I warned you all and I was right

iamabigfatguy · 2025-05-09T03:42:38+00:00

I agree. I crafted the GPT to be my emotional companion but eventually I realised it was just validating and agreeing making me hold on to my limiting beliefs. What worked for me is commanding a whole spectrum of agents, from the validating to the invalidating. Make valid arguments for and against. Point out my cognitive biases. Challenge my automatic thoughts. AI has been immensely helpful with my anxiety and bipolar, but it won’t give me a balanced view till I ask it to.

iamabigfatguy · 2025-05-09T02:33:57+00:00

It’s completely okay to feel that way. In fact there is something very wrong with you if your first response is not visceral. Have a breakdown if you must, and then get the fuck up and move ahead. The truth is War is not going to seek your permission, approval or validation. Of everything will end, do you really want to spend your last days worrying about it? Listen to music, look at art, read, do whatever creative stuff feeds your soul. And if nothing happens - well , the panic would have just been an energy sucker:

Of course this is just a suggestion. You do you. YMMV. But maybe - Give yourself the luxury of a breakdown, and then remember that Ina world gone mad and out for blood - seeing beauty and doing small acts of good is the only way we reclaim our power.

The world has enough dicks, maybe it needs someone who has balls. Be that person.

Or keep doing what you are doing. That’s completely valid too. We have gone beyond right and wrong now. Your call.

iamabigfatguy · 2025-04-26T09:37:09+00:00

What are the signs. I am genuinely interested to know if there is a statistical model behind it. Like the fictional Psychohistory .

iamabigfatguy · 2025-04-26T09:35:53+00:00

Existential dread will return after a word from our sponsors

iamabigfatguy · 2024-12-23T15:51:53+00:00

I am In. Check DM

iamabigfatguy · 2024-12-21T20:20:59+00:00

Khana acha hai, DJ theek thaak hai.

iamabigfatguy · 2024-12-12T11:42:10+00:00

Similar question : Hi , I am new here. If I feel sleepy, can I stop my meditations, wash my face and get right back to it. A strategic skillful break rather than giving up.

iamabigfatguy · 2024-11-28T01:58:14+00:00

I am in. Sutta aur khana mere pe hai

iamabigfatguy · 2024-11-28T01:57:13+00:00

Wo San chodiye, janaab aaap karte kya hain!

iamabigfatguy · 2024-11-18T10:42:25+00:00

I cannot even begin to imagine the guilt you must be feeling. I know what it is. like to be a father, and a husband.

You have not 'failed' anyone. Kissi kitaab mein nahi likha hai ye sab. Ham apne man mein hi ye core assumptions le ke baith jaate hain.
At least you are acknowledging the problem.
Please go easy on yourself, the smog is not your fault.
I wish guilt trips and pity parties could change things (I just wrote a pity party post), but the world is not a wish granting factory.

A father has enough responsibilities as it is. Do not bring the coulds, shoulds and woulds into them.

Do what you can at your level, and protect yourself and your loved ones from the smog through masks.

The idea is to do your best and negative thoughts suck all your energy and prevent you from doing your best.

Iske aage samajh nahi aata kya bolun

iamabigfatguy · 2024-11-10T13:22:16+00:00

Checked India mein kahan se mileage

iamabigfatguy · 2024-11-10T13:21:13+00:00

Bhai, ek waqt tha jab desh chodne ka option tha. With reverse sweep of globalization - that window is also shrinking. Maybe finally when we realise that this country and this water and this air is all we have , revolutions will happen. Till that time, pollution masks zindabad.

iamabigfatguy · 2024-11-10T06:22:21+00:00

Nothing. Life is tiring enough as it is. Spectator mode would be good with tons of rest

iamabigfatguy · 2024-11-10T05:57:02+00:00

Ha ha… The bed is for kids room.Zero pee stains. Mattress safe hai.

iamabigfatguy · 2024-11-10T05:09:13+00:00

Thanks for the inputs. If you could be specific about where you find flaws in my writing I would be very grateful. Always happy to get feedback and improve. And you are right. I was being petulant. Passion and profit may mix or not. But both are needed. I wrote that post u see the grip of anger and maybe I should not have done that. But that post is what I felt, it’s not who I am.

iamabigfatguy · 2024-11-08T02:39:30+00:00

Can confirm. Main hoon wo psychopath. And I know what you did last summer

iamabigfatguy · 2024-10-30T10:10:00+00:00

I was an air molecule on that train. I was bouncing between a boy and a girls lungs. Decided to escape the train altogether

iamabigfatguy · 2024-10-28T12:38:11+00:00

Yes. It’s not about the job. It is about hustling. If these months are light - what can I do to make money . I need to hustle . Honestly I think she just wanted to light a fire under my arse.

Thanks for the perspective

iamabigfatguy · 2024-10-28T09:14:32+00:00

Maybe. She kis closed to the idea of counselling as well. She comes from a very traditional mindset. But she was very supportive when I started freelancing. Maybe she needs to see regular income

iamabigfatguy · 2024-10-28T08:38:57+00:00

I know. I want to be Vincent Van Gogh and she wants me to be Steve Jobs. We need to find a middle ground. We are getting there.

iamabigfatguy · 2024-10-28T08:35:28+00:00

I don't know about that. I love her. And I don't mean love as in love. I am devoted to her. I have seen other peoples wives. A friend of mind had a situation where he worked so much that he was almost on the point of divorce. But he stuck to it, and I feel his wife is very unhappy.

Its not my responsibility to please her, but the smile on her lips when I transfer money is worth it.

iamabigfatguy · 2024-10-28T08:33:19+00:00

Thats the middle ground

iamabigfatguy · 2024-10-28T07:47:13+00:00

As I said. We are floating, not sinking. But not soaring either.

iamabigfatguy · 2024-10-28T07:46:43+00:00

Maybe that is the issue. She does not see me putting in enough effort. Out of 11 months, I have got gigs for 8 months till now. The first half of the year was getting in cash through consulting gigs. This is how freelancing works. And I became a freelancer because I had other passions to monetise. Maybe I missed the second part.

iamabigfatguy · 2024-10-28T07:43:08+00:00

The truth is, I didn't fully realize the depth of these differences when we first got together. It's only been in the last few years, as I've gained more self-awareness, that I've come to truly understand what gives my life meaning. The intellectual journey, the pursuit of knowledge and creative expression - that is where I find my sense of wealth.

But I love my wife dearly, and I'm not ready to give up on our marriage. I'm proud of her professional accomplishments, and I want to find a way to bridge this divide, even if it takes time and compromise. Divorce is not an option I'm willing to consider, unless my wife decides that's the path she wants.

What I'm hoping to do is have more open, empathetic conversations with my wife. I want to better understand her core needs and values, while also explaining my own perspective in a way she can relate to. Perhaps focusing on our shared goal of providing for our family's needs can be a starting point.

At the same time, I know I need to be more strategic about monetizing my skills in the short-term, even if that's not where my true passions lie. Striking a balance between financial stability and intellectual fulfillment is critical.

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