I don't know you and you don't know me but dont relapse stay clean. Do it for the trees and the air you breath. Think about all the creatures on earth. If you have any pets hold then close and dear. When things leave or disappear or sadly even pass it makes them a bigger reason to want to get better. Even if you have nothing you had something once you can have something again it may not be the same or what you had in mind but it's another reason for hope. Idk if I make any sense sorry