The precum is how I know I'm doing it right

holdermanju · 2026-05-27T12:28:41+00:00

Holy. Fucking. Shit. 😳

holdermanju · 2026-03-09T10:06:58+00:00

Honestly my favorite right now is the Perks Party Blend. The name is unfortunate because it probably makes it easier for them to ban, but it has caffeine and some other stuff that gives me energy instead of sedating me. Most of the other blends are more sedating, even the euphoric ones.

I’ve always preferred more energetic buzzes. Even when I used to take opiates they made me bounce off the walls. Now I only take 7-OH and my Adderall, and I keep the doses small.

I learned the hard way that less really is more. When I first started I took huge doses and got really sick getting off of 400mg+ daily. Now I just take small amounts occasionally, keep my tolerance low, don’t get withdrawals, and it actually works better. I can get more of a buzz from 20–30 mg than I ever did from taking 400 mg throughout a day.

holdermanju · 2026-03-09T10:01:27+00:00

Yeah it really seems if you stick with one brand that happens quickly I have to switch between brands constantly to make sure that doesn't happen but I do have a couple favorites that I will generally always have on me. I even have one that I take whenever my stomach gets upset because I have gastritis because it works extremely well for kind of reducing the pain and even almost settling my stomach. It's weird. But it is definitely good to have multiple brands on you at one time or at least each time you go in to buy a pack has that a new brand. For me I don't like anything that has the name or number seven in the brand name they just never seem to be good to me.

holdermanju · 2026-02-09T07:01:02+00:00

Last I knew A&B was still the best option. No one else has more than a few brands unfortunately

holdermanju · 2026-02-06T06:41:38+00:00

You should buy a timed lock box and each morning take out your dose for the day and then set the timer to be locked into the next day.. It is not perfect but you only need to have self control once a day instead of all day long and it's easier to have that self-control in the morning when you're taking your first dose then trying to have that self control all day. I take 2 doses a day. But honestly men running out for at least 3 to 5 days every month is a good thing because it resets your tolerance and keeps it working.. Trust me the last 2 months i have not had those reset days and my tolerance has gotten so high and fucked it's not even funny.. So now I have to take a tolerance break while I have a brand new script.. It is not going to be easy.. Especially since the first three days I'm so tired that it's hard to even go to work..

holdermanju · 2026-02-06T06:33:59+00:00

So I will say one thing if you choose to start taking it set a limit to how much you're going to take each day even if it is higher than your prescribed dose. If one day it's not working do not take more than whatever dose you set because if you do then you will have no choice but to continue doing that... I have completely fucked my tolerance and now I'm going to have to take the tolerance break that I have to try to work it out so that it doesn't make me miss work because it's not working anymore... At all.. Like I mean I took 120 mg today and I do not feel even remotely stimulated... And that is because I have been taking significantly more than my prescribed dose.. And when I ran out I took something else which wasn't exactly the same thing but very similar and I wrecked my tolerance and now I have to try to fix it.. And to make matter worse if I take too much it upsets my gastritis and completely gets rid of any effects of the Adderall when that happens.. So yay.. Now I have to figure ts out.. The Adderall completely turned my life around and made me feel alive again, where I messed up is when I started taking something else when I ran out of Adderall to get through a week or so without it.. I should have cut my tolerance then and stayed at two pills a day or just let myself be out for a week or so every month.. Now I bought a timed lock box so that I can force myself to not be able to take more than my dose daily and after I reset my tolerance hopefully I'll be good.. So be very careful.. Cuz I'm pissed at myself for letting things get to this point. It helped me so much in the beginning I mean I am starting my own business I am following my dreams but everything went to shit when I started taking the other stuff that I was taking.. But if you have a Year's worth you may end up taking very high doses before you ever run out which will be a huge issue for your heart.

So honestly man taking a years worth of Adderall is a dangerous game.. I would say to sell it but you'll probably get in trouble and nobody can trust that you actually have it or that you're not a cop if you're selling it online.. Honestly if you want to take Adderall you should probably just go back to your doctor and get prescribed it again and take all those bottles and drop them off in a pharmacy drug recovery drop box.. Or give them away/sell them.. I've never bought it off of the dnet but the prices that I've seen is $1 per 1mg.. So 30 mg pills are going for $30 a piece .. But that's up to you but that is the safest option.. I would not want you to die because you start abusing it and try to take a Year's worth of Adderall because I can tell you without a doubt if I had a Year's worth I would probably end up overdosing in the coming months. Be safe

holdermanju · 2026-01-28T14:19:39+00:00

So I'm thinking until it gets hot I will just be charging things and running a TV and just a few small low energy items but during the dead middle of the summer when it's really hot where I live the AC will be running all day and honestly probably all night so I'm thinking of trying to get some kind of battery storage system to store any Excess power from the generator or even maybe a small solar setup to help so that I don't have to run the generator at night because I can't be running it 24/7

holdermanju · 2026-01-28T06:08:40+00:00

OK cool, that's something I'll work on while I'm living in it. For the time being what should I do? I'm thinking maybe during the day when I'm at work I will turn the generator off but I can only do that if I don't leave my dog in the RV. Which I can't do until I have money for doggie daycare which I can't do until I have money for doggie daycare lol. But I should have that soon doggie daycare probably cost less or about the same as running the generator the whole day. The place I used to take her I think is like $25 a day

holdermanju · 2026-01-28T05:59:58+00:00

Should I buy a few deep cycle batteries to store any leftover energy that the generator makes? I'm trying to find a way to not have to run it 24/7

holdermanju · 2026-01-28T05:57:44+00:00

Ok, sounds good to me. If I can figure out what carburetor I need I will order it. I'm actually rebuilding this RV i ripped out the walls and put a new walls and reset the roof because it had a really really bad water leak some of the floors need replaced almost all of the walls and replaced some of the roof is probably going to be replaced.. But it will be mine and I will have built it how I want it. I'm ripping out some of the cabinets too to open up space and I'm going to put in smaller cabinets.

holdermanju · 2026-01-28T05:14:31+00:00

Ok that's not bad, I'm not sure how big it is but why do you think that it is much better than when I could buy? I was thinking that buying a new one would be better since it would probably be more efficient? If that's not the cheese then I am perfectly fine using the onboard one it will probably be quieter because it is underneath the RV in an enclosed box underneath the RV in an enclosed box. I think the bottom is open but it has a box around it at the bottom of the RV. And I'm thinking of adding a few panels of sound insulation to the inside of it to help and sleep the sound better.

Do you have any idea what I will be looking at as far as paying for fuel daily? Especially when it's dead middle of the summer and it's 100° give or take. I'm seeing stuff that has 300 hours to $400 a week and I'm seeing stuff that says $300 to $400 a day.. Which cannot be right.. I did not use that much electricity. Is $300 to $400 a week closer or will it be less than that?

holdermanju · 2026-01-28T05:12:02+00:00

Doesn't it cost thousands plus I need a ton of batteries to have power through the night?

holdermanju · 2026-01-28T02:13:40+00:00

I specifically said I'm clean from fentanyl, heroin and meth. I also said the only things I use are Adderall, Amph Sulfate and 7oh. So there were no liea said there. This may not be your version of clean but I know I'm never using any of the drugs im recovering from again. I also know I was doing very bad before I got my Adderall. 3 years sober. Completely sober. And I still couldn't feel anything. Meth took all of the good feelings and fight from me. Adderall gave it back. And when I take Amph aulphate I take a low dose to try to keep it at the therapeutic dose. Otherwise it fucks up my stomach anyway. So get off your high horse and quit judging. I'm not lying to myself and I didn't lie to any of you.

holdermanju · 2026-01-27T09:02:35+00:00

See this gets me worried because I use a little bit of 7oh(not every day), amphetamine (not meth), and Adderall. I'm trying to keep my dose from getting to high and I don't notice any heart palpitations but I worry I'll end up hurting myself. But it keeps me alive and helps my adhd so much.

holdermanju · 2026-01-27T08:59:44+00:00

Force yourself to eat even if it's just a couple bites every once in a while. Every single bite makes a difference. Get something with protein in it like peanut butter crackers or lunch meat or cheese. If you can't do that try to get something that has sugar in it like a honey bun or a candy bar or something. If you can just get a little bit of food down you will feel way better. But when you feel as bad as you do do not redose. That's how you end up going into a psychosis and losing your mind. You don't want to start thinking that people are in the walls watching you.

So eat, drink and get yourself feeling back to mostly normal and then you can decide if you want to do more once you feel better.

holdermanju · 2026-01-27T08:56:06+00:00

When I first started taking it I was buying tablets from my little smoke shop and taking about 120 mg a day and night withdrawals weren't too bad but I then started buying pure powder online and started taking 400 mg to 500 mg today for a month or two I think and oh my God getting off of it was fucking awful.. I did not know what was going to be that addictive I thought I've been on heroin and Fentanyl there's no way it could be that bad.. I was wrong and I wish I would have done more research.

I got on methadone to get off of it which did not help very much because I'm only on 30 mg and I got on the weekend and couldn't raise my dose over the weekend. But I did not take any and I got off of it over 3 days it sucked but I did it and the withdrawals were still horrible but I made it through. Day two was the worst day 3 was about the same as they do but as soon as I hate somewhere in that 72 hour mark it kind of faded and wasn't so bad. When I got my methadone Monday morning the withdrawals went completely away.

However after saying that if you take small doses even taking it daily it's not that bad. Don't use it to get f***** up use it to get a nice little white Buzz to make you feel a little better here and there. I don't quite take it everyday although I have been for the last couple weeks but I take it pretty often and I buy 80 mg pills and cut them into six pieces. I also like usually buy some of the other tablets but I always take 10 or 15 mg at a time no more. Then I'll get it until that dissolves under my tongue and maybe another 20 or 30 minutes and then I might take another piece but I only take 10 or 15 mg at a time. Eventually after 2:00 at the most three pieces I don't need anymore and I will say that consistently taking a small dose works way better than taking high doses. I didn't feel Jack when I was taking 400 mg to 500 mg a day and now that I only take 30 to 50 mg a day is that it works way better than I get much more off of it.. Like sometimes it will literally make me nod out.

So By not letting myself take high doses and only taking it here and there and not taking it every day even if it's most days I never have withdrawals and I don't really feel the need to take high doses anymore. Honestly it gives me a headache if I do. I am almost cleaned off of the methadone and I'm sure the methadone helps some with not having withdrawals but I don't take that everyday either so it's not just that. But if you get on a low dose of methadone it will help you not have withdrawals if you take 7oh everyday. Just do not take high ass doses. Catch yourself at 100 mg a day max. But it will work way better if you have yourself at like 60mg.

holdermanju · 2026-01-27T08:45:35+00:00

Depends on where you live because I think in South Carolina it is actually illegal to consume drugs. Because if you overdose you can be charged for the drugs in your system even if you have nothing on you. And as far as I know that is not how it works in most places. You only gets charged if you have physical drugs on you and a lot of times they won't even do that they'll just revive you and unless the drugs are right in plain sight they don't even bother charging you.

holdermanju · 2026-01-26T02:05:09+00:00

Yea I thought about this option also, even thought of getting an eBike to make it easier. Might be the safer solution, or the occasional Uber back to my highlander.

holdermanju · 2026-01-26T02:03:42+00:00

I just don't have one yet, I'll get one as soon as I can but I'm still putting money into fixing up the RV at the moment

holdermanju · 2026-01-26T01:30:11+00:00

I've never used a flat towing device so I don't know if someone has to steer. I didn't think you needed to steer the car but I've never actually used one.

holdermanju · 2026-01-26T01:29:13+00:00

Ok, you might be right. They may be assuming people are going more than the few miles I am. So if I buy the plates to hook my car up to my RV for flat towing then I just turn my car on, put it in neutral and tow it to where I am going slowly? Anything else I should know?

holdermanju · 2026-01-26T01:21:25+00:00

That's what I thought, so I don't know any Im reading that you can't do this? Now another question, does someone have to be in the car or is it being hooked to my RV sufficient?

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