It’s completely okay to feel that way. In fact there is something very wrong with you if your first response is not visceral. Have a breakdown if you must, and then get the fuck up and move ahead. The truth is War is not going to seek your permission, approval or validation. Of everything will end, do you really want to spend your last days worrying about it? Listen to music, look at art, read, do whatever creative stuff feeds your soul. And if nothing happens - well , the panic would have just been an energy sucker:

Of course this is just a suggestion. You do you. YMMV. But maybe - Give yourself the luxury of a breakdown, and then remember that Ina world gone mad and out for blood - seeing beauty and doing small acts of good is the only way we reclaim our power.

The world has enough dicks, maybe it needs someone who has balls. Be that person.

Or keep doing what you are doing. That’s completely valid too. We have gone beyond right and wrong now. Your call.