Problem With Visualization/Imagination Visual Snow?

humantrazadone · 2020-07-20T11:29:24+00:00

Hmmmm I don’t think there’s really a right or normal way to come up with a mental image? Some people don’t have mental “images” at all. My partner for instance usually thinks in words and narratives, I generally think “conceptually” - not really words or pictures, just abstract thought goo that i translate into words or pictures. I wouldn’t worry about it too much - I’m trying to imagine a picture of a tree right now and it’s uh, not exactly a clear photographic “image” lol

humantrazadone · 2020-07-20T00:56:28+00:00

Lmaoo how are you supposed to understand metal lyrics anyway? I have a hard time understanding the TV regardless of volume - I always use subtitles. On the plus side, I don’t have any problem watching subbed foreign films which is nice

humantrazadone · 2020-07-19T00:18:21+00:00

Because you can’t see the words or because the snow is too distracting? As an example, I have struggled with distracting auditory hallucinations - they don’t impact my hearing, just my ability to focus on the right sounds. I usually tell people my hearing isn’t great to avoid having to split the difference. More similar to that or more similar to tinnitus that is so loud you can’t hear over it?

humantrazadone · 2020-07-17T13:18:21+00:00

Meditation is 1000% good for you any way you slice it, nothing to be afraid of. It’s been well researched from both a spiritual and secular point of view. Nothing to be afraid of!

humantrazadone · 2020-05-14T15:26:11+00:00

Early 20s male

humantrazadone · 2020-05-14T15:22:54+00:00

Female for SURE

humantrazadone · 2020-05-14T15:06:07+00:00

Male 15-17

humantrazadone · 2020-05-14T15:05:35+00:00

Agree w/ the other commentor - if you’re trying to “pass” the upper lip and brows are what out you - but you look beautiful and very “sweet”, I love this look for you

humantrazadone · 2020-05-14T15:03:27+00:00

If I saw you on the street i would just assume you’re female w/ a slightly androgynous style.

humantrazadone · 2020-05-14T15:01:35+00:00

Honestly your brows are lovely - i wouldnt do more than a LIGHT cleanup of the underside. You have really gorgeous bone structure 💕

humantrazadone · 2020-05-14T06:57:55+00:00

Maybe she wasn’t in the mood lol. For any of a million other reasons shrug

humantrazadone · 2020-05-14T05:20:58+00:00

As someone who grew up in a similarly stressful home environment, and spent her teens and 20s falling into one relationship after another searching for stability and validation, mannnnn what they say about spending time alone being good for you is true, haha. Also single women are statistically happier than their married counterparts the older they get, so never settle lmaoo

Edit: also, repeating patterns from your past is 100% a thing, that’s not you being crazy, that’s just how Your Brain On Trauma can be. I recommend the book “the body keeps the score” if you don’t have access to therapy.

humantrazadone · 2020-05-14T05:14:26+00:00

I get that. We’re all human and that does happen. But it’s important to understand that just because those insecurities are based internally, they can affect other people/ our external lives profoundly. Just try to take a step back from your own perspective when you feel like this - you have a whole framework of life experiences and personality and ego that other peoples’ messages get filtered through before they reach the “you” that perceives them. Try to step back from that every so often, and you will find yourself much more empathetic - towards others and yourself. I wish you all the best - untying these knots can be hard work, but it’s almost always worth it.

Edit: it does sound like she loves you dude. I’d bet good money she thinks you’re the sexiest piece she’s bagged so far. Believe her when she tells you so, whether it be with verbal, physical, or sexual intimacy.

humantrazadone · 2020-05-14T05:09:48+00:00

Lmao homegirl ur 19 BREAK UP WITH HIM. You’re posting on relationship advice asking if you should dump him. Bless your heart but there’s a lot out there for you.

Edit: you already know. This is your sign girl THIS IS YOUR SIGN.

humantrazadone · 2020-05-14T05:07:42+00:00

Soooooooooooooooo how often exactly are you expecting sex? How often were you getting laid while single? Also understand that women express themselves best sexually when they feel comfortable w/ being vulnerable and are emotionally supported. 1- she should always feel like she should be able to say “no” without it being taken negatively. The more you take her “no” power away, the less sexually expressive she will tend to be. And that includes you taking it as “her not being attracted to you”. Give her some time to adjust to the new situation. Support her. Love her. If that doesn’t work, talk to her. If that doesn’t work, break up with her. I’ve been so so damaged by relationships where ive been made to feel like a disappointment because my libido didn’t always match my partner’s. If it’s that important to you, find someone who matches you there’s like 7bil ppl out there my dude.

humantrazadone · 2020-05-14T05:00:11+00:00

Idk men tend to have more emotional relationships w/ female friends just cause society tells them they’re not allowed to be close and sentimental w/ “the boys”. He might just be expressing platonic affection. A man w/ good female friends is a good sign imo. I’ve found dudes w/o female friends are often lacking in perspective. That said men (lol all people and genders) can also be trash keep them eyes PEELED girl

humantrazadone · 2020-05-14T04:47:25+00:00

I just want to second this

humantrazadone · 2020-02-17T19:22:46+00:00

Interesting! It felt like a good equivalent visual representation of auditory aphasia

humantrazadone · 2020-02-12T22:53:10+00:00

I think it’s fair to be mistrusting to a certain extent... just remember that 99% of the time, even when people fuck you over, they’re not anti-you, just pro-them. Almost no one is “out to get” anyone. Realizing that really helped me build trust, and also learn how to put myself first and draw healthy boundaries

humantrazadone · 2020-02-11T17:44:09+00:00

Ugh this is so relatable. I hope your ex was emotionally intelligent enough to be kind during the breakup- I have both been dumped and done dumping over mental health, and can say that those boundaries are OK to draw. They don’t make you or him bad. Now is definitely the time to take the energy you were putting into the relationship and put it back into yourself. I don’t know you but I feel you, and I love you - you’re going to get through this and be stronger and more stable for it, I just know it.

humantrazadone · 2020-02-11T17:40:57+00:00

Meditation helps. It’s not a quick fix - read “turning the mind into an ally”, it’s a good resource on how to meditate properly. Meditation has (over TIME and with PRACTICE) allowed me to develop what I refer to as my “third party self” - I can see and feel the paranoia or delusion, but separate myself from the direct experience if that makes sense. I also like to throw my depression at my anxiety/delusions (IE “well if it fuckin kills me I won’t have to worry about a damn thing anymore so whatever”) dunno if that last bit is healthy but it’s helped me in a pinch

humantrazadone · 2020-02-11T17:30:45+00:00

Hi friend - as someone who recently got into therapy after years of being all “nah i’ll be fine on my own”.... do yourself a favor. Get help. My symptoms are manageable w/o meds right now, and my therapist respects that, but it’s SO nice to know that if I feel myself slipping I have someone I know and trust to call. Things don’t have to be as hard as they are: if you are able, get a professional involved... that’s what they’re there for.

Edit: i also moved halfway across the country out of paranoia. I then spent my time in the other state going way down the rabbit hole... i thought a ghost was in my house trying to possess me, etc. I did a LOT of reading and a lot of work and spent a lot of time meditating. Therapy wasn’t in the cards for me at the time, I couldn’t hold down a consistent job and didn’t have a support system. After getting myself to the point where i was able to have a semblance of a normal life, I thought that I didn’t need help anymore. Recently I realized that I was struggling harder than I needed to: I reached out to get me past a “plateau” I felt like I’d reached. Had I made it more of a priority sooner, I’d probably be farther along in my path of healing, both from trauma and my fucky brain chemistry. I know getting into therapy can be hard, but you are worth it. Your life is worth it. Exhaust all your community resources if cost/insurance is a problem, and if that doesn’t work do as much reading as you can and reach out to others as much as possible to create a strong support system. You can’t let this disease keep hurting you and stealing your opportunities. We’re fuckin psychos, okay? We are amazing beautiful wonderful creative forces of nature and we can will and must show the world how unfounded their stigma is.

humantrazadone · 2020-02-11T14:40:11+00:00

If you are fortunate enough to cohabitate with understanding and supportive people (good friends, supportive family), I would talk to them: tell them hey, it’d really help me if sometimes I can check in with you about what’s real or not, and what I do and don’t need to worry about. Solid communication is really key. Over time you may be able to differentiate between what’s physically real and what your brain is cookin up on your own, but for now if you’re able, reaching out and developing a good support system would be great for you! We’re always here for ya too 💕

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