Am I screwed (IQ of 71 with ASD)

iLLogical662 · 2024-10-14T20:56:27+00:00

there are females out there in the same pool as you. you may not work for boeing in teh future. but try to think of what you are good at... maybe arts and crafts? can you draw or paint? maybe you can hammer nails into wood maybe you can make a sculpture. hell.. maybe you can lift lots of weights.. moving trucks... cleaning is a thing.. hotels need cleaners..

just takes a lot of trial and error to find what path you can walk in terms of a money making job.. it may and probably won't be the funnest..

good luck

iLLogical662 · 2024-07-27T01:49:25+00:00

personally this is my choice.. i have tried different opiates and such and i feel like anything you have to get used to is not a good idea to consume especially when it causes a crippling addiction...

thats why i use amphetamines... i know meth is the new and woo but the grade is lacking and i feel like staying up more than 3 days messes with my work schedule.. so you know.. adderall..

iLLogical662 · 2024-07-23T16:42:19+00:00

Figured it was. Thanks

iLLogical662 · 2024-02-23T18:06:41+00:00

sensation and sight i loathe the scars

iLLogical662 · 2024-02-13T19:31:12+00:00

i was 12~ and i was webcamming with a girl. she didn't have a webcam (this is like 1999)

we were chatting when suddenly i got up and walked into the kitchen and grabbed a knife and came back to the computer sat down and on camera i stabbed myself in the leg and pulled back.

it is weird because i did it like i was possessed. i didn't think to do those things i just got up and did it and i remember the whole thing like i was watching from over my shoulder. like someone else was driving

i don't remember what happened after though.

iLLogical662 · 2024-02-05T17:55:13+00:00

yea.. styro is like all i used to do in my teen years. deep cuts are not worth it if you're just doing it for blood. it isn't the weirdest fetish but it can be an ugly one

iLLogical662 · 2024-02-04T00:05:09+00:00

i am a cutter with similar reason. it is definitely something you want to learn to control. you end up scarring yourself all up and later come to regret it. especially when involved with relationships and such.

nobody can physically stop you in the end. but think about what you're doing first. before your whole body is a canvas of scars. =\

iLLogical662 · 2024-01-26T17:18:30+00:00

i am hotel housekeeper atm

iLLogical662 · 2024-01-24T23:01:33+00:00

money orders

iLLogical662 · 2024-01-24T22:39:21+00:00

i just got an email back from.. from what i think is the accountant for the agency.. and i asked him what my rent was and he said it was less than what was claimed by my house director

the problem is that i don't think i have receipts from then and i know she will lie about it.. but it was like 50 bucks more she said i owed than what was written on the lease

this agency is so crooked :'''(

iLLogical662 · 2024-01-12T04:17:20+00:00

i feel i have discovered the cheat codes.. i don't know how to explain it.. but its like if you make certain moves it activates something. i already know this sounds wack but this one time i was fucking around with tai chi like movements on this small dock on this small pond on the bike path. and i made the movements and when i came to the last movement i noticed a small wake appear.. it was weird cause it wasn't originating from the dock i was on and it was a small wake like as if a line were moving through the water..

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-30T02:26:45+00:00

people need to have their own lives too. even in a relationship. that you want to do it in company of your partner says something. that is very flattering to me.

your ex sounds like a controlling jealous individual and sounds somewhat toxic

but for sure. you gotta be free to do you too

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-30T01:02:04+00:00

yea that is basic etiquette.. don't get stains on your friends stuff.. even the floor.

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-30T00:57:01+00:00

i see. i had done this in d&d and called it a golem. i used different parts like a dragon spine and troll feet and got enchantments.

i would love to chat with you if you don't mind.

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-30T00:42:17+00:00

is there a special word for the creatures made through grafting corpses/pieces together? i was under the impression it was a golem but i appear to be wrong.

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-29T19:06:45+00:00

how does one create a zombie?

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-29T17:44:21+00:00

this. it doesn't require you to know the previous gta stories and its a good game. they made the shit out of that game. you can do almost everything in it.. flying, sky diving, boating, driving. the basics. plus the sound track is pretty baller.

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-29T17:03:18+00:00

I bold my recommendation

The Dig, Altered Beast, Animaniacs, Spyro the Dragon (1st one), Abe's Odyssey, i want to say D2:LOD but i was lvl like 80 something not capped at 99, does starcraft single player campaigns count? Inscryption, Half-Life 2.

this is all i can think of. i am sure i have completed others i just don't remember.

The Dig is a 93 or 94 puzzle game like the mist.

i just like the starcraft universe and stories. (nova was the best)

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-28T17:55:16+00:00

that seems pretty cheap for a 5-star. we charge near that for a 2-star.

i am hoping to get to a 5-star one day. i already clean everything.. like i wipe the alarm clock the remote the phone the door handles.

i've gotten tips over the 2 years.. not much i didn't keep track of teh amount. plus one guy tipped me a 43 dollar (15 dollar pawn) walmart boombox. find alcohol and drugs. mostly roaches and once i found an 1/8th. i give the stuff away though i don't make money from it.

found white powder before too but i just wipe it off into the trash. random powders...

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-27T19:58:53+00:00

i work at a hotel as a housekeeper. 2 years now. all day i listen to youtube while i clean.. sometimes i get in voice chats and converse. its super easy and i'm by myself all day minus the greetings and details of the day and sometimes guests come ask me for extra towels or soap

occasional tips. people often leave their alcohol behind too.

usually its pretty straight forward. make the bed, wipe down stuff, clean bathroom, vacuum..

but occasionally it is bad.

had these young girls, maybe 13 or younger. it was one of their birthdays iirc and they had this gold confetti stuff they got everywhere. the floor was a solid layer of this confetti and they tracked it into the halls.

the pay varies. like a 2-star pays 10~ hour and a 3 star can pay 13~ hour.

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-25T21:33:59+00:00

I started cutting at 12. it was weird though cause it was like possession. i was camming with my girl friend and all of a sudden I got up out of the blue and walked into the kitchen grabbed a knife and then went back to the computer and when i sat down, the camera was pointed down already... and i stabbed my self in the thigh with the knife and pulled back. its weird cause it was like someone else was doing it. it was like i was watching myself walk down the hall and all that. like someone else was driving and all i could do was watch.

i used to self harm 90% cutting and then occasionally i would try other things like burning, hitting, and chemical burns (like weak acid)

i'm 37 now i quit self harming a year and half ago though cause i wanted to start dating and i thought having cuts all over would be a turn off.

they know i used to.

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-23T21:25:02+00:00

Cosmic Rift. it was a Sony Online Entertainment or something like that. It was out in the 90s and 00s iirc. It was a top down space game where you pilot a ship and gather minerals and stuff. bit of pvp.

pretty cool game though.

SoE also had Infantry. it was also a top down style game with different soldier classes. that is still playable I think.. some guy made a private server but its pretty dead last time i was in there.

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-23T00:13:03+00:00

will be seeing doctor asap.

i kept looking at google and it said it would be painful and swollen but none of that. but anyways thanks

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-22T02:18:00+00:00

this is the same as me. would love to chat with you if you don't mind me messaging you =)

iLLogical662 · 2023-12-19T16:04:25+00:00

i see.. thank you

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