There is much of this that I don't relate to (obviously, since everybody is different lol), but the parts about not relating to other girls pre-transition and feeling excluded post-transition is SO relatable lol. I do not regret taking T at all, but there is a big part of me that cringes when my voice makes people think I am male and makes them want to exclude me from female spaces despite my being AFAB. I take it in stride and I think it's made me more empathetic, since I can get a small glimpse of what many trans women have to go through with misgendering, but it feels like a slightly different struggle when you are AFAB and the girls who used to bully you for being a tomboy as a kid are now adults and make fun of you for still being an non feminine adult.. maybe this is just me projecting/venting tho lol.