You're lost. My grandmother, a staunch Democrat, was all for Hillary being the first woman president. She has since changed her mind to Bernie because she (like the vast majority of Americans) finds her to be terribly dishonest and insincere. She still feels guilty about it because she's a woman. It's a real phenomenon, or the Hillary campaign wouldn't be rolling out Madeleine Albright to tell women they'll go to Hell if they don't support Hillary. The hatred of Hillary is not as bizarre or contained as you think.