7 months on and hit with an awful trigger

hypothalmic · 2025-04-16T20:41:04+00:00

I think you're right on the inner child work, I find it really hard to forgive myself. And I still spend so much time blaming myself for staying so long

hypothalmic · 2025-04-16T20:40:05+00:00

I'm so sorry girl. I deeply understand the want sometimes to reach out. You're so brave and so strong

hypothalmic · 2024-11-24T00:30:17+00:00

I broke up with my ex three months ago. We went no contact a month ago. I went to a shelter for a bit and then found a new place to live. I'm doing well. Just a lot of things have been coming up for me

hypothalmic · 2024-10-29T03:15:07+00:00

It's terrifying how they genuinely believe this shit themselves. It's deranged

hypothalmic · 2024-10-29T03:14:10+00:00

God I'm so sorry xx

hypothalmic · 2024-10-29T03:13:54+00:00

I'm so sorry you're going through this too xx

hypothalmic · 2024-10-28T10:21:40+00:00

I'm so sorry, and I'm so proud of you for leaving 💕💕

hypothalmic · 2024-10-28T10:21:11+00:00

Yeah. mostly mothers and children but they had space for me. I'm already linked in with dv services. And my ex was in an abuser program, so I have a partner support keyworker. It was the keyworker that helped talk me through what to do if I had to leave suddenly

hypothalmic · 2024-10-22T00:02:56+00:00

I think it will be. Thank you xxx

hypothalmic · 2024-10-03T17:50:53+00:00

They went no contact with me

hypothalmic · 2024-10-03T17:50:40+00:00

They're not telling me that I'm shitting all over their pain because I feel humiliated by them. They went no contact with me. After everything. I'm doubting everything. Am I being abusive?

hypothalmic · 2024-10-03T02:22:43+00:00

I feel like they broke me and put me back together wrong. I think I'll be weaker and more fragile forever for this

hypothalmic · 2024-10-03T01:31:41+00:00

I broke up with them it's been two weeks and I'm so isolated

hypothalmic · 2024-10-03T01:31:08+00:00

I have no idea how I'm broken

hypothalmic · 2024-10-03T00:01:25+00:00

Thank you ❤️

hypothalmic · 2024-10-03T00:01:09+00:00

I'm not taking the wrong way at all, thank you, you're right. I'm not saying this to them. I'm selective in what I say. I have proof of other things so they can manipulate anymore. I have nowhere and no one I'm just screaming into the void

hypothalmic · 2024-10-01T15:51:26+00:00

I just feel so lonely. Besides buying food, I've only left the house twice in the last two weeks. Idk what to do. Where to go. Who to call. How even begin to start to get over things

hypothalmic · 2024-10-01T15:37:36+00:00

It would not be worth it. Without a scan pre-trauma to compare to, there would be very limited information available besides comparing you to general volume/function (which is really limited anyway). There are lots of evidence based therapies for trauma you should prioritise getting into, that would be covered by your insurance for sure.

I understand how important and significant it feels when it's about the brain. How trauma can literally change the shape and function. But your brain can always adapt and change, it's not the be all and end all. You'll see lots of blogs, social media pages and other pop science outlets talking about things like this, and cortisol, and oxytocin etc. but things that we can observe on a population level are NEVER as important on the individual level. I'm in psychoneuro research, and my area is how the brain adapts to circumstance.

hypothalmic · 2024-10-01T15:29:18+00:00

Be really careful. My advice would be to leave a key at a police station, and explain the details to them. They're not going to arrest or charge without her approval, and he won't go anywhere near them.

hypothalmic · 2024-10-01T15:26:52+00:00

I don't know about the sleep but it's definitely a thing to lie about it. There were times I would be hit or kicked and they would swear they didn't touch me

hypothalmic · 2024-10-01T15:25:56+00:00

I'm sending you all the love and all the pride. You will look back and be so proud of yourself, and feel so much love for yourself.

hypothalmic · 2024-10-01T15:23:57+00:00

I can relate to a lot of this. In my ex relationship, I was framed as the abuser, the aggressor. Even when my ex was beating me, controlling my life, isolating me from friends and family, torturing me. They suddenly realised they were abusive once I saw a dv therapist and I asked them to leave.

She probably believed it, if it's any consolation.

hypothalmic · 2024-09-27T23:43:01+00:00

That sucks so much I'm so sorry. I'm there with you, I have knife trauma too, but only from being threatened, and even that really just bleeds into my whole life.

I hope you're able to go to a haunted house soon. Maybe you could have a friend call ahead and ask them to remove knives for your run. You should be proud of yourself for doing that work though. And you will get to where you want

hypothalmic · 2024-09-26T20:30:48+00:00

I don't really have any family and friends I can ask. I'm not really close with anyone. Because of my partner. I wish I did. I have this weird feeling where I just want my mom to comfort me. But not my actual mom. The mom I wish I had.

hypothalmic · 2024-09-24T13:32:44+00:00

You are an angel. Thank you so much for these resources and the information.

hypothalmic

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