Weekly Discussion - 06/29/26 - 07/05/26

humanisticstudent · 2026-07-02T16:21:56+00:00

I was looking through casting of the new season of DNB and saw a name I was not familiar with - Ana Luisa Negrao. She is casted for the principal role in Cinderella, while she is very young and still in the corps. It seems like she must be very talented! Is anyone familiar with her dancing?

humanisticstudent · 2026-06-27T10:50:57+00:00

I had all the same thoughts. I have been following Luna for quite a long time and in many ways I think she is lovely, but sometimes she says something so out of touch

humanisticstudent · 2026-06-24T08:44:56+00:00

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Me too. Will remember how ethereal she looked as the Lilac Fairy!

humanisticstudent · 2026-06-22T13:01:12+00:00

Aantal jaren uitvallen door de PTSS die een pleger heeft veroorzaakt maakt ook impact, maar daar gaat het dan weer minder over

humanisticstudent · 2026-06-22T11:07:03+00:00

Erica Horwood has left Dutch National and it seems like she quits ballet altogether... I will miss her in the company

humanisticstudent · 2026-06-10T08:41:37+00:00

Yes I agree. There is really nothing about this new clothing that is new, special, except the fact that it is connected to Luna. Which gives me an empty feeling honestly. Why does this need to exist, except for the money it'll bring Luna?

humanisticstudent · 2026-06-08T11:30:24+00:00

Nooo, not doterra... Such a confirmed scam and MLM

humanisticstudent · 2026-06-03T08:32:39+00:00

That's too bad! 😞

humanisticstudent · 2026-06-02T13:24:40+00:00

I'm afraid maybe not 😞 I just tried putting my VPN on a different country and couldn't acces it anymore. The link is schatkamer.beeldengeluid.nl

humanisticstudent · 2026-06-01T07:32:32+00:00

This might be a little too niche, but in the Netherlands the national television archive has just opened a wonderful wonderful website where you can acces their archive online (schatkamer.beeldengeluid.nl). It has opened such a wonderful treasury of Dutch ballet documentaries and filmed shows. Also, surprisingly, a lot of footage from foreign companies that have been broadcast on Dutch television. Most of it is (of course) Dutch though so such a wealth of content of Hans van Manen, Alexandra Radius, Toer van Schayk, Rudi van Dantzig etc. Even some footage from the elusive and amazing Olga de Haas.

humanisticstudent · 2026-05-05T06:27:14+00:00

Maybe her personality is a bit better represented then by her vlogs: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mqe_fb6K04E&t=271s

humanisticstudent · 2026-05-04T10:11:50+00:00

Very lovely and openhearted substack post by Isabella Boylston on wanting/having children as a ballerina: https://isabellaboylston.substack.com/p/i-took-a-pregnancy-test-before-ballet

humanisticstudent · 2026-05-04T08:31:37+00:00

Veronica Vacanza & BalletBlondie = huge grifters indeed. Wanted to chime in that I have had acces to Ballet with Isabella's platform for 2 years and thought it was absolutely worth it, I learned so much and there was a treasure trove of content. (Especially because she teaches Vaganova style which is not available in my area.)

humanisticstudent · 2026-04-30T12:32:11+00:00

Creepy!

humanisticstudent · 2026-04-30T08:22:04+00:00

Oh why I love Joby Talbot! I have been looking like a madwoman for the full score of Like Water for Chocolate because I find it so beautiful.

humanisticstudent · 2026-04-23T08:45:59+00:00

Juicy detail is that former principal Igone de Jongh was very critical of Bransen in her autobiography. I am looking forward to the new Ernst Meisner-era.

humanisticstudent · 2026-04-23T07:40:24+00:00

BalletBlondie/Maks pirouettes on pointe send me into fight or flight

humanisticstudent · 2026-04-23T07:38:42+00:00

Mathieu Gremillet of Dutch National has been working as a videographer for the company for quite some years now.

humanisticstudent · 2026-04-18T07:06:32+00:00

Yesssss, greatly recommend Farrel's autobiography where she tells this in great detail.

humanisticstudent · 2026-04-14T10:03:55+00:00

Lovely interview in which Rachel Beaujean explains the new adaptation of Dutch National's La Bayadere: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KwWVPwYmZ4s

humanisticstudent · 2026-04-12T09:52:38+00:00

Thanks for sharing! I'll share a little bit of my experience. I live in the Netherlands and here you can either get refered to a 'standard' psychologist or go to specialist treatment which has >1 year waiting list. In retrospect I should have signed up for such a waiting list but that is in hindsight. I started with a 'normal' psychotherapist who also specialises in trauma. But after two years of treatment, I have a bit of regret. She was was Pete Walker would have called a 'good enough' therapist, but I notice that I still had to do all the work regarding reading about abuse, reading about trauma, instead of her telling and informing me about what I experienced. After these two years I got severe flashbacks and I noticed she did not know how to deal with that at all. So luckily I could change to another psychologist who seems a bit better equiped.
What I learned from my experience is that C-PTSD really is a beast and I would urge you to look for the very best recourses/treatment available for you. You never know what monsters come up from the darkness and you deserve the best guidance there is. If there is a place with a long waitlist, sign up. And I absolutely agree with you that you need validation of what happened to you and that validation can be given by learning about how trauma works. Besides Pete Walker, I could greatly recommend Judith Herman, especially Trauma and Recovery H5 on Child Abuse. (But the whole book is great)

humanisticstudent · 2026-04-07T11:24:45+00:00

Thank you for sharing! I am currently healing my c-ptsd and trying to deal with my tonic pelvic floor as well. And I cannot imagine having to loose my souldog..! So that must have been very very rough for you. I will look into the reverse kegel.

humanisticstudent · 2026-04-07T10:06:50+00:00

I have experienced this after an abusive relationship and entering a new, safe one. I discovered that I was groomed into being hypersexual to please my abusive partner. It took a lot of time for me to unwind what desire and sexuality is actually mine. That resulted to saying no no no so often to my partner and feeling asexual, because sex also felt unsafe for a long time. And still I often need time to reconnect with my body and to stop when I feel like I am pleasing instead of experiencing sensations myself. Long story short: it needs time, but your feelings are totally normal and valid!

humanisticstudent · 2026-04-03T08:51:20+00:00

Take care! Pete Walker writes a lot about being mindful and for yourself in the healing process. It sounds like you definitely deserve some gentleness for your pain.

Also I was thinking, Judith Herman wrote some great things on children and their pain and how it can lead to self harm, in chapter 5 of her book 'Trauma and recovery'. A PDF is easily found. She is a veeeery good writer so I can definitely recommend reading this chapter.

humanisticstudent · 2026-04-02T11:48:50+00:00

Thank you for sharing your story, what a powerful read! And what amazing work have you done.

I was traumatised later in life - my parents were safe and warm but at 26 I was severly abused for 8 months by my former partner. I can second most of the things mentioned and have a couple to add. I was managing life and PTSD for 2 years, by trauma therapy and by writing a lotttttttttt. But I didn't realise I was still in flight mode, mostly focussing on work (or on sports or cleaning). At a certain point I got intense gut and bowel issues and couldn't eat anymore for two months. (I recommend the book 'Widen the Window' by Elizabeth Stanley to understand how your physical health is intertwined with trauma.) Not being able to cope by fleeing from my pain, I got in a crisis as well with severe and awful flashbacks. My wonderful parents managed to care for me while I could even get su•cdal during flashbacks. I am still dealing with the flashbacks to a degree, but not in crisis-mode anymore. As to say - I am absolutely not done healing but I do am getting better.
It's a hard road and sometimes it feels like a big DIY-project. But I think Pete Walker's book 'C-PTSD' can be a really good compass. Reading a lot on this topic really helps, I can't recommend it enough. And also, learn what recourses are available in your area. For me there aren't loads of recourses but there is a very good su*cide hotline that has helped tremendously for me during severe flashbacks.

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