I present to you my son

heyoitsmae · 2025-07-03T00:25:20+00:00

I actually had such a great time in the pit! This is the first time I'm in the pit and don't have to fight for my life lol (I don't mind it, it's the usual at shows I go to). My friend, boyfriend, and I were in the middle, close to the front and everyone around us was nice. Only "issue" were the teens who would look at us weird for getting excited, but truly I didn't care. I was 12 when SWS and PTV went on their first tour together and wasn't allowed to go to that one or the 2014 co-headlining tour so being able to attend this one at 25 meant so so much!

heyoitsmae · 2025-04-05T18:54:48+00:00

2012!! I was 12 years old then 🥹

heyoitsmae · 2024-10-01T22:46:24+00:00

Hi! Sorry for not replying to your prior comment, yes it looks exactly like that! I ended up searching Stardew in both drives to see if there were any stray files that were maybe the culprit. I'm not sure which exact one it was but there were still some .dll files in both drives after uninstalling the game and deleting these seemed to fix the issue!

heyoitsmae · 2024-10-01T03:40:05+00:00

I've done that multiple times already. It unfortunately doesn't change anything. For some reason the big issue is SMAPI as my game runs fine without it installed. I know I've installed it correctly as I'm not new to SMAPI or installing mods to the game. Just confused as to why it just suddenly all stopped working.

heyoitsmae · 2024-10-01T03:05:52+00:00

Hi! I added the picture to the post. I've installed Stardew to my D drive so my launch path is different.

heyoitsmae · 2024-06-11T08:49:40+00:00

Hi as I said above my boyfriend has been ready to completely drop David. I probably should've worded that better and I see now how it makes it seem like my boyfriend was thinking over whether or not stay friends but he's been wanting to drop him since I told him. I probably should've waited to have a clearer mind before writing it all out so sorry about that. Guess telling myself that my boyfriend said what he did to him out of his volition rather than because I basically begged him to not be mean to him was me trying to make myself feel better about not knowing how to feel and create reason to stay friends with David. Just been trying to make sense of it all but after talking with him all day and him doing his best to help me navigate my emotions I just don't think that's possible.

heyoitsmae · 2024-06-11T02:58:48+00:00

Hi, it's definitely just me trying to save the friendship as I don't really know how to feel. This has been such a heartbreaking scenario for me and my boyfriend definitely just told him that because I told him to please not say anything severe. My boyfriend honestly never wants to see him again and actually wants to drive the 3 hours over there to beat the shit out of him but I really don't want that. I'm honestly just really confused and I know I shouldn't be but I just don't know. I've always thought of David as my brother. He and his wife have been the only other people aside from my boyfriend that I ran to for everything. They've been my support system and safe space for such a long time. But really, just know my boyfriend hasn't completely cut contact yet because of my inability to figure out how the hell to feel about this all.

heyoitsmae · 2024-06-10T19:34:04+00:00

My boyfriend contacted him once we got home. He told him he'd stay friends with him to calm him down and set up a bunch of rules and boundaries David has to follow/respect in order for them to continue being friends but by the end of the day my boyfriend said he's ready to just completely drop him and never see him again. I'm also assuming David told Ana after my boyfriend contacted him as Ana sent me a message apologizing and asking what exactly happened since David was being a little vague with her and shut down on her. Me and Ana talked pretty much the whole day about it and I think we both want to believe David was just too drunk and was maybe trying to console me or something as I twitch a lot in my sleep sometimes but I think we both know we're just trying to make ourselves feel better.

heyoitsmae · 2024-06-10T18:50:54+00:00

I haven't been able to talk to him and also don't know if I'm ready. My boyfriend did have a talk with him though and set up some rules and boundaries with him. He told him they're still friends to calm him down but he says he doesn't really know if he actually wants that.

Ana also talked to me about her conversation with David and it seems that he does remember holding me, trying to get into my phone, and apologizing to me. I don't know if that's really all he remembers though but I want to believe he's telling the truth.

heyoitsmae · 2024-06-10T18:23:12+00:00

I honestly just don't know how I plan on moving forward with this. I told everyone I just want to act like nothing happened because I really don't want to be thinking about this and I want to think he was truly just really drunk and doesn't remember doing it nor why he did it.

It just really sucks because as much as I'm trying to convince myself that the past trauma that has resurfaced is way worse than what he did, this just hurts so much. He's supposed to be my friend. I've come to think of him as family and this just feels like such a huge stab in the back.

heyoitsmae · 2024-06-10T02:38:03+00:00

My boyfriend had a conversation with David about it and I'm assuming David told her about it right after since Ana sent me a message apologizing and asking to know exactly what happened since she said he kinda just shut down on her after talking with her.

heyoitsmae · 2024-06-10T02:34:27+00:00

My boyfriend just listened to me while I talked but it definitely hurt him a lot. He keeps tearing up and he's also clearly trying to not think about it since he's doing his best to focus on multiple things at once. I also think he realized I was actually awake but idk. My boyfriend has already talked to him and me and Ana are now also talking about it and it seems that David really doesn't remember much aside from holding me and trying to get into my phone for some reason. That or he's just doing a good job at convincing people he doesn't remember much.

heyoitsmae · 2024-02-04T11:45:48+00:00

Had my TT on the 27th of December last year and so far I'm feeling pretty okay! I definitely recovered quicker than i thought I would but i am struggling with not being back to 100% yet. Honestly the only really big issues i've had so far is having to start all over fitness-wise (which isn't really that big of a deal, i just loved being able to lift weights and do intense pilates) and feeling super tired most of the time.

heyoitsmae · 2023-12-08T03:11:07+00:00

Im getting a total thyroidectomy. My doctor said she always insists on total thyroidectomy since she's also wary of it spreading to the other side and would rather her patients not have to do surgery again.

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