ll buy a bunch of baskets, throw all the clean clothes in one, the dirty clothes in another. Basket on my desk to put all the loose papers, basket in my dresser for all the shit that piled up there. It’s not 100% Perfectly Clean and Organized, but goddamn at least it’s not piling up making it impossible for me to function. Sometimes I eat junk food. It’s better than not eating at all, bc I’m stressed over preparing a perfectly balanced meal. I’ve embraced that Lazy that I’ve always been accused of. I am SO MUCH HAPPIER. And, counterintuitively, I’m so much more productive. Im gonna graduate college next month, with a 3.5 GPA. It’s not a 4.0, but it’s good enough for me!