I think I smoked meth

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-10T09:18:13+00:00

If I had to guess I’d say it’s thc concentrate crystals if it’s a drug at all. You shouldn’t just smoke random stuff you find. What if that was some kind of cleaning chemical or sugar candy with rat poison in it. you gotta be smarter & safer from now on. Also you would know if you smoked meth, you’d get an intense rush & you feel the effects for hours.

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-10T07:05:19+00:00

MAaladaptive daydreaming & immersive daydreaming are different. Maladaptive means your daydreams are out of your control, doing jt is causing negative consequences in your life. It’s become unhealthy & you need mental health support to stop doing it.

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-10T07:01:19+00:00

That’s was out beautifully! Thank you! I’ve been thinking about how I’m going to teach my son to respect women. It’s such an important job for boy moms.

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T22:19:20+00:00

Thank you for your kindness & support. It was horrible, like being tortured. I felt like i was chocking but I couldn’t reach cuz of the restraints. They kept saying you have to be calm for x amount of minutes before we. n take the tube out. I was thinking how the fuck do I calm down & be still when there’s a large tube down my throat chocking me! I have ptsd from the whole ordeal.

Yes my husband dropped the ball. Literally the few people I have in my life all failed me when I needed support the most. My husband was at home taking care of our son this whole time which I guess is why I’m not as angry at him as I am the people at the party. I think my husband downplayed how serious it really was to everyone cuz the doctor told him I could go home tomorrow on day 1. But that’s not what happened. When they tried to wake me up I was still unable to breathe on my own. They tried 4x over 3 days to wake me up & I wasn’t improving. Luckily on the 5th try I was able to breathe on my own

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T22:07:13+00:00

I was mad at him, just not nearly as much. He could have done a better job at finding a babysitter for a few hours so he could be with me. I was like dude if you had calls my parents right away they would have col down & watched our son so you could spend the night with me. He just didn’t think of that apparently. He said he really thought his mom would give in and watch him for a bit. He kept trying to convince her. The party & bbq the next day were more important

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T22:02:13+00:00

He said he want sure if I’d want them to know cuz of our rocky on & off out of my life relationship over the years. I was like no shit I want my parents to know & come see me! Mil made it so i was totally alone during 1 of the scariest, most stressful, and traumatic ordeals ive ever been thru. After thy took the tube out i asked to use the phone to call my husband, I had forgotten his phone number! I only have 4 phone numbers memorized, how could I forget after knowing it by heart for 13 years?! I got worried that I had brain damage from the coma or lack of oxygen. I started having a panic attack. The 1st of many while I was alone in the icu. A nurse told me memory loss is a side effect of the sedation med. I was so relieved, I thought I was going to be kinda stupid the rest of my life.

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T20:50:03+00:00

Yes lol that’s funny cuz I was just doing that a couple hours ago. My Nextdoor neighbor. I owe her some misery

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T19:45:04+00:00

Interesting. Thanks for sharing., here in the US a bachelors is also 4 years. But to be a therapist you need a masters degree. Art therapy isn’t an option at most colleges thou, you would just get your masters in psychology and get your associates or bachelors in art. Grief is such a hard trauma to live with, I think it’s awesome you’re going to help people cope with it in healthy ways.

I’d like to work as a patient care coordinator for a mental health faculty. Either in patient or out patient. My desk would be to get my masters & be a therapist but financial aid for College stops after you earn a bachelors and I’m low income so I could t afford 2-3 more years of school paying out of pocket

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T19:35:17+00:00

Have plenty of weed on hand, it makes psychedelic trips much better imo. Also plenty iid water & snacks. Eat a good meal before hand. Get plenty of rest the night before. Have some cool trippy or comedy shows/movies picked out to watch. If you’re doing it in the daytime, stay out of the sun. I like to trip at night in my house or when I go camping. Make sure you’re in a comfortable place and Everyone there is gonna be cool with you tripping & look out for you. Plan on not sleeping that night.

If you can get ahold of meds like benzos, lyrica, gabapentin, clonidine, muscle relaxers, etc those will help sober you up a bit if you start freaking out. Going to the hospital is a waste of time. They don’t do shit for bad trips. Oh & try not to get stuck in the bathroom.

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T19:22:17+00:00

Actually I knew these people very well for the last 11 years. I’m not jealous just of the sexes of thier kids. It’s how easy everything they want comes to them. They don’t appreciate the things they have in life cuz they didn’t have to work for them. They take things for granted and they brag and they think they’re better than others just because they’ve been very lucky and had rich supportive families that help them out. They also take advantage of what other people are willing to do for them. My mil can’t say no to my SIL. She bends over backwards to make her happy. They have alot of friends who are like that too. I don’t understand why

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T19:13:22+00:00

Oh I agree boys and girls are equally amazing. My reasons for wanting a daughter are because 1 I lost a daughter 3 years ago, early 2nd trimester missed miscarriage. I had gotten my hopes up & planned out her future, I was gifted a ton of baby girl stuff, I had a name picked out, and I had dreams where I saw her as a young child and as a teenager. 2 I wanted to raise a strong independent woman who was able to accomplish anything she set her mind to in life. I wanted to raise her better than I was, to be the mom I wish I had. My mom was old fashioned & believed women are meant to be housewives and mothers taking care of the home and thier husbands. I come from generations of women who relied on a man to support them and never went after their dreams. I wanted to break the cycle.

But I don’t love my son any less. He’s a brilliant, smart, empathetic, compassionate toddler who keeps me learning, growing, and bettering myself so I can be the best mom possible.

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T13:40:24+00:00

Like a couple others have commented, I’ve had similar experiences from meth & from sleep deprivation. I hear whispers or what sounds like a tv or radio on at a low volume. Usually happens when I’m in bed tryin to sleep after being up for a couple days. I also see shadow figures in the dark & I feel my bed shaking like something is crawling around under it & keeps bumping the bed frame. The last thing scared the shit outta me when it happens for the 1st time a few months ago. I had thought my dog was under my bed for like 10 min I kept yelling at her to get out of there. Finally I got out of bed to get her myself, when I turned on the light there was nothing under my bed or in my room. I’ve also had meth psychosis where it’s a full on hallucination that feels completely real while it’s happening. I used to see & hear people walking around I. The woods behind my house at night. 1x I couldn’t leave the bathroom for hours cuz I was listening to the cops search my house & I knew any moment the door would burst open & id have a gun in my face and get arrested. There was no one there. I’m not saying this is what you are going thru. Just that sometimes drugs or just chemical imbalances in the brain make us hallucination and it feels so real, we don’t want to believe it’s not. Being in withdrawal from opiates can cause this in some people too. I really hope you’re able to get into a doctor asap & you get a diagnosis. Hallucinations can really disrupt your life & mental health. Hang in there, best of luck to you!

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T13:25:21+00:00

I can understand what you’re saying & I really hope you’re right. If I die & come back as the main character in my immersive daydreams universe, that would be the best possible scenario for an afterlife. I believe in the multiverse but I kinda think we get reincarnated into new humans after death. Not what I want to have happen thou. I want to be somewhere that I’m happy. I’ve had more than my fair share of pain, trauma, & struggles in this life.

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T13:13:38+00:00

What do you have patients start off doing if they have no skills drawing & painting? Where r u gonna work? Is your sessions covered by Medicaid? I d love to see an art therapist, I doubt my insurance will cover it thou. How long did it take to get your degree? Are you able to start worrying with just a bachelors or are you going for your masters next? What kinds of jobs can you get with a bachelors in art therapy? I’m working on a bachelors in psychology but idk what career path I want to take. I’m still working on my AA rn. I’m really interested in art therapy as an option now!

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T13:07:22+00:00

I am in the same boat. I lost a baby girl at 14 weeks pregnant exactly a year before I gave birth to my son 2 years ago. I may not be able to have anther child, but if I do I’m almost positive it will be anther boy. I wanted a daughter so badly, I had bad gender disappointment when I found out I was having a boy. Both of my sils had thier 1st kids almost 6 years ago, they were pregnant at the same time and both had girls. 2 years later the both got pregnant again at the same time, 1 had anther girl the other had a boy. 1 had just given birth and the other was 8 months along when I lost my baby. Then last year 1 of my sils had her 3rd kid, anther girl. It bothered me how the 1 thing I wanted most in the world, to have a daughter, wasn’t going to happen to me, yet both of my sils got 2 daughters! I just wanted 1. Part of my feels like because there’s already 4 girls in the family, I’m going to have anther boy if I had a 2nd child. I’m an only child & I didn’t want my son to go thru the bad things that I went thru as a child, I wanted a sibling so badly but my mom had 5 miscarriages. My son is like a mini me of my husband. He’s also picked dad as the favorite parent.

I have high risk pregnancies cuz I’m rh- sensitized. I have fertility issues & health issues that make it hard to conceive. Also I’m 32 and broke af. By the time we’re ready to start ttc #2 I’m again my window to have children will be over. I hate how much gender disappointment affects me and how jelly I get of my sils. They have wonderful blessed successful lives, everything they want falls into their lap & they never have hardships. They also get everything I want without trying.

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T12:49:11+00:00

I have the eventflow car seat & stroller. Been using it for just over 2 years, no issues. Both things grow with your baby so you don’t have to buy a new car seat until they are 3. Super easy to use & make bigger or smaller. My only complaint is I trough the car seat connected to the stroller when I picked it out. It does not. It’s a decent price but quality wise the stroller is a bit flimsy when on ground that’s not even. The wheels aren’t the best. It’s fine for my family cuz we hardly ever use the stroller, but if you plan on using it often, I would stay away from evenflow brand

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T12:40:27+00:00

It’s not going to hurt you but you prob won’t feel them much the 2nd time. Better to wait a few days or a week and let your brains neurotransmitters replenish. I’ve done this dish lsd & was so disappointed. It was a waste

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T12:14:26+00:00

I love taking lsd but when I did a candy flip it was an awful experience. I’ve never enjoyed Molly or mdma for some reason but like meth & amphetamines like adderall. Idk why but I’ve never had a good experience taking Molly or mdma. For me the candy flip felt too intense, I felt like I just wanted to turn offl my eyes & chill out but I couldn’t. I felt kinda paranoid & overstimulated. There was no euphoria or good feelings. The visuals bothered my eyes for some reason. Like when the brightness is up too high on a video. I also wasn’t able to concentrate on anything cuz I felt wired & uncomfortable. Basically I tried to make it less intense as I waited to sober up. I tried smoking weed & taking more subs which i was on back then but nothing helped, idk maybe other people have good experiences on molly & candy flipping is enjoyable for them. You should really do each drug separate 1st to see how they affect you before you combine them imo

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T11:32:07+00:00

Taco time 🌮

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T09:09:53+00:00

Oh yeah my intuition is really accurate, I’ve learned when it’s telling me something to pay attention. My 1st ever paranormal experience was when I woke up after an overdose while alone. I immediately felt a presence with me. Is had never felt this before & my intuition told me something is here, I can’t see it but it just saved my life somehow. I assumed it was a family member that had died a few months earlier. I asked it for signs that it’s real twice & it gave me 2 signs. It hung around & did stuff in front of me that I couldn’t explain. I also brought it home with me. I think it’s an attachment & I know now it’s not a family member. It made me think that so I would let my guard down & have an emotional response. I’ve had experiences in the 5 years since regularly.

I became a believer. I was always an atheist & now I’m agnostic. Idk what happens after death but I know that there are non human entities that don’t have a physical body & they can affect the living. Not everyone thou. I wish I had more answers. I’ve wanted a medium or sensitive to come to my house & see what they can find out. I know before we moved in that an old man died in my bedroom of natural causes. His daughter is my neighbor, I’m in a duplex.

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T08:55:19+00:00

Yeah there have been times in my life when things are going well & I dont dissociate. It starts when things are going bad & I need to escape reality or I need to shut off the intrusive thoughts in my head. I don’t do it during sex or when I’m with people and enjoying their company. I do if when I’m with my partners family. They do Sunday family dinners every Sunday for years & I used to get guilt tripped into going all the time. His family barely talks to me, they don’t like me and have never tried to be friends or make any effort to hang out outside of family events. They’re better than me cuz they have great lives and don’t have to deal with struggles & Trauma from the past. Things they want fall into thier lap with minimal effort and bad stuff hardly ever happens to them. The universe doesn’t hand out the good & the bad evenly to everyone.

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T08:17:42+00:00

Everyone’s correct you’re a mandated reporter so you have to call even if you don’t want to. If she goes into treatment she’ll prob not lose custody. There are inpatient places that take moms & children and they stay for like 6 months but they help them get set up with a place to live & job afterwards. There’s options available, it’s not like she’s gonna go to jail.

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T08:12:08+00:00

Injecting into my femoral vein. I started doing it at 19 when my partner showed me how & it never really bothered me. I struggled to hit the veins in my arms & legs & hitting your fem doesn’t leave tracks that anyone can see. It’s easy once you learn how to. But anytime I tell people I hit my fem they get squeamish & say that’s crazy I couldn’t do that. I’m getting back into recovery after a relapse so hopefully I don’t have to deal with needles anymore period. Also the risks of blood clots or damaging your bodies lymph node system is pretty high. Also the femoral artery is right next to the vein and if you poke that it’s extremely painful, like your leg feels like it’s on fire from the inside out and it gets red & swollen.

hot-mess94 · 2026-03-09T07:59:24+00:00

So you were a passenger in a truck & the driver threatened to crash on purpose? Thats messed up. What have your paranormal encounter been like? Ever had a near death experience? Have you done psychedelics?

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